Welcome to the identified cats. Number ten. Thirty, eight happy every thing: whatever you celebrated happy that review didn't celebrate anything. I hope you ve got a great weak weaker its say. We noted the experience where you just keep thing in the end of the year for getting it's the end of the fuckin decade. That's why right at the end of the decade going into a new decade. Speaking of new decade, things I'm announced, the wizard get our tour, which is the name of my tool for next year. I think I'm doing like team cities just between January and July and then more in the fall and winter next year. But if you go to eighty twenty dotcom such where we are posting those now, but it's like Columbus, Ohio in San Francisco in Sacramento wins, oh, my God, Minneapolis En Bloc

Stan and fairly and there's a bunch of dates being added so go go go. Go onto idead anti dotcom, Slash tour to check out the dates and get tickets for that and obscene. They're in yes, of course, I'm gonna bring the wizard guitar, which is my Qatar, which has big wizard and a dragon painted on it. So I will see you hopefully around that time whenever that is in your city. Let's talk about the corporate events that eighty twenty dot com, had rights, my name is Chad, Waller and I've got a melodic death. Metal project called, I know them. Melodic death metal is not a thing. I love that. That's a thing. I've just released. My first album follow the witch which can also be found on been camps but of actions, Youtube and all the other stores, its read a download what school, but the sound was at everything. Aside from my voice is done with virtual instruments. I'm actually musically illiterate kit play anything can't reach music,

either, but we live in a time of that group Billy Matter, because computers are giant, brain things and Youtube can teach us how to do basically anything Chad Waller. I love you because that is brilliant. It of the idea that, like you, don't even in a let not being able plain instruments, stop you from making music and you're absolutely right. There's no excuse anymore with computers that we can actually just make the things that we want. So I have mad respect for that, and I salute you- and I appreciate that end up here. Should go download your melodic death metal album. So thank you. Thank you. Thank you for doing that, Thank you for being a shining example of what I just gotta can a thing can look like this episode is Chris. That it Michael Rosenbaum, two different, mine Sully was on way earlier in the year he of courses this is us on NBC. He was taser face in guardians of galaxies, an incredibly talented. Performer musician and then Rosenbaum, who was also the pod cast a while back. He asked

has a great podcast called inside of you would like arose a bomb which I've been on. And rosy what rosy and selling Rosemont also an incredibly talented musician and date gather, have a fantastic podcast called in that Lydia and I did together podcast about relationships and mental health? so that is also available wherever you get your podcast, but I adore these fellows a lot. We talk no, we talk a lot about deeds and feelings. This episode in mental health, but its such it's just a good fun, there's like there's depth to it, but there is also a lot of fuck around Doreen. On this episode, which is number two, Thirty, eight, whether Chris, eleven and Michael Rosenbaum as we roll

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I was even ready for that. We take a bigger than poster I mean I know it's just a review at the end of the day Here's what has taken- I looked back he's out from I'd just like to take a look at the wrong. What is I don't know? That's wrong. I just love Why'd, you kill Cyrus, I dislike doing stuff like that. What is that warriors thereby, oh my god. Oh my god, that's a deep. Most getting Walter Hill- oh really big talk about Beverly Hills, Cobb. There is a really interesting looking book that I wanna get about. Basically like it way, cavities like the counties of the eighties and a lot of how are you lot ass, an old people like folded into becoming film stars are heavily focuses on Eddie Murphy and how he wasn't. It was originally

let us just alone there was forced to do Beverly Hills, cop ritual. I didn't know that then so Eddie Murphy came in, and guinea and stones characters a little like his Axel fully with slicker and Eddie Murphy. No he's gotten. Detroit he's gotta have a shitty car is gonna. Have this like picked out the war? rob and everything, and it started in the peace that I saw about the book it talks about how he was already a big star by that point, but that made like what like it underlines, the lands. Don't you want to come to see their aversion paves. The way for an opening he had seen him doing all the characters that Eddie Murphy did because those you can imagine We were you, that's the longer brought up so soon in this pilot. I am it works. It work. I love really well for this. It was really well it's the best. Second, it's the best

nine licensed alone. All around and people do way back, I've heard those it. Those good will now that I've heard, but baby that's right. What's interesting is that you Will you take these guys who had this sketch comedy backgrounds and then what do you do with them? And you see their sketch comedy like use with Chevy Chace and what she's doing all the characters they Murphy's doing. Article curiously Murray and occurring all those guys they're doing all these crazy characters and so I just I really miss the days of those big events. Action can accommodate the last one was which Macartney professor sort of feel right. I was in the nineties was at nine birds It's actually lie. You know, like spyware, Mccarthy, and that was you that was in that vein of like big budget action. Comedy knows great. So but there's just, I think you know streaming Netflix its kills a lot because people like you

Really. I can just watch this at home oddly movies, for like Marvel, but will they go? see and we're poverty in a theater, and I think it really has to be some crazy event for food. But again you can make the argument that, like you know, guardians of the galaxy, is up a centrally and action comedy right in a way with evolved. The interment marvel uterus. We're tired of this has led to his face. Has it. Has this sense of humour that holds it altogether like, like seems, like all iron man started it. Yet I kind of railway another all kind of share that sense of what they all. What I think was around. If you did what they were all able to do is you know, and I attended the soothing. This was a cabin fighting thing. That's every film basically has the identity of its director and the director kind of infuses their voice, but still keeps the universe. Consistency you have each one of these really spit

figure connected pieces of art, which is how you know you know Black either has rank hookers voice to it ends, but rather in Iraq has to is more usual. Somehow they still connect together. Somehow those Two to which still connect the guardians like it's it's the sort of the the the connection of all of those I never saw the elderly. But they all have their rights. Specific point of me: is there not all the same movie right the same with just different character? They all have different voices that still somehow Workin symphony together. So it's which is not, which is odd for for somebody fervour studio. That's that's putting that much money up to also give each of its directors that much of a voice and yes feels like its risky to not do that because right things get homogenized right. You get in there just not interesting, you know it's like the more speed

