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come dot, heathen life, dot, com, slash old, to learn more, that's welcome dot, each AV, an ally, F, P, darkened slash, o Aldi Sal's Javert. In two parts to continue optimizing. Your life finding the courage to live mindfully part two by clearly hawk with Kate Flanders dot com starting over and why we had to but why? Why didn't need to change? My life need to include the decision to end a marriage. The closest I can com is too I ask you to imagine to sin wooden beams the beams, straight men lying. Each other at one end beams are touching, but instead of running straight upward, together making two parallel lines: one leans towards the left. One toward the right as the beans run out from where they touched to get farther and farther apart

you you're, rearrange them to make them touch, but assuming the ends are fixed, the ends where the beams touch. The only way to do this is to break one or both of the beams and rearrange the pieces next to each other the beams represent, who we are not just what we were lunch or our hopes and dreams. HU. We are our course alike,. The beams represents time. I met my eye When I was nineteen years old in college, I married him when I was twenty two, though my gut felt uneasy. Something's. Things are indicated who we were as people. I d love him profusely. He was and is a wonder, person and when the friendliest kind souls. I've ever known Ass time, went on that gut feeling got stronger as a true But father along my beam, I felt unease every and we made a decision that reflect the path I wanted to take with my life. Try. Am I to align my core self with his, while ever more frantically attempting to practice gratitude for all the things I can complain about the beam

resisted. More and more each time I put pressure on a tiny splinters began appearing where I tried desperately to change who I was to suit the decisions made in the past: and one day I realized. If I pulled back any harder, I would snap and find a path litter. The broken beam and full of what is missed opportunities dreams, I never even got a shot of becoming reality. I wish I had more They express what led us to this point or why things ended this way, but his image must do because, while I'm ok sharing pieces of my life in a public forum, my axe mean, I feel the same way. I want to both protect and respect his privacy and emotions bees. I do are deeply for him and as bizarre as it may sound to say about someone you divorced, I do to flourish and find the sort of happiness I felt in exist in our old state of being. He deserves on days full of inspiration, satisfaction and fulfilment. We both to finding the courage to live mindfully

I realise that my decisions within relationship or not a reflection of who I was or what I wanted out of my life. I knew that I can continue making those mistakes. I do not deal with the fear of judgment I do not stop worrying about what other people would say about me, but I didn't Oh, I didn't want to live with the knowledge that I turned away from what was right for me or state in a place where I felt unhappy unfulfilled and lacking direction and purpose, because I was here. As soon as I blurred out my dad one day that I was unhappy, I broke down in tears and felt immensely sad ashamed and relieved I walked out of the court house after filing for divorce. I sound He cried all the way home over many things, and I felt like a massive, waited and lifted off my chest, As soon as I moved to a new city and took my first walk around the streets by myself, I felt com. I felt like something that had shifted around

unpleasantly for years within me. Finally, cleft into place. Living mindfully is not always easy, it is an unpleasant scary and painful in the moments you choose a step away from the herd unintentionally create your own path. Living mindfully requires you to wait. From what might be a perfectly nice daydream in which things are ok, and your content and everything is fine. The usual, turning away from something you know and accepting the risk that challenge and the potential for epic failure that we're taking a leap into the unknown, but living I am fully also means finding the courage to tune out everything else and I d if I were your own inner truth, looks like man. What is trying to tell you when you let that feeling take the stage when you listen to it and hearts of all act in accordance to what you know to be the right thing for you. You'll have the opportunity to create a Full of meaning and purpose

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