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authors and then read it to you like an audio book so simple and every few months issue a team up with dark Chris Patty at Appalachia, state, university and pig, an essay or two to Neri from his class is so cool to me. Thus, tunas can participate in this policy in that way, so four months ago, they finish their essays any semi over a few that the students voted on and swam away to you in particular, stood out to me I'll talk about it, a little more at the end and just wanna thank Darker Chris Paddy and Jesse the other this, as a for doing this. With that, let's hear her s as we optimize your life, waves of acceptance by Jesse Chaplin. I suffer from anxiety, a term that fails to encompass the whole experience.

Anxiety manifests itself in many ways and a few years ago it manifested as panic attacks my freshman year of college. I would wake up at six in the morning to a feeling of absolute terror. I felt like I was having a heart attack and then I was going to die. My body shook my left arm makes my heart beat one hundred and ten he's per minute. My palms grew sweaty and a heavy invisible wait rested forcefully on my chest. I would ride these two more ways of anxiety by calling my mom and trying to talk with her through it until finally, a sum sense of relief head these waves of anxiety surface during class. In the middle of the night and anytime, I felt trapped. The increasing frequency of the attacks left me in a state of constant fear of the impending doom that shadowed each waking minute. I slowly sorry to isolate myself. A fear of embarrassment that I would have it Agora, others and that they will know how to deal with someone who has such strong anxiety. Finally,

months of feeling, weighed down stuck in a state of fear, not feeling any appreciation for a life as it had become mere. They trying to evade the next attack. I sought medical help after a trip to the yard, where they ran all kinds of tests. On my heart, the doctors confirm that Of all my physiological symptoms as corner quote just anxiety, a diagnosis that to fail to encompass the whole experience The only hope they offered was a medicine to mask the symptoms, I then began reading online about different anxiety disorders and diagnose myself as having paid disorder, which basically a strong, what that means, your sympathetic nervous system or firefly responds constantly tell see you that you are a life threatening situation approach. My father about getting professional help they respond with familiar language, you just need a stronger relationship with God, he can understand no one can, until they ve experienced a panic attire themselves. One day during Christmas break,

I rode home with him and my brother after visiting family and Johnson City Tennessee and attack struck and I cried my eyes out begging them to take me to the hospital. In a moment they went is the severity of what I was dealing with this panic disorder. Was bigger than me and bigger than anything I had ever dealt with. I can prayed away. Nor could I avoid it we had to ride out the feeling when it came as well. When, by researched all the habits that can decrease anxiety, a red online about how changing your diets cutting out caffeine exercising ends, Leaping, better could help, and all these things. I work to implement also finally went counselor who understand how my knee for control contributed, this overwhelming anxiety, which led me to try and accept what little control I actually have

Despite trying all that I also to that. I wanted to deal with my intense fear of change, which I felt a triggered: the onset of the disorder. My chose to take a bunch of risks, at least they were risks. To me, I got a scary new job. I took a class I just wanted to take for fun find a bunch of clubs and it being to put myself in situations that would bring all my paralyzing fear. It's ironic that to decrease my anxiety, I had to first increase it. I think that just shows how beautifully complex These are, as payment children says in her book. When things fall apart, we have to move closer to fear. Learn how to embrace it since I've been put, myself in these situations have begun to feel a sense of agency. I have the choice of what to throw myself into today. I still have anxiety and I probably always will my brain through all these situations over analyzing everyday

still learning how to reign myself in and be mindful of how those patterns of thinking contribute to my fears and need for control. I still have been negative. But I become much more familiar with them and threw them, I've learned the import of embracing change. It seems simple, but I think we hold onto the waste. Things are a lot more tightly than we realise as much as it be boring. We do like a sense of routine and a sense of normalcy. By shouting self to move out of my comfort zone into situations that take the floor out from under my feet have become much more acquainted with the anxiety, then Also in the background on my life, I making friends with my anxiety. Every now, and then it will move to the centre demanding attention see it more now as a sign of waking up of realizing the parts of my subconscious that still feel afraid We all have our own fears and anxieties. I think, if anything we can work,

how to embrace them, become familiar with them and realise that they are a chance for us to wake up and listen to ourselves when a panic attack its now Oh a rare occurrence. I try to remember the fee this advice of medical scientist John Cupboards and though he have moments in which to live. In this moment I may feel the weight of anxiety head, leaving me grasping for breath and in the next I may feel the soft tender relief that arises after I've learned to accept each moment for what it is. Sometimes waves crash and sometimes waves gently approach, the shore, but the beauty lies in appreciating how quickly they come. How quickly they go. You justice, to the post, tidal waves of acceptance by Jesse Chaplain. This pointed out for me also having major bouts of panic, minors, more performance base, and some, I think, o this stage fright of own guess at your feet,

but those people haven't actually seen me in full blown panic. Nor would I ever want them too, and that is why desperately avoid those situations is truly and You're saying and frustrating and exhausting the more I run away from it, the worst gets. Surely the only I can do is confronted and be ok with the results to be okay with panic, with myself, and was, however, anyone responds to it Caesar seven. But I think Jesse has some wisdom that way ahead of the game, which is great. I see that lie about how she had to increase or anxiety first to decrease. It took me years of panic, tat I kind of outlook, but even that I'm still struggling in running away at times. I just hope again of the Kurds She has to stand up to here and there and front, it had on almost asking for the panic to show its face pieces times like those that backs down

as opposed to any kind of anxiety. Really. I wasn't just narrowing this first selfish reasons. If you get anxious when know one things don't go the way you planned or if your home is dirty horses clutter. Or money troubles for words. This too shall pass Hollywood ever today. Thank you get a doctor Chris Patty and Jesse Chaplain from Appellation State University. Thank you for listening. This ass. A posted on the blog at old podcast dot com. The shorter linked to it is old, podcast dot com. Such panic comment there. If you want to the happy fourth of July, if you're here in the, U S, have a safe one and I'll see you tomorrow,

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