If so, what, when you know what you are you hire Africa's? You know exactly what they're gonna do. I think that's probably like fighting these guys do like he's at such a vote, in a vision yeah, as its own unique thing was like James. I want to be involved the music and you must be in, but I think that is what attracts them. Like he's, we like this vision and we like this, what he knows, what he wants most important uneven and all colleagues are the same. Like each comic series has its own point of view. I saw the writer in the artist in so it's You know that it's kind of taking that philosophy and you know, seeking to utter fifty two five remain valid enter. My problem is us: geez. I disagree with you Michael Rosenbaum. I think movies. A lot of them are just too long. These days it's driving me up a fuckin wall safe on the show I will say this. I will. I will say this if I see a horror movie, that is like two hours intuitively to learn from our

nightmare and ELM Street one of the biggest horror ever had ninety minutes was credit to today. Four minutes. It wasn't it hit when it came up I that that's why they made Judo two three four sure, but why? What is a movie need to be like three hours long, even if its or any genre. Unless it's like a adventures, I feel like it was warranted because they had stay out of it, hire somebody characterise older movies to tie up so much story to tire. Then you know I really feel like J F K was the movie that started People get bogged down Europe,

guy, rather than as the big idea. Doesn t change me. I just take one of the three types of is that Gettysburg watching to table there. I think there are a lot of movies where they are long and of shirts difficult, because I'm sure the directors are like what this is. What I need to tell this story, sometimes the naughty its member. For not adventures movies. I will say to myself like this one morning. I would even have not get to the frequent point right. Just I mean if you get to the point right away. In the perspective, we messages the deal inciting in Cinema may wants regulatory structure. I don't know about that, but this I just when I watch a movie. My attention span short, but after about an hour and twenty thirty and going ok, as should be the last twenty minutes of this right, and when I look at me,

watch unaware one, but where I say when you pull out your phone when I look at the foe next to me of the person whose face after texting and now watching the minutes, we get an hour and fifteen laughed and by the way is to lose you think about this right. I could put more movies Maura huh, is how fuckin here's here's, how much we ve been responsible with attention, spends their films that Lillian. What watch get our hour and will half billion were get exactly I went, our you know hour and a half billion we're like sixty five. Minutes ago, that's just finish. The summit yeah. Well, what your written Morty like it's our it's been obliterated here. Even our own homes watch at three in five minutes. You think we ve seen too many movies to like that. You know that you were watching like we get it. Yes,

know how to say, since you may notice, and also its the constant, were almost burdened by choice layer, it the idea that more choices better, it makes sense to a point, but then it is certain. But beyond that point we're flawed, like you, fucking open Netflix it just feels like every year building opening a closet of everything you ever o drilling. I haven't done over well what is it going to Jerry Delhi from afar to order by unjustly and I end of watching forty trailers and going to sleep daily lives? We are not there. During the vote. I, sir we're closing you have to wake. I just are you. We should tell people why You guys came all. This is a great guy reforms of all. I love overview and, second of all, you ve both been individually

Then you have started a pod cast that Lydia. I came out and had such a good time. So just for a quick SEC, at least just talk just give the nickel pit you're back ass, an unwieldy I. So we had you guys on one of our best conversations today. The pod cast is called in love with Michael Rosenbaum across all of it. Yes, and by the way little bit of free stuff, let's get down to the party solely on the on the policies we worked and guardians Michael has Michaelmas upon, guess call inside of you. So on this part, gown I've been about our guests. Does the pagoda podcast about power? I just I shall get me on the shown. We had a good converse. I loved him. I just felt like he's lying so texted me like I'm grateful for this today. We do this thing. We were we text,

what were grateful for him here and there a framework that is so sweet, you're, sweet man. I need to start doing things like this and it just side of this guy is I like to hang with people who were to meet me. A better person I just wanna be a better person that so I think that's a good while the process dragging them down a little do ass. He s and sending them with negative at ease society was so you muggers was. It was for therapeutic and I just would like getting in Cyprus, but this became like. Let's do something, and you could talk more about this- that positive. That's what we're love! What were you know it? his wife come in on my ex girlfriend was army of couples. Even Liddy on, and we just talk about, different things and dynamics and how it works and how it doesnt work and what you know if it were bombarded constantly with, sarcasm negativity. Cynicism even if even just our phones yesterday I found myself doing, I got our social media awhile ago, but I've just moved in

and I got in this app called next door. Oviedo neighbourhood up your neighborhood up its social media course it is, and it's a horrifying our fire away. Never mind strangers on the internet like these, where they ve labour and the way that they talk of each other and in and it just its fear mongering, and all these things in such as one of the many ways that, like all of these things, are kind of their city, We're find their ways their into your twitter, feed or or interior Instagram, frontier, whatever it is, whatever, whatever your watching, and so we decided to kind of subvert that for us and you know, once a week twice a week, sit down with people and figure out how they do the same work, but also because you're you ve been married for a long time, yet and Michael is indeed is perpetually single perpetually single and also so you have these new perspective. You have these two complementary perspectives of you know, you're in a relationship in a larger term relationship level

and you're sort of navigating there. You know like how do you find love? Have you retained like? How do you hear you make. It were already of developments, and you know what it is but living. I had so much fun coming on, because I don't think we ve ever really, like that before we talked about how we met and and also just like our data, because Lydia is like the fuck, invest listen? I know, and I am I'm so endlessly in love with her and itself fun area, which is really failure by acting like when you and that's the only thing like we, the people in our lives, Michael ionized lives who are positive. People who are well who seem to have. She seemed to be in some kind of positive path: there's always is someone in their life who who they are connected with? Who helps them? Do that, whether its Lydia or you know it, we interviewed Chrissy, met senator best friend, and and so when that opportunity comes up

We also want to include that person, because that's a rare thing in this industry must be will be like we want to interview Is it doesn't matter who is whose married to her or that the industry can? It wants to separate us from r r, r, private life and its use important part: the machine, anti human dignity, human agents and daily dehumanizing, because at the end of the day it's about clicks, it's about, you know soundbites. It's not really interested in. You know like deep emotions are how people and interact with one another, and you know that he is just one of those people who is a beam of sunshine, and she what I love about hers that she'd I have different sense of humour and but hers she tolerates my endless stupid job and it's such a she's such a great like it. The way that she plays off

it. Just it just makes me really happy. It was just fun, it was just funding. Come on in and we haven't really even talked about a lot of that stuff. Yeah, that's those who say what can it was cool is like I have you in the past or have you it's like? Ok? Is it hard having been married? We some hearing your perspective, but when she's on there I watched the both EU and Unlikeness overheating. You, let us or she just through it is through. I say no one when she away or you're working her. All these things are happening. How do you do it? yeah, I'm looking at you watching you to look at each other, gonna go well and kind of navigate like are you wanna talk about this issue, and here it's almost like you're here for the first time in a way. Well, what's interesting is it I feel it? There are a lot of couples that they'll get together there together in theirs, there's something that might be a little bit of a hesitation about. You know what we're really in it for the long haul you know in

think part of making a long term relationship. Work is just you just you. You know like no matter what were at it a minute. You know we're in it. You know like sometimes are going to be, easy sometimes are gonna be hard and right, but it makes all I'm saying. Never, you never have to worry that I'm not gonna, be here at the at the end of the day and that's how I feel with her and that's how I hope I am able to make her feel too. That there's you know like this is that this is a kind of a thing right, but sometimes it just I don't know it. It so easy to get caught up in our own world. It so easy to get caught up in our own area. Dumb garbage are meaningless. Ego shit, you can walk parent, you can walk parallel lives, yeah, you can. You can be right next to each other and lonely right. You can you know in the same room and miles apart like all of those things Rachel. I've had at the same time

