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If you prefer beeped version, you can find that at our website, this american life dot org the people in a hundred eighteen street near video doing this thing that almost nobody in New York or around the country is doing and figure out. Why, like? What's it about their black asked long term resident in Bed Rodriguez to tell me that place, and you tell me that when Juno mom moved the bog back in nineteen sixty five, this is the very neatly kept four hundred block of these two hundred eighteen street with brick houses and woe iron fences where the property nine hits the sidewalk baggage mooted the south the street was mostly latino. Her side of the street. The north side was mostly italian and I got in. We got this apartment because I told my mother don't say a word. Let me talk be cause. they would have another we were doing and they would not have granted to us. So I just kept quiet me: she kept quiet, goes repassing as attire.

Her manner owns about a young man these days. That says most of the order times gone and the block is a mix of a teen. Oh wait and ladders horse, though gotta retirees people around get to go and like a bad sharpened and younger people are moving. It has today. So we're talking and a glance at the clock in her apartment is also realise the time Congress. The where my husband has an alarm, were just like two minutes before seven. No, this is ten minutes ass, just in case you arrive at the time, because I was the records of being the starts at seven remember early in the pandemic out people are we not the windows or go out at seven p m and cheer for the healthcare workers and other central workers on most Box run New York City, most box everywhere stop doing that long ago, but for some reason now I dont not this block these data. over four hundred days. I think every day, yet we gotta get ready IRA

What do we do to get ready? I gotta put on my jacket. I stay out there a long time soon at seven o clock we had outside with some very promptly. Please vote gathered pans and noise makers. They use every night when I guess it how many people takes made this much noise can number nine people from windows in the apartment across the street and gives way flashlights getting just inside events is one of the neighbours because advises every night, Francis mistrust of eighty three years old, I rocket nightly implicitly nine as a bribe, I'm gonna win out. Nineteen seventeen live and I haven't grand order that is

nineteen and Harvard and now is in carbon Francis in traditional community, deeply grandmother. We weigh actually to ask a bunch of questions that France's is doctor, Francis misquoted, given retired on college researcher. Habited coming about a work then agreed that better and We began to do a delay. Human will decide antigens and then look at the genetic code. I'm an old- This is one of the reasons that this work is still doing. Seven o clock, appreciation of healthcare workers, a bunch of them worked in health care, including Frances,

and the neighbor who organise the making noise party Vivian and a bit of a husband but their bigger reasons. I think that this is continued here, every night, with other retirees on the block. The way our very best web and will wipe out worried, however, if they don't see, I haven't a trademark for me, though, is one of the reasons why so going on, because people are checking on each other this lady come that may well come on we're, not renewed Nordic, never applied. They look for me. No one alone tonight, you're tired and you don't want to come out, have I had no, there were very Vivian who organise others. Do Use it to keep an eye out for their neighbors, make sure they do

Ok, everything's quieted down if it ran through her little mental checklist of neighbors. For me I must stress that I saw several arena. Paul came out from next door. Sugar little easier. Arlene is the one that I didn't see whenever an end of it. X on every night is an extra neighbour Josephine who got and went hospital for a while. She back at home now little bestow bedridden until so you don't go outside Josephine waved Lucinda assertions not angry at me today. That's which window was this window right here. To see. I know because I know what I'm looking for, but I can see her when she waves zero. She doesn't mean you have seen or through the drain rice. That's where you re have to know the neighbourhood yeah yeah, it's just. I get dark a pretty night.

a baby hung out on the sidewalk chatting in front of Monaco, leaving the Dallas his house. She school teacher and another three school kids obedient, is that, after all, the banging has done that there's conversations or we just linger and talk in kind of catch, and I think that so nice will be the sign that the pandemic has gone away enough, that you can stop No, I do. We really have no idea what its end, though I don't want to now I'm imagining mikovits going to end and you guys you're, just gonna, be coming out after travelling. That's a possibility. I think it's a possibility. is the daily NEWS of the seven, a Coquette together good. Every single day, that's what's made, it mean so much to all of them have made this. the day, a little life raft they gathered on during this terrible dangerous last year, the main it like a daily prayer. I pay

they haven't prayed everyday since a little boy, but somebody who does it as an adult for me. That is a fact that the words and rituals never change did today. That gives comfort he days when the prayers mean less to him and days, when the mean a lot more ten feeling that difference from day to day also tells him something Dr Weir devoting a programme to other things that we do daily NEWS is what is important about them and gives the meaning helps us see things more clearly. We beseech cargo is this american life, american, ass How do you get Carnegie Hall seriously If we do something every day like exercise, her boss or keep a diary is because we decide we're going to do it, but other times it has. The world has chosen for us this restoration little bit of both of those thank our home. Does what