experiences and we made like you- have to make a conscious effort during those who lives back together. It is about making efforts and I think we were young. We get these romantic cinematic ideas relationships like and then you know what the end a pretty well, they drive off in limbo in these saying Tele HO and she in the car. You know cartel, like three to six months later, not every day, Gonna be right what it alive. You know what I mean. It's like there's still day to day stuff and its easily get caught up in your own lives. It's easy to feel like ok, this you know, this relationship is just set on autopilot. You have to make those conscious efforts to not be on autopilot. You have to make conscience efforts to engage to re, engage in together plan time to be a couple plan time to go away, play time to talk plant. I did just bucket look each other in the eye and the end of the day and have real moments. I mean I am it's. You know she's, really good about like arriving

we're, hang it out like put the laptop down. Oh my god, I'm sorry, we really are spoken doing it and that's in love with my garage bomb and crystal Apple black ass. Another round. My view will, have you learned anything? Oh my god. That's one thing is we college interim bullshit we're like you know I just know purposes to be honest and open umbrella, I kind of like loss and I'm finding myself. I told you this. You have. I went to a well for three weeks and it was like I just life changing it really was. I thought I grew up. Finally, a little bit yeah and arm. I just I didn't. I felt safe for the first time I went after Connecticut my stay. This I just felt safe and I was emotional and I was finding myself in these therapists really worked with meetings. Just as you do get caught up with you with your own share and you realize car, that's not the important shit. No, it's part of you and you need to make have a career. I have a life, but the real parts connecting alike

terrible and giving a loving and all these things, and so it really forced me. Its there's. No other way like I'm, really not chervil, but it's I'm just opening myself up a very vulnerable right. Now, Ok, I just and we'll get you there and we give you. I think you know you always joke on the show that we, we'll get you married with Indonesia I'm looking for love obvious in other contexts that not none ass though it had some great women like that have gone away because I was too much or I just was ready, or you know, and now I'm just allow myself to dislike here. Cress here you and let you talk, and it gives me encourages me what I find something that really cares for me, there will always be there that with me, I M just like me for me, which are having a tough time understanding

pass. What the internet can be programme because you have to like you for you, you I mean that's what I'm doing. Yeah self love Brooks no Ray. I won't tell you at once at the wellness centre, therapists Adam. What do you do in the morning? I go. Wake up with anxiety, you do know. Elsie do I lie there, doesn't want you to get the fuck up. I you to get up and drink some water go in the bathroom. Take a piss should certainly all like so sugar and just look in the mirror. There's nobody there just said of you I got caught. This is so cheesy I didn't touch was now. I want you to do that. You you're gonna, learn to love yourself. We're all flawed were all be all have made mistakes. We ve all done whatever you have to love yourself, and so I was ok and then I'll go and meditate, but like it was in the beginning, I was I would look in the mirror, Alex in the morning go loaded.

To cool you're made. I am I doing a bit. I was too cool to be real myself and by the ice are gone. Do it's ok! So, finally, by we too, I was myself going. You're gonna do men now you're gonna, do you mean. Well, you? U help people, you, your your loving guy! You deserve the best you I love you. I love you and I will go and Ivan meditate today's fifty five days straight up attaining just so I am working so hard to just be a better human being, adding that again after the show is, but like it's your right, yourself is. What would I think you can love anyone else unless you want? You saw the in the industry that we ve that the three of us have sunken ourselves into like two would like us to. And you too, romanticize the industry itself.

Jeanne itself, like you were talking about an end, and in order to do that, there is a great amount of navel gazing, there's a great amount of like self promotion involved too. There is a necessary part of our business to advertise the things we are doing to promote ourselves, to go on promotional tours to do press, marry me me me me me me me yeah two bit, because if it that's the stuff that you seem to have due to be able to do more. Writing that you want to write and if you're, not mindful era about all the things are surrounding that it'll. Just it'll just run away with your life yeah. They will run away with your life and an eternal, one day, and you realize that you youth, you ve, gotten way off track. And when I say you I mean me, it's it's not really. It's not a surprise that, especially when you meet most fascinated by

your child actors who turn out like super cool and ok, and it seems like in pretty much every case the ones who turned out great had arrived. The great solid family grounded personal life and the ones that spit out of control have not that yeah and so not saying it's. He answered everything, but it's, it's not surprising that when you see people who seem to China as well, they have I can't they have a connection to something. That's real, that's keeping them. You know tethered from all this other garbage. That's you know all the other car, alluring Eagle pursued right. Can that cannot start that? Definitely without a doubt, you developmental statements, like you now, if you're alive apparent, who just says I love you yeah, I'm proud of you. I care about you. Ah, if those simple thinks are vital- and I

I dont, remember hearing you know certain things I just didn't. I didn't get certain things, maybe they weren't cable when I buy forgiven. There's all that, but you know those things. If you don't have them, you search for them and you you try to get them through approval and self esteem things that lived herself steam up in those things, really scared. Those things are like equivalent approval. All that is equivalent to like self worth. I mean the tailor. Taste eagle ego is basically a drug, those ego shots are like drugs and because it will give you the rush of whatever, except in sore significance or whatever so you think, but then advantages and then it and then it's like normal. You just want that head and then but the sort of the law lasting love in the lasting stuff. It's and I'm gonna say it doesn't

feel, I don't say this where we say like it doesn't feel like anything, but it just doesn't feel like Guy can't get enough, whether you like it doesn't feel unhealthy. It just feels to me. It feels peaceful. And it feels safe and it feels com and it doesn't feel like doing anything. It just feels like we are being in love rather than you know like We gotta pretending year, organizing forcing yourself too late. You almost like you, on the outside here. Like look rebuilding together journeys dinner is nothing says. Let em you gotta figure out. What's trailers, then we're orderly happy, look at us by the way. I wonder if some of your exact he's a big you're drinking these rebel energy drinks. The voluntary explained its three for sport. I just took a couple of cells gotta. Just then I will not drink the whole thing I don't want. I remember when I first response. I guess not,

do you know rebel, yeah yeah, but don't give your wings anxiety. I just can't like I can drink trace amounts of caffeine, but I remember you know First panic attacks came colleges and really know what they were. There wasn't really much of an internet at the time a kind of realise what they were. Like someone told me what they were in that helped a lot for a while. Then, like ninety nine, two thousand, I start getting them like real bad like having to pull the car over and the one to ask what I seem too beginning this feeling everytime, I drink coffee. I wonder if there is a connection, so I go on to you, web crawler or whatever, but my how Altavista, whenever the search tool was at the time before we all use Google and those like NGO, panic attacks and caffeine. Unlike twenty thousand hey just gonna like, oh, my god, of course. Yes, when you fired Ireland through your body, your hearts gonna be faster,

you're gonna get panic. It's. Why didn't? I remember my annual panic attained the car lovingly growing Eiger not going up in college. I would have like one a year and I would just tell I would tell my friends- and I cannot really cry. You know it at once a year and then I cry all at once right and its end. It just feels good, like it's like Robert and like you do that right,

the hell you just crying, wants all at once in one more were like ninety minutes. You hold the world and put your headed there and cry it until it, and then you see the wall that you spackle around till the AIR France launch Yentl once every timber and boy like I advocate, but nowhere we talked about which argument that when I visited your bag is about about how I had the animated European I went. I went my the biggest the one that like made me changed the way I dealt with caffeine in exile, noticing sent me to the yard.

They are. It was, it was incredible. It was incredible story there is. There is so many characters along like the doktor at the urgent care. Had this weird cleanup up inflection at sea at the end, and you might, unless a penetrating uncertain, he goes well. It's none the less heart attack, but he goes but maybe we should send you to a hospital. What do you think? What do I think that was like us? I guess yeah. I guess Sure- and I guess, my no medical training it was. It would end up being somewhat migrant variant that made my the whole right side of my body. Go white noise. Well, that's understandably upsetting all. I thought I was having aren't tack, but later I ended up its hospital uncover city and this nurse who didn't speak or hardly any English who, when she was checking man turned

from the White Board and said. Welcome to my work and- and I would say, is she said TAT you go pupil. I said Observer yoga pooper. Did you go public? I did good could, thank God you save it, for they were not now there was just shoot it, I might reach a just go home and then offered itself in the morning. I try to go to sleep middle of the night, some screaming patient, because I I'll figure? The morning I tried to go to sleep and they went out and then someone came into clean the room in the middle of a magazine realize I was there in his cell. They went out and then someone came clean the room in the middle of a magazine. I realized I was there in the cells land itself like a horror movie that should only eighty to ninety four minutes. You you think you're getting into howsoever hardtack turns out you you don't you might be

you psychotic part of a psychological experiment dying somewhere like while I ate aid myself in the middle of the night. I took all my leads off down to the nurses station was like I'd like to go home and and the nurse was like. Don't you think you should stay like that? take this ivy out of my arm ray I'm leaving and when you eighty eight yourself they have escort you out of the building was so this this escorted scorned mean the curb? It's too How can the morning I'm standing on the curb with a little bag? She standing back up the stairs in the doorway going you smoke what you smoke? No ok kid you drink know and then there's this silence, I'm waiting for Neuber driver she goes don't I love you. What I'm not kidding you you might have died?

I might add, is a vital being displayed algae like don't go. I love you You know what's going on, I just now, I'm never going back over thirty years. We link if we had a very late and maybe some kind of strain or movie aversion appointed his anxiety attacks are real real. The hospital that he went to is not this was this is clearly a shelter island, don't drink coffee app, and yet I am lucky realising say in the last show that I did and I was exhausted. I was never seen ash. Remember Vietnam. Being as serious finale the big scene and there rolling, and it hits me- and unlike thank God, I knew my lines inside out where I could I was sort of begging about. They see the panic in my eyes, I'm unlike pass out. I don't know how. Many years ago,

guys I gotta go to the bathroom, and sometimes you say or a lot of times writing they say they are not supposed to. You must stay cause. If you leave, then at any time you know the panic tat, your hosting all. I had to do this sum psychology to arrest him, but, like you should fight it, you should just be there and just breed and get through it, but I couldn't I add to our strategy: as regards crap that crap rosy rosy can in this way, till after this take em. I don't know man, I don't know. I really get a crap starker ago improving its opponents. Go ahead, we become more things to work out, I ran to my trailer and I ran in it and I was like I was a drug attic. I was ripping through my bag and looking in zipper sprint Xanax anywhere like going through my jackets and my costume, I'm gettin goosebumps thinking about the shit, and I was just a virus. Then I took a quarter and long awaited like five minutes knock on the door. I was

citing more than knocking on our door. I'm ok! I just need still in the bathroom still taken that crap man and I was like terrifying and one kicking took another half. What we're gonna go. Its network is not working and by time I mean I'm tongue when you have a foreign panic attack. You know you know exhaustion like because your these incomplete, lighter fly in Europe. It is your being flooded with fear, chemicals and you dont know if you should run or stay there or I won't watched. I've never had watched that final or related to get on your body, because I knew I would notice, but but but no one else would have no, but it was not my best performance in my eyes and just like I was absolutely emotions robot. I wasn't feeling anything is getting through the Fuckin C S, terrifying, but I'm sure

your skills as an actor you fired but understand in landfill, no yeah yeah, I've got you know it's getting as I've had paid one of his own, but I've had panic attacks like if I feel anxious or pataky before I do stand up and say about performing, makes it completely go away and the same, and I had an off its. It gets out getting out of my head, or my body is flooding itself. It's from chemicals or I'm not focused on me anymore, bookstall michel- I don't know, but it like it immediately cures, and what is it exactly thinking up when you say that you think of the show you think of your performance when I get up on stage are right. When you gave us said you have

the performing like outperforming? I guess I'll be for me to live like high whirling away, whereas I would think like old wooden, I wouldn't be more anxious in front of people. Tat turns out. No, I actually get more comfortable and I think because maybe it's because I'm a big part of the anxiety corkscrew into darkness, is that it just cut feeds on itself, and you just you know you just rabbit hold down, and then it gets worse and worse and worse. But but when you are engaged in things, were you can't be in your own head? Then it right, then you can't do this sort of like it takes oxygen out of it bit, but it's also learn how to fail while making ok with family. Yes, because your brain tells you

I should run away and go dive under my bed, but for me, what actually works is the opposite, which is actually weirdly. Being internet sings would work for everybody, but being around people are doing a shoulder Stan connected stained connector. Yes, thank an activity. I think that's the desert. The instinct, obviously that flight instinct is is can be, can be better. Right cause, because that's why we all three of us and and have had the same reaction, but the thing that seems to help us is to talk about it or to ask for help or to connect somebody else about it, because one of the things when it when it was happening to me, I thought I thought it was dying. I thought, if If I make a big deal about this and I'm not dying! Well, then, shame comes out now, I'm hysterical or or inconveniencing other people and And the idea of you know that