The way this story started. Lindsey was in the middle of changing our whole life around. He'd been living and working in Ireland, but she decided to take a leap choosing to start a new chapter moved to the other side of the world. I had actually just accepted a job, and I was meant to move to Australia in April. Oh, so you really getting ready to leave Dublin. You were like on your way out the door I was actually like almost all the way pact, like truly ready to move and. I was dating an australian guy who had just moved to Australia, and I was meant to follow him like a couple weeks later and then the pandemic hit Linsey couldn't leave and she had to scramble to find a place to stay. Eventually she got an apartment on south side. A Dublin is actually the

great place one bedroom and are really pretty row house looks Eggless pulled out of one hundred and one dalmatians or something place was cosy. Had these pretty bay windows, it looked out onto the streets, sunny little breakfast snuck in the kitchen, not the things were going great for Lindsey, otherwise she and that australian guy broke up her move, her new job new life. All that got called off in slow motion, Linsey she's alone, Num lock down. She says it was actually one of the more depressing time she remembers. It was in the middle of all of that that she started to hear music three or four times a day, I would notice when I was like you know, I'd be doing the dishes or I'd be doing so, so mundane, and then you know it would like happen. Yeah, the music was coming from near by whose saxophone so many practicing pretty clearly

beginner, but the most notable part of it was the song. It was the same one. Every day, again and again and again, there was a pink panther theme song, would you hearing, actually the sound of a video montage Linsey put together. The funding of this is not lost on her in the video. You noticed the range of time morning morning afternoon, ten thirty at night, the pink Panther always in background you'll hear it is Lindy eat at her kitchen table or leaned against a door frame and her living room holding back smile ass. She lay in a yoga Matt Rocks through hall when he picked up the

worn, and Europe first heard the notes come out. You're like oh, I mean for how long say forty five minutes on our forty five minutes to an hour. How are maybe God now now, I feel, that's crazy. Maybe one eating I mean have you? Maybe it was twenty two thirty minutes it felt to me like it was never ending. It fell to me by the end that I was just. It was all day all night so that ITALY became like a staple.

Of your existence, and it was to the point where, like to like, I was trying to work during the day. I was trying to get things done and then you know I'll be in a meeting and all my co workers could hear Lindsay was no working remotely from the sublet apartment and all the pink panther and became a running joke for the people that you work with. It was so audible that Lindsay found herself constantly having to mute during video meetings because MIKE's on phones very so much like. I couldn't totally grass how loud it was in person like how loud was it I mean it sounded like it was in. My house

when I posted this on twitter people were like you know. I got all kinds of responses, but people were we gonna wondering if I ve no, if, if I was playing a recording of it in my house it, but it was so loud that at war it did sound like it was coming from inside the house, and I dont know if he knew how loud was dear- and I don't think you did Lindsey says this went on for weeks and weeks several times every day just point out most days. This was actually her only real life, human contact, the saxophone from through the walls, human ties it Linsey made of all this to eventually tweeted accumulated five point. Four million views this for scale miles Davis is kind of blue, has sold five million copies. The internet responded like the internet, some of the