Dagmar Roth Mental Illness or any of those things especially nowadays makes our to talk about what also the stigma around dude talking about their feelings. And if you like, it's a lot less of a stigma than it used to be absolute. You know, but let us try to think about how I try to write a bit about this and it didn't work. I tried it on stage once in a deep. It worked. It so didn't work that I was like. I don't think there is sometimes a bit you can kind of telecoms wholesome here, but the idea was essentially that it's that moment when to do tat out when you say goodbye, deeds dont know what to do, but no matter how home I got, no matter how like Schiller, cat, a week. We had the same as those that so

yeah. I guess if that worry, like I always a guy like trying to link the over the bit was like, if you could do it could just kiss good night, just like you and I we like hey military so right, it's like a dude soda had a hard day like they could create the space or they re. So they, like you, know where what is it you're right? Here's what happens. Have you engage, conversely, I just when you say that It's I'm not that I've, because, unlike you know you now, though we in ireland- and I will do us shortly, I will laugh when I arrive. You were, guns house in order. Can revelry JAG like all this, even genes I noticed, does a James has I think we're like we have it's really. Nice comes up there's a language there's like a weird vacuum, but only to the air did that offers? Second, it's like. I don't know how to close this due EAST hugger, kiss swords I like how do we do we walk away it? It's the disengaged and they were just. You know,

a lot of times, not maybe it's just our generation, not necessarily conditions to share typewriter before I don't know what it is, but I just wish people we more weight they call it. A word are suddenly legs. Why don't we just imagine what have you like if we just look at a time and what, if we judge yelled your spare to me: don't go. I love you, people curves nobody is special, familiar especially there's this funny. Don't go. I love you may not. This might not be funny, but s c tv oh, my god, yes, of course, areas and they're all what's his name. Who is evident on those two women too, Martin, probably ass there are other errors again as a scene where they're both shopping and the show in order to combat any online. There was so much fun, oh my god, it was just a pleasant. So spoke with unity or model by may go on and on, and one of them says you know we should do tomorrow and logos. Ah

I sons coming in town and she says, uncomfortably admire your son I dive, lose the whole gamut of all that's gonna long ago. Early is something supposed to happen outer we haven't. We dispute if you want something to happen. How do we say goodbye like it's just the universe, aggravation when you're hanging out with a dude? It's a date, you're gonna mandates genetically you're ready. So how do you know? How do you disengage from that and I and I've been on a I irish is good for the hug. I think it's ok to sail. Hey man, I love you. It was good to go to sea. You enters its funding, we brought the love you but yea everybody lobby, but always have your thrown at someone who's not expecting. Oh, my dad,

gradually take it easy body. Now. What do we know? What happened? This so this happened that, while the senator she up, she was you know I want you to start embracing discomfort. I want you to embrace being uncomfortable. I want you when someone says something to you, like your good aware you I love you, are you turn off you dont, like you, don't believe Michaelis price? so that zone. Some. Is that your great you're, all the things that you do and you I kind of just get out of the motions I want you inside. You have to do this all the time, because that would be pretty weird. Like this interview, articulate aren't junior came in I want to thank you know, and it is clear we are limited, but she doesn't want universe and funny enough that night, my grandma face times me and we're talking in on you. She added but my grandfather and a memory facility we're all broken hearted already she's working

wanna go on down this place. I wouldn't want to tell her what I'm doing jailer worry and finally she's like what what is it? What is this place? get my mind making my mind better. So, what's wrong with you, my mouth and unjust, because I want to tell you something you're very special in me, and I I love you. I love you. I love you. Allow me to give you caught him homage. Stop, stop stop listening to me for a second. You were remarkable boy. Are look! I love death. I'm industry! No! Now stop shoes forcing you to taking like the moment after. I got advice which is we're inches, I'm ninety one years old I have seen a lotta remarkable people in my life family. But you are the most remark. Boy, I've ever known, and did I just I turn the fuckin phone and ball like all? Oh, my god and then, as I cannot forget, this is a moment and trying to change, and I won't forget,

Just look at the camera legal you're. Making me an attraction is why you should know these things. Of you, and I was just the sort of she was like. I know a little turned off by this exchange. I was gonna, be there I don't mind, uncover the mining buried, my grandmother, just as obvious as we please smile. I didn't realize. Oh my god, my I'm getting another call another calls getting gowns my other remarkable grants. My more remarkable, but that's a thing like some of you, never mind. If you decide to work on something you're, not just going to be grand, the ability to do that, you're going to be presented with situations where you have to practice that shit like if, if, if you want if you, if you want to practice patients, you're gonna, find yourself in traffic. You know I mean if you want to practice these things, it's It's no surprise at every situation. Has nine or ten lessons

right ending on how you want. I mean it is because that seem that same traffic situation. Could you know it could teach you, patients could teach you resourcefulness might out of traffic. It could teach you how to you, don't take time that you have to be alone with yourself to be more creative like there are so many different way right and I think it's just about being able to see all the For possibilities, because I think we had so often, we expect to be led around by life where we expect for enough to get hit in the face, with whatever we're supposed to see or do, and sometimes it's like you have to look for. You have to create the situations for yourself and you have to actively pursue the you know, like all the possibilities in perspective, without expecting them to happen at you, nor how do you guys this is somehow? How do you guys

with, I don't feel anymore seems like any. Maybe you do well. I just ask you ever like get that just that feeling, like your overwhelm from that moment that matter or you like you, could steal because of your body that numbness it's like its overwhelming, do. Need you take a step backward. You just go with that. These go let's breathe. Let's take a step back, let's sit down four seconds, meditate were fine day or you just ignore it. Well, I think it depends. I dont know if there's one answer for every time. I think sometimes I mean the or it happens, the more you know. It's just a thing you can boil down to just being a physiological response, so you might as Chris Relevance in the last five years and have had cast you might ask yourself: have I've been drinking water? Have I eaten? Am I going to particularly stressful total, like there's a lot of conditional elements that you need to look to see if it's the result of things that can be easily remedied by either getting your blood sugar hopper.

I draining nor arise. Remember it is, or you know, if you feel like you're in full panic, it's getting the tools to number one take a deep breath, and so you breathing down knowing that, if you can change, if you can chew, change. The dear bodies, physiology than you that that will have an effect on your mind, is well might be calling someone it might be, crying be getting it out like. So I just It depends on the kind of overwhelm, but no matter what it is. Having the faith to know they will go, it will go away. Now that it has never lasted forever, nor will it lasts forever. Nor will it kill you and just knowing like this is a thing that happened, something I'm new works works for me to send, as I will this another graded. Some great advice to me was Michael ones, us yet physical, I is correct.

I came here to blow work our carriage. They check your heart, but oh yeah, oh yeah, I hadda that chick my heart inside out my lungs is really good. I okay, so next time you have anxiety are overwhelmed. I want you to take first think, I'm really healthy right and a healthy person who are not having a heart attack and not having these things. I know what this is to know that you're actually innately everything's working away. It should and this is anxiety or whenever this is there's something reassuring, you're comfortable about just letting yourself. No ok. This is ok. Yeah. Now the EU said something like nameless, nameless things, I name your anxiety, call it something psychotic, mostly this peculiar pick them as I always liked it. Welcome back, see me as we know it you're gonna quit drinking a couple years ago. I finally started having feelings or at least being able to identify feelings, and that's like the game now right so stuff pops up, and I my job

Now. My game that I play with myself is to identify the feeling as quickly as possible and to call it out to say it out loud to someone, like example, wake the other day Rachel and I were getting ready for an event. No big deal. Wasn't a big event, but I was in a place of panic and I was trying to get that one of my shirt sleeve buttons cuffed and I thought I was going to put my fist through a wall I couldn't get it and finally, I just turned Rachel. I said Rachel, I'm panicking, I'm about to lose my mind and I need you to button this button book, and this has become like the interaction now that I am. About two to call out my emotions and she can check in with me met. Ok, what what can I do to help you, and I can call out a couple of things- she's able to help me with those things. In always, coming back to my breath,

right so that you're you're meditation practice. Like always coming back to my breath, a teacher a long time ago that they said we all know that and can only have one thought at one end and a deep breath is an unnatural act. That's why it's a cliche take a deep breath, because if you are taking a deep breath, you are focusing on breathing you don T, breathe deeply all the time and you cannot ask simultaneously relax and have a panic attack exactly and so. Coming back to, my breath has been like a huge, its. It seems so simple. It seems so simple, but I went. I went in was one of the things we ve talked about this act. I went. I went about a Europe didn't, I ask a ceremony and it was late us for the podcast,

Hard work, sharing wanna give him. Now you gotta occurs, but only to ask, but it was the number one lesson from from that night was that everything is fine. If I come back to my breath, nothing can go wrong. If I come back to my breath, was this kind of medicine, an overarching of the of the evening and that's why you're gonna say when you call it out in the middle of nowhere you're, just a bunch of people like me, not so good I've read the drive to undergo before, like video village sittin in chairs God. I am feeling a lot of anxiety right now.

Then just say it till. I said that we not only to the people, aren't you re all right, they're like last year and one time I said, increase Chrissy would like me to wonder what is what's going on today with that's different here and and we'd Uganda conversation about it, three minutes there was an assistant went downstairs, one time this is ripe for want of alongside I said I went downstairs and it was just that the morning like any other morning, and I walked into the more I got the morning and I can I go. I think I'm depressed Hutus, ok to omit called out across the think about what to do, but I can't be ok

just wanted to say she's. Ok, then, is that whatever walking down the stairs with our neighbours, I won't like. Well, I I you know one of the things that leading area will that do with each other is, one of his feeling, anxious is sort of remind the other person circumstantially what might be going on, but he is so Sweden adorable because show if she's feeling extra anxious about something I'll go well, you know, is it passed the ball? It's because you had an audition at eighty really stressed about you. Didn't you ever really set for the last few days because you were wearing one of the things you have to do so we have been sleeping, you haven't been able to exercise and you haven't been eight. You haven't been eating well like in so You'Re- not nourishing your body. So is it because of all these circumstances, then shoulders pause NGO. Nor think that

sort of like that's the sort of the way that you can win. You were about how to measure their just sort of you know like beheld sounding board or Sheet Jimmy, and she does that way more with me too, but it is still it still having those moments where someone else that you love and trust can say like what are you even though you feel like this- is the real thing I've ever experienced? Here's some other things that are going on that might have put you in a vulnerable stay. I don't think it's not happening and that some not discounting your feelings are missing here. I've respected here are some things that might be contributing to a right that might help you realize that it might not be as right real as you feel like. It is right now having just sort of having a conversation I said something you I say said

an agent. You gotta be a long way from Emmy. This pressure to show you do in the park: cash Seasick, yeah dude, I'm like you know, there's a moment where you were just definitely antenna go hey ago, even meditating, and you just go no notion I do that, but I'm just a little thing. Ok, that's that's! How easy things these habits, if they're? Not if you, if you, if you don't do them every single day and get them ingrained this keep away that you, sly good. Those could some people so that people can become very all or nothing it when they fall off the wagon on something that just like fire forever and, like you know it you, even if you follow them, annotation wagon for a month or two months or whatever you can started right back now, get linkage and there are always right- and I think I'm I think I am, after all, my therapy and all these things, and that one of the core issues is that I am a dictum to anxiety. I met

did to the feeling of anxiety. Make something manage something to deal it makes me feel important. It makes me feel exhilarated. It may also be real. It also part of our ritual. If I don't know, if I'm not feelings, eighty that I must not be busy enough from, I must not be trying hard enough or I don't know how you like. I just thought: I'd video and scratch your band the why the spouse Joseph the surfaces vast interest, neighbours. Great saw you like, because I've seen you why you can't see him holy shit like I think, you're gonna get you performers, and this is us all the movies chosen and there's my house, sky have anxiety so confident of their age. Eating my pants. When I'm doing so, things and we'll get you got it makes feel better. Knowing that even you get anxiety that you ve had anxiety will, of course, has even I mean in others. The anxiety becomes

bad things are things I e that comes with vented things in his anxiety that comes from the lack of a better term. Good things, new things, new things like more things are things whether they are good or bad weather, it's been nominated for Emmy or whether it's like someone get my car, whether its above someone that you care about is sick in the hospital like it all is more like the more things that you have to process review with the more piles and I had dinner with a friend of any other night whose his assurance a producer and he's doing really well any Sunday it's something that was so incite full to me, which was he a couple years ago I had the opportunity to like build my empire, and he said when I really took a step back and looked at it. He was like I want that, has just love being honest, shut like one. I love focusing on one thing for a handful years and just getting is far too. That thing is possible and I just didn't think it would be healthy for mere my family to take on, and I thought that is insane

in a good way. Did he had the perspective when our business and our egos condition is the bigger is always better and more is always better than he some I was like yeah. You know ass mature. It is because some points like how much do you need how much money how but how things how much attention you know, because it that there are diminishing returns at a certain point and then it is not going to fill the emptiness. What you have to do that, like Parsons from the bank theory, and talking that Sean asked than you know, goonies in their data yet, and we re talking and ears, like you know, there's a conversation. The cars like yea walked away from him wanted to step down because United, million dollars an episode and when he turned it down. That means that the rest of them who wanted to do it. You know I couldn't do it now so like them, I would

if you want to do it. So if it, if he bales out because he's the opposite Samuel but he's got, you didn't, he says all his. So I just like the conversation was. I was he left because he he wanted it for some reason. Whatever was personally that your story made me think about that, and so given the car or saying. Well, you know that all those other people you know that they had to walk away from all that money. Has he didn't want to stick around yeah. So what net Israelite to know that all these people will not be working if you, but that's, but my point of this whole boring storm I am saying, is that it's not his responsibility to be in charge of their destiny are also to be fair. They also made it should tell him. I that's what I said earlier. I believe there has been a cruise going they're, not gonna work. They didn't it's at some point to say hey for whatever purpose reasons, I've decided this and you can't worry about what everybody

those things and they all my guy just doing another two years and will make more money. There comes a point words like you have to respect someone's decision. Well, it's you. Have you really have to do things that are healthy for you, and you really have to do things that, and sometimes that does mean stepping away from things that that it seems like why this is crazy? Why wouldn't you want all the intellect? Why wouldn't this producer once you know like a bad robot style Empire Isaac. Well, probably because you'd never sleep if you're the type of person net obsesses on every detail, which is part of how fills the things you kill yourself, you you'll have an early heart attack. You'll have a stroke, you'll make everyone around you miserable. You won't be happy and will you build it, but you certainly won't