Were point. Seven thousand comments interesting: how to get further from kneeling at the longer they practised your neighbors horrible playing should be a crime, my condolences, you think that the performance would at least improve over time. Sometimes in sounds, like you still shape to the insurance company. Geico responded. We feel your pain for long term. Lindsey didn't know who the pink Panther was. So when she'd see people in the halls of rebuilding its leg. Is that them? We is that them, though, eventually her suspicions nagged on this one guy. I would see this guy outside drink. He would you don't do this thing where he would like walk outside to drink has coffee kind of like in his pajamas, and I had a feeling it with him, but I wasn't sure, as for some reason, I feel like drinking coffee outside in your programme, as is kind of saxophone behaviour. Yeah

how to abide it. We had agreed on by. He had a saxophone by for sure so come with me if you will, to the other side of the whimsies law to the other end of the day phone rainbow, but there was young man named Raja at the time he was twenty three likely living and working in Ireland as far as Roger knew, his only audience was inside his apartment at this window, where you'd practice I had a large window and on the window sill I had done people the Basel Blunt I just randomly had a potato those going off and I put you into a bottom: it started to grow. So that was my potted potato blunt and there was a Korean. The plant is so I would plead them like you know what that's my audience. Everyday

and I still believe that that body potato plan grew. I took off So I think I had not. Joking must take to a super doll. Roger told me for the record. He had no idea. People could hear him like this. He said some people building have remarked on how he was learning saxophone, but he just figured this buildings old. It's gotta have thick walls. Maybe they hear me like faintly off in the distance. Lindsey did eventually come over at some point. She introduced herself and just and stop because she had a migraine. It's. His Lindsey with super nice, when this is Roger, was genuinely surprised and very sweet for my fellow rom campaigns. I will note that they are not engaged, but the point is Roger had actually had no idea how loud saxophone.

was for her until he saw in these video later. When I saw the video I was like, while the silly load I do not think it was that allowed in the pillars almost how loud it was for me when I was me, and so when I heard it for the first time from hope, respect. Closing I would have had a problem is Roger felt like oh shoot, I did not know. I was bothering anyone yes Lindsey. What would be a good time to play a sturdy practicing during his lunch hour, though in our was barely enough, he told me

because what was unfolding on Raj outside of the building was a love story, a budding romance with the alto saxophone that had started just a few months before this turns out before Covid head in December project was visiting India, his from Bangalore, and he was visiting old friends. One of these friends lives on a farm that has his place, is just beautiful. So all these friends who they are and they're hanging out and one of them. picked up a saxophone. Let me was also Saxons nice cute little guy and down like we re just like be working in that he has been would shop, then we will working and from the background I hear like someone playing the beginning there for me in the sunshine, and I look out and it's my friend like he's wearing leg sleeper. Flip blocks. Insured Siena sweating goes the sun's out, even in December, in India and he's just like he's. It's gonna take the bite. Viper he's take a few dogs work,

behind him and he's playing the dude military units. Amazing. What ragists friend was like hey. You should try using ok almost immediately? He was able to get a sound on the horn to his friend time. The first line from enough sunshine and Roger was often running, and I was just off by myself playing out into the feels, like literally, I would say for like a good like if not forty, five, at least thirty, you know thirty minutes or so just constantly drilling drilling drilling drilling and drilling than TAT was a moment like I was getting into a flu, and I Also with this excellent does you keep blowing. So much is some degree of lake and then you like, and then you blow again said, has a high degree of attack. You know when you like a rapid bleed when you meditate

the Sunday give like I'm getting saying over Lake well, what's happening inside get into this flow stated that now has a heart like getting that sound to come out of the sex phone right away. Did you feel a little bit like? Oh, like I'm, I'm kind of unnatural like that, take less familiar yea official. When he got back to Ireland he research carefully, then he bought a saxophone alto, Nay said about learning to play it. He made this little note book for himself on the first page or caps, he wrote. Consistency is key, meaning practice every day, a little bit

Or a lot on the second page, he made a list of songs that he wanted to learn, including, of course, the paint Panther Roger told me this was the song he maybe most identified with saxophone until he found a video tutorial of it online where Guy walks, through the song, praise by phrase, and so I would add, journal that video, like Ici plus times like just like hot lead. You know just again and again and again and again just keep going. You gotta give good you're, like I'm gonna get the centre, my muscle memory like yeah exactly and because it was something I really wanted to get good because it sounded so cool like the final product. At the end of that video that I need to get this, and I was not going to move on to anything else till I got this.

At one point it out, it was not in heavy rotation, it was be rotation men. The guy was not getting tired of workers, it was ended, aiming and it was so nice to see because at the end of it as well. Then and earn and earn snow, cool, legged, so fuck you and you get it right. So, like you, would give me glimpses neck. I do the first key phrases horribly, but I'd like I'd say: ok, please be an unjust, though one time, one time if I get the nice Luther, if properly I get like this. So when the thing I love about, this situation is just how different the same song play day in and day out. Four months could feel in these two neighbouring apart

and by two people in their own little bubbles, like some kind of musical worship test like four Lindsey, whether with irritating or funny, it was an artifact of her confinement, but for Roger it was the exact opposite, It was an escape money, so much Netflix you can do. Did you start feeling sick you're doing that? You know yes, this is genuinely black. Like I was. I got up, they're gonna get to practice, actual bout that me too looking back on this little chapter, four Lindsays part, she told me the main consequence of all this has been that month after leaving that apartment moving back to the United States she's still here,

the pink Panther theme all the time this is coming through the walls of her memory now, like a phantom limb, a pink phantom limb. All of this has also stuck with Roger to believe it or not, but this five million view thing has sky to me to a certain extent, because, obviously, because I've no move, do ITALY Red I'm staying here an ice. I live in like these apartments, where you share the courtyard. So I have a balcony right here. And it opens out into this beautiful good. Yet you can see the sky bullets on top lovely, but that is everybody around here and it echoes so I cannot play this excellent here because at least in Dublin, if someone had an issue, I could speak to them and try to deceive defuse the situation. I cannot do that didn't Alan. I can't I can't I actually found a spot

in the storage rooms, a super like dying like in the cellar. Everything is musty rather keep. The suit case is a must what I want to get out some spaces like this will be my saxophone room graduates. Has, though It's just so out of the way he hasn't done it for Roger Lockdown in Dublin had really been in this bubble were true or not, he was so convince. No one could hear him. It was like you got to spend swaths of his day singing in the shower dancing like no one was watching loving the pink counterfeiting, but you ve never been her. If you know what I mean, That became his every day since then he's been a little unsure how to get back to that spot where he can play and feel quite so free you ve been chasing. That feeling. Aren't we all

mental health is one of the pollution of our shop, I too nice to hear your voice. You're not turn to somebody who had won daily routine, the change to a different daily routine and I'm gonna get her to destroy too much, but just to say what a vast affected hat on her and how quickly this affects kicked in the person with the daily routine industry is De Brown. She moved into long term care five years ago, and for years. Somebody would visitor everyday family. Her best friend would come near way every day. The glad to eat gone long drives into the mountains, then covered hit,

And the facility she was in following international guidelines didn't allow anybody have any visitors, communal, dining group activities, Roscoe cancelled Saudis, family invented a new retain daily phone calls. Basically, they made a schedule for everybody in the family phone and that we d would get calls every single day. They would chat. They would socialized to try to keep her spirits up. Just keep her from getting bored these granddaughter sue. Your brown was one of the collars funding once a week, or so she would get the story when my family started this, we figured natively. We do this for a few weeks, maybe a month until things back to normal and the calls for fun hearing who may first call March twenty. Seventh, we were still getting used to the phone, but do is pretty

happy. She start most caused by telling me about how nice her apartment was too digger calls for our favorite lounge chair, hello, Where are you? Do it I'm good? I'm good? What's up, do you of this? The unexpected thing make fun of herself and cement making other people laugh. I have a real problem right now that some, like underwear, the time, is right and I sit down a legal base doubled proud of that problem,. Yeah. Well you to seek a busy trying to pull your underwear. Their hands were very graceful growing up. He wasn't when I thought of as a typical grandma. For one thing we other d-

Not grandma, I shall address like an old Colorado had being temperature. Ways, jewellery and tied: I join smuggling coffee, but she drink all day, even at midnight. She never did the normal grandma stuff with my sister and me they take. For a scream or whenever he was a talker says that we do sit in the backyard and talk hours, didn't matter how old you her and she was funny, though my dad said she sometimes disguise something as a joke just to get what she wanted in her for it After raising three kids and getting a divorce gendered epinay, it became a huge part of her life. So much so Jenadab sponsoring over a hundred people she's, still gotta meetings a few times a week. Now, of course, all that was gone. Yeah there's the head of a boring day, because I have labour law, my friend, whereas by car yeah, can you walk in the hallway yeah yeah?

what did the hallways and everybody else is walking away to the little exercise. Who will be ok, he's gonna, kill me said again here. Instead of going out walking around, I take these cars with her permission, do was going on eighty eight I did the same thing with my other grandmother when she had her ladys. It was just something to capture open at their lives on tape. Why so had them d had dimension but it was pretty mild, should forget small things like where I lived. How many stories she told me before, but she was still pretty with it. This was another reason for the frequent Ass isolation is really bad for anyone with dementia. You ve, probably heard people say Rain is like a muscle in need to use it to maintain it but venture. This is especially true in the morning,

is your mind. Is words the more those things stick with you burn your isolated. You stop practicing. And starts to slip away and ones. It goes a usually doesn't come back and those first cause. I don't worry too much about that with the she had worked as a therapist for debt AIDS and would still kind of do informal therapy, and everyone, including me, without my asking she does start working out my options at me on the phone. Ok, what to do if you get a big piece of paper and you write down every one above that you like to do what do I want we're Doin what I just finished, grad school and wasn't really sure what to do with my life. find her you wanna be and what you want. I hate it fire that make it like that. Yeah yeah, as is happening, figure out what I want, you want an earlier

I know what you want to keep in touch left rocket. Reluctantly, here, when I called her the next week April fat. She was told joking about things but eleven days after that. My third call with her she seemed much worse- should always liked her pertinent before, but now I got the feeling was starting to feel oppressive. Everyone gotten sunshine today, I guess we did. He say well, maybe a little always that little verbal to that little cracks in the window is. Is this time crash light appeared in So am I love those dry.

They're my whole body is gone. This answer I am very stuff here right. two weeks after that call. He started meeting round the clock care. and by may it was clear to me parts of DE were drifting away thing she said plain to me weeks ago, no longer make any sense to her we're swirling together in her head, and I had to explain them back to her find out where, by my when sideways yourself there, you know nor does he believe today say sand space of people walk

as they're going up and down, and I don't know wire, yeah yeah? I mean, I think I think one of the things that are happening is that, because, before and second their apartment there walking up and down the hallway thing only place they can go to get exercise. Yeah, I think that probably was happening that rising so weird. It does everything where I hope. I'm just going to try and get tomorrow and pay for their something- and I have a television thing up in front of me- for that doesn't make any sense. What do you mean, like the things that people are saying, doesn't make sense, yeah yeah he's in there.

I don't a strange world that our work on it here I'll work on it better. That's so d, always sure, there's a way to fix things. If you just organize your thoughts correctly, even if a thing she's trying to organise is our own dementia. I hated that she had to work this out alone, so I tried to work I too, but I was kind of grasping and how to help Ok, we're gonna weeded out about. Let's talk about something that might feel grounding like. Why don't we about when you are living in Kansas City, boy way back here tell me about your house in Kansas City,

I don't know much about it. Just like I don't know what their expected Here. I have a word to work. It was so hard to comfort her and it wasn't gesture Fusion, it was also the worst she got them are physically uncomfortable. She got too. There are basic things she needed It would have been so easy to do in person, but not over the phone. My mouth is her drive. Let's just get hurt: yeah yeah heavy drink. What about water there? For me,

do you have a civil war will arise here. I've got no wiser water source. the waters at him. Star boy are you got here: yeah tries to finally gather war around this time. My family started talking about these progression, even though it should have been obvious to me what was happening. I didn't want to believe it. When I talk to my sister we'd make excuses for d say she was just having bad day, or that it was a

location, which was always changing. We wanted to believe the old DE would come back. My dad didn't she would. a few months into the pandemic The toll of isolation on people with dementia was clear: medical examiners darted listing social isolation related to covet nineteen restrictions as a cause of death for people and long term care centres. Someone from the Alzheimer's Association told me. People with dementia have been wandering more that maybe they're looking the people who no longer visit started doing this to opening those doors in the middle of the night June. Twenty twenty, just three months until all down below, can you hear me and her rights, as is its superior,

the Syria I size it Cecilia Ah, here your granddaughter, Ah ha. He's off somewhere right. not a lot about whether it's ok to play these recordings on the radio talked about it with my family back when she was with it. De New. I might make a story out of these calls and knew she had Jane was game to record. And I'm sure she want me to tell the true version of our story. That's D. by Jean covered trades were starting to them, and people are starting to meet up outside emerge and small ways. Data fell almost completely out of reach. What would you like it

that. I might know nothing here. on their ah, what happened? What happened But the day that I don't know what I'm doing, because everything is a dark and all kinds of pitch dark. Having trouble seeing I thought I had they laugh. So it's ok when I come back later. Ok,.

I don't know what I'm doing here as they don't know what I'm doing. Ok, Sandy fairly, now you don't sound silly, you don't sound silly. It sounds like you're having a tough there, so you can just put the gun down and then it'll be over and I'll. Take a buyer. Ok, ok! I love you d tastes. Ok, ok, I'll, pull down! Ok, I love you. It's all over.

Ah, how I hung up, I was standing alone on the street and cried I decided to stop recording all my calls with tee. After this, she was changing so quickly I just wasn't sure it felt rate anymore and I also around this time, began to wonder if my calls were doing or any good at all. If I was just calling to try to convince myself, I was hoping I could tell from talking to her, my cause or making her more disoriented, more agitated, every one of my family felt that To be honest, the calls were also pretty painful, so I- calling less and then stopped altogether.

Alzheimer's association found that forty six thousand more people died from dementia this past year than on average and each of the last five years. They call these access deaths, people of mine, died if it had been a normal year. We could have predicted this. We have known for years that isolation can lead people living with dementia, too rapid deterioration and death and we isolated them anyway. Another term, that's beneath used as collateral deaths, people it indeed directly from covered as a by product of it. I hate those terms, access, death, collateral damage like these deaths somehow fall outside the bounds of the deaths. We care about. eventually, in September, the centres for medical care and medical services reverse their guidelines to allow and visitors in cases where people are really needed them for people who are having trouble.

eating our drinking and people, an emotional distress, people like D, I think it would have helped I think- or dementia wouldn't have progressed so fast- that she would have on from where she wasn't spring to where she got to by summer. In just three months, weren't so isolated. My whole family think so these nurses think so too. but that changing guidelines came too late for her d die just a few weeks before it on August eighteenth, she died alone. I ended up deciding their accord. One last call with tee. July, a couple weeks before she died. It was the last time we ever spoke What is it that you tried to do this? Your granddaughter I'm to say hi. Ok, Google,

here, you are the best, yeah yeah yeah. Yeah well walk outside and the temperature is ok, see geared to hang up the count yeah, okay, nay, review, by later by Brown, she's dead,

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a glass today and our show the daily stories about the things that we do every single day and how their everyday, what's important about them and to reveal things that we might not notice. Otherwise, we have arrived at act. Three of our programme act. Three, it had to be you tube. Sudan. A dark is somebody with a very specific, very unusual labour, intensive practice that he does every day more or less each day he shoots and posts a video on Youtube, Caliphs, any rights, a lot about music about other things for the new Yorker and watched above them. The first thing I noticed Johnny Dogs, you two pages that it goes on forever and endless scrolling creative thumbnail images. The same face row after row their guy within unnaturally brown pompadour. There hundreds and hundreds of videos goes back more than five years. Each one is Johnny Dark singing a song and for all that all that music there's, no one watching you can see,

view counts. Ten views. Twenty three views: seven views I almost felt guilty clicking them like by increasing the numbers. I was spoiling this pristine place, leaving footprints and practically on foot printed terrain, I only ended up there because an old friend of Johnny's told me about it. He knew I had a taste for stubborn visionaries for bodies of work that defy easy explanation. There's a simple formula to each video Johnny Dark is all by himself no instruments, nothing to sing along with looking into the camera, dressed in a tuxedo smiling as if he were working a casino or a crucial empty standing in what might be a living room told my. also be an antique shop. It's full of Frame chosen little statues, often singing classic, maybe a Sinatra zone Ah, you got to lose Sid.

Not a rainbow. I got this raw who. what one alive, sometimes you'll, do something that swains macro knife. But it's a lot of ballads tank, William Did you hear that law were boom. He went through a carpenters phase, Why do so? A few in the most Videos he's not wearing a tuxedo anymore, it's even more surreal now he's tightly aimed in the shadowy room, a floating singing into a mirror still smiling, but now smile seems kind of intense and he's dressed in dark, colors, often boy

You can see his hands in black gloves, holding the Iphone. That's recording the video. This looks like a cruise ship and more like a science which makes the song sound that much spook year, especially the sad ones, two hours and wounds can t you, though The whole project seemed obsessive and haunted as if some club had shut down. Nineteen. Seventy is, but the performance had kept going. Who was this for? Why do this? My wake up, every more get dressed, do your hair and send another. video out into the world out into the void, so called him up, and I was nervous to be honest, the video seem so

pulses. They made me wonder about the state of mind, but he was friendly happy to explain what is that room that use the urine and those in those my living room, ok and was only statues and hangs out using stop at that short about what I like. You know, nothings, nothing really expensive. It looks expensive. Yeah does not always model my place after Buckingham Palace, you're dressed. What in a tuxedo the took cedar was just away. giving respect to the one I thought they d. The old folks would like to see a tuxedo Workin in LAS Vegas when you open for tangible you're. Just a way of giving this Johnny work, is never actually open for Tom Jones, making hunker saying it's not unusual, but he has worked, lots of other legendary acts. For he was singing on you to Johnny. Dark was performing for realises onstage and on tv, a busy actor and media

and so watching those videos, it's kind of like being visited by the goes to show business past specifically Johnny Show business past. He kept dropping all these names household names, many which warrant quite as houses they used to be twenty vanish in the courts. But to our conversation he told me about shining Tony, then choose and Wildwood New Jersey being best friends with Fabian fifties: heart throbbed, my best friend he tore but Ginger Rogers, and also with the Righteous brothers kindred. At one point, he found himself up against Michael key they were both competing for a spot on Danny and Marie husbands. Variety show and I do not emerge show- and I don't know whatever happened to Michael spot on the variety show that was kind of the perfect gig for a guy like Johnny Dark he's an entertainer which the job that maybe doesn't even exist anymore It means you get up in front of an audience and do whatever it takes to keep them. Happy songs, jokes, skids, dancing, impressions.

Areas on tv, the nineteen seventeen impression of allodial up Maginnis guy coming over to its wife at night, I gotta get some other can make that three kisses her cheek, but a little later with Attorney Britain. What's for donor right over for dinner, I hear outside Europe. Often being your big, been lobbying aggravate aims, make up a means of, but I make a bus to make things about you when you're brown right now I have, but by this point in the nineteen seventies entertainers in tuxedos, we're going extent Just an Johnny Dark had that old school style. Even those career you're really began in the club, where a new sensibility was emerging. The comedy store in L A The regulars there were not Paul purpose old school entertainers, their performance with the point of view, unpredictable stand of come. It's like Richard. Prior Robin Williams, Andy Kaufman, but also a young David Letterman J, Leno Johnny Dark job. There is an m c introducing the comics

It open with a song and eventually he started telling jokes too we are all part of one person, but we weren't all genius Robin Whims, people that gene cannot compete with those guys they would geniuses. I mean Robin Whims Irish, to pick him up in front of changes to drive him out to do other new port laughter. Newport beach left I was a closing. I will you get up and in the middle to thirty forty minutes was killer stuff. I couldn't compete with it. It's true I'm pretty sure you ve heard of robbing Williams and you probably never heard of Johnny Dark, but he built a successful career. Had small rolls on a bunch of popular sitcoms made good money on the road. supporting the family, his most memorable wrong. Maybe this weekend- and I let us gentlemen, please sailor, the world's oldest and the two thousands David Letterman pulled his friend Johnny Dark into the spotlight for a series of guest appearances on Malaysia,

giving Johnny a little bit of the same and recognition he had always wanted. The bit was with the world's oldest CBS page and in turn, basically had been killing time in the bowels of the Ed Selivant Theatre for thirty eight years the character was crappy it find he had no interest in the show and mainly wanted Letterman. He bigshot host