No, it doesn't matter how much money you're making because you won't be able to enjoy because you'll just be obsessed with it. You know into for someone to recognise that about themselves and just say, like you know what that's not like: that's not where happiness lies. Happiness lies in the being comfortable with yourself being happy with who you are having a you know, good friend, connections around you having a partner, you love and respect, having like that's where the them, the meat of life is not not to say that you know, I mean obviously in a world talking for great privilege places we have. You know we have the money that we need to live and survive, and that's an MP and a lot of people. Don't even have that and so, but it's just encounter reminding people like more things are gonna fix you more much. More of anything, isn't gonna serial killer livestock, and now it's really the people, and you know that it is the damn it is that fuckin, it's a wonderful

you know that, although I loved you know, I talk to you about this by left some. The innocent seven M is why Lee marginally deals for six years and I get seven and They offer me three more to finish the serious and I just stopped store, I was told I just want to do other things I am just. I couldn't do that. I couldn't do that anymore for seven years and months here, and I just I for me. It was just a personal health kinda in our set back issued and stuff, and others like my health is more port, this is more important. I can make a living and I can get by I'm just going to do this and I remember the the precedent of Warner Brothers. Sat with. May I just say a higher executive bugs bunny. Osborne was

given that in a deck when it if it before, he does not accept that forty do this. I want you think of marvellous career and what happened to her. What's what he said to me on my my death, but our may drop dead. He said before you. You know you turn down this these last three years. I want you to just what happened to Juliet Margolis, her grip, of course, then, oh Julian, about who is the only way when she left the room. We are right then had another smash. That's what I'm saying city the lieutenant. Well, I just I'm just banking on my talent and my guide, and I wasn't a dip about a classic right and then he's, got the biggest wherever nowadays even bigger, but it's just like you, don't you and it's hard given our business railways business when people are and a new money and going let's innate in your. Sometimes it gets convoluted Easter thing. I want to make my agent happen

I want to make this person and you have any job in the world and if you're at the job, you're just not happy and you have the ability to take another job that will save your sanity. Those I'd have to. If we really intentional about you're working for intention was a good as a good word has again it you know I use plan. My ears around my column, years around work, snow and now with Lydia. I've realise, like I've rather play my IRAN's going away with time with her and their seeing. If I can fit the workshop in around that will, you know is because I didn't I move so fast. One two years can go by before you even realise what have and if you're, not you know, if you're not nurturing your personal relationships, piercing together, your friends, your family, whatever you know that stuff doesn't just tend to itself yeah, you know, and it's you. You need to feed each other

and be there for each other, and if you value yourself than other people will value you, you will only be valued as much as you value yourself, so so If you are willing to do whatever the network wants, whatever the executive wants, they know your papa, that that that you don't have a high value placed on self in the power of no the power of saying no power. Saying I'm sorry. I can't I've got this too weak vacation with my wife, and I can't Norman I dont want to move it, right right as it means a lot to US only now mean in my life. I have certainly walked away from things, but now people like, Ok, oh my own work yeah, most of the time most of it, it's never die as you will make things out to be because they just want to solve it quickly was, is do that?

well? No, I really can well there's gonna be disastrous if you know why, I guess it would be disastrous if you dont, like all worked out, they can actually do it after you get vessel sombre and they transit disputing combine immoral, yes, having on offer, is it arrived tomorrow? We need you now why why? Who, in their right mind, would want to make a decision at eight o clock at night for it, It is crazy m. By the way when you young, emailing, everybody's, telling you Michael, what are you doing next and Eurasia a kind of job opportunities someone strike the Danube is naturally we could use a little earlier. You used to go. Oh, I guess I should just do you guys want to. Thank you, rich

Dixon NBC, O Dell tomorrow rule on our creator, though it would be good if the before you get these two areas. That person was next person was devotee, its some fire. Some kind of mixing with some kind of Nixon, But I'm I'm glad that you are doing the podcast that you're doing I'm I bet you're taking this journey together and I'm glad there you are celebrating. You know like uplifting friendships in no finding gratitude- and you know just all that stuff I mean you know, I think that people get older, you start to sound a little crazy for two reasons: number one: you tend to care less, what people think as you get older, and then I swear to you realise that these texts, things do take effort and so

those and younger people here eagerly he attacked each other gratitude. Illegal logging gives a flake. Does you gotta? Do it and here's the thing it's it's not that it's not even a surly about being positive, all the time being happy all the time it's not possible, but there is is something to be grateful for definite and when especially when things are going wrong or especially, anxiety, is high or especially when, when you're feeling, lonely or or like you ve lost out on something So the idea is its practice. It is a gratitude practice so that when the moments arise, we have we have these tools in place to help kind of combat any. Thing that might set us off the rails and its also relate ability? I think it's like an hour. They relate to the marriage, the careless and goes right to the single guy somebody to relate to our majority someone,

you. You also have expressed that you don't want to be single like that, you that you would like to have a family affair, but you, but the thing you're time are fundamental for students like making deposits making daily deposit, sir, you like you're, making deposits into an account whether its fitness deposits or nutritional deposits. Our mondiale health. There are healthy deposits or meditation deposit you so that when you doing when you are challenged, when you are called upon, you have this state this. Essentially the savings account that you can pull from to get you through. You know the the lean whatever that time in rice myself, it's it. It is important for people who, by their ed somebody walks or solve what do just wants to do at the end of a hang. So you just come up with the orders the earth special to me here. Other may I kind of like that certainly you special to me yeah and then that's it that sort of the release word now. It's

You don't have to feel awkward about it. You don't have to like was I supposed to say something didn't get weird because I have it does you do at this moment? Sometimes, though, do its work. It just like some weird have at the end, the last two seconds and you're like did I the somewhere, What was I will? You know I started something that was just like your. Your special may is better than what I came up with an innate was like it in the night give out my house in Russian. I discuss. How do I get the fucker? sort a laugh and go about this kind of writers and honesty to swear. We we're done. I you know I like, the three of us at least. Do that ordinary, hey, you're special you special to make one. I fuck it up, but thousand percent. Let's do it. The three of us will start that use patrimony

you'd have to add your special to me. That's how a dash days another do- and you know, respect labels here, but guess what people in love with Michael in bomb and Chris Sullivan Sunday Monday's inadvertently and its Monday is, and its apple pie cast an arm. I defy reserves are good either you're, not data is sometimes you know. We are going to do so yeah so on our very well. We its I gotta just like we had such a great time and Lydia so open tissues or- and it was just himself I'm at better but like you know she opened up. Yes, she did I mean she's the amazing thing about Lydia, one of the many things that I respect about hers that she and she M she sent me we're dating. She was like look. I will always tell you what I'm thinking and I won't and add. I guess I guess I'm maybe Can the business is trained me to sort of me this way, but I'm always look into sort of like what's the subtext and what is this?

say exactly what I mean you want to know what cause I should do the same thing and you want to know why I used to think that way about people, because that's how I thought about people, saying exact, say exactly what I mean you want to know. What, because I used to do the same thing and you want to know why I used to think that way about people, because that's how I thought about People are that's the way I was right like I would say things. That we're not true or that that that were inauthentic or war, or It is not the right one is trying to plug a usb cable into a lightning. So I used to do that. I use not really be speaking. What was truly, on my mind, I used to be slightly and authentic. I used to be these things so

I also assumed that the people around me we're doing the same thing and as soon as I stop doing that, I stop worrying about whether or not other people were doing yeah yeah in it in its in her case, she said, like look even to my detriment. Sometimes I will tell people exactly what I think about something. They asked me because I dont know how to be any other way. Why would you be any other way than strict? Straightforward is mine like wow, that's the healthy. You know smart woman, tat ass. Your question, I just want to ask our know how you say: good night science has given the so proud ground bottle say: never open, blacks, cracker! This is gonna, be the boast ass, a man and thing you open a blacks and there's no proof.

Wisdom and medical devices by rules about coming to see. How do you deal with this, because this is what you get tons of emails everyday? I dont mean, do not respond to certain people, but, like I have friends that I like, I don't see it, and it's almost like there's there's a close, close friends and there's your friends and there's your friend the people that you kind of hang out with those. And then there's all the new pollyanna. So many more than me and arose It's almost like. I feel I have responded everybody right away where my friends his head over to see a lot by Misha admires buses, hey I'm just a place in my room, just really working on myself, I'm just trying to be the best person like a b and get healthy and unjust, and I get a lot of work and I know you understand why don't think does anything wrong with that, because that's new being honest, and here you know, wickets, it's it's, u it, but I would say that's a perfect response

an email time, you say: hey, I'm gonna do emails from eleven to one and I'm done till the evening. But are you just do it all day? He just I just do what I do is I do not look in emails. Unless I am prepared to answer the emails, that's a great way to do it. I never what about doing it? That way, because what will happen, so now. What will happen is that what happens the text messages to because our look at em, readable guy backs back that person three weeks later, I'm lying in bed and I think our worst. Oh, my god I never go back to the person, but with the things you talking about surveys show your energies are valuable, your energy is gold and which is why ass we get older. We we don't, spend our energies on as many different people and there are still people who want some of it, who one who want to be? Who

to have your not a middle way who want this thing? It's ok for you to be like. I have limited energies and I need to save at least twenty five percent of my left over energies for Rachel, and so let's work backwards from their own. Who who gets the rest of my time? And you know what I do, though this really helps me. This is one of the things that I learned of attacking the beginning about meditating. I wake up. I need to get in bed, I drink the water. I say I love you. I go back, I meditate for twenty five minutes. I go walk the dogs take em out clean the backyard of all the crap and back gonna come in and make them breakfast and it myself breakfast I sit down and I look at my emails, its region.

Not. I will not look at my form. I wake up and I'll turn my phone ought by ten. I made him pay it is you know it. It is generally not advisable to breed emails first thing in the morning. I admittedly do not follow that, but you really should have time to yourself. First, I just have already well what would I do? What I do see em? I usually do it like bright when I wake up now, but I almost immediately I have a morning ritual now where I go her breakfast and then I I write every morning Just wondering rewriting comedy I'm here, I'm writing stand up. Are you writing cavity by the cabin and make it with this gets in the bed? I am neither like working away said or tweaking old jobs trying to find new angles unthinking, just an interest give it give it a little bit of attention

every do ye male. Why you're doing that Malta task and that agencies focused on that one task at hand you know what's great about lay mail is that it is so meticulously spree sorted in Gmail. That's when any pre sorted I mean like I've created, family close friends. Well, I've waited. I isn't it. There's a lot of sorting rules and so like. If I have you in the morning, it's my the main part of my priorities in box. It's very few will come through and the rest kind of sorted. You know fur in all that bad stuff goes no one folder and all the stuff related to one word thing into this folder and it goes into the number one goes into this, and so then it then it it doesn't. I'm like let it Liddy's email is not sorted at all. Is one of the funding parts of our. I give a shit because it is a shame. You're like I can't even stand to see like a kid status.

Red circles in the corner and perhaps drives me not one. Lydia's is like a straight fuckin lie, cross. The screen is just like ours, in that even he has a red, but all of her ear males are coming into the same box. So it's like Spain, it's like Huns span. Friends of everything just gives me hope. Affidavit doesn't bother at all. She's like I don't care does You have folders, like I do yeah ass, all that Beach birthdays Blanche, the dog Blanche, the grandma charity, welcome integration overseas morning two years have erosion, examiner secrets and another step, folder selection, mail, and then I have all the doctors. There are others, literally hundreds of them, but you want to talk about Blanche. Why ladys? He single end have you oughta be bored Harold, Michael Rosa moms, way on a believer. Multitasking it does exist, is just not great. That's terrible it when I

No- and I were terrible- were guy. When I multitask Emily, even Writ Rachel X, the Malta to ensure children haven't? I do have an you one thing really well or three things: half ass, the blue and it's like mountain Adena, multitasking seems like like, like torture, etc. Floods is thing you should fool ass, one full ass. One thing you should full ass. My attention span I'm on eighty de medication to, and it does help it to help me get shit down but I can read STAR move kings ideas. I stated my red bangs, nobody does held me, but it's still you now. I get distracted still on a do get destroyed. It helps me by two still gets. Also helpful to know to understand, like what your parameters are like what you're optimal Creativity, flow parameters are like. If you know

you're gonna get distracted after like fifteen minutes, then you give yourself that focus fifteen minutes and you allow yourself the time to get distracted after fifteen minutes or whatever it is you if you time you know, if you can both your day with all your activities, specially like a creative writing order, we're doing if you sort of time each thing and sort of figure out, like you know, for a week or two, how long you'll probably have an average of about how long you start to get distracted, and if you know that, then you can sort of plant around that give yourself the forgiveness of I'm, going to be super productive from this time to this time? I know I'm going to get distract allow that to happen, but I know that I'll come back and do you know if you can understand that a little bit more, sometimes, rather than trying to force yourself to conform to whatever you think you should be doing And if that's me, when I got ok, you are going to write music from two to three and then it's like two and unlike so you wouldn't

It's good to remember that we make the our own rule sneer licking, give you don't have to anything that you don't want to do it again and if that's me, when I got ok, you are going to write music from two to three minutes. Two and unlike so you wouldn't, my god, you ve put this rule on yourself and then you just shit on yourself for breaking the rule that you made up. That is now real. Well, what? If I just do? That's what I've seen a lot at two o clock or between two into fifteen. You are going to leave the room with your guitar Anna, paper and you couldn't stairs and not just give yourself fifteen minutes at a time when the case or what happens then in the fifteen, will hopefully I focus and start playing me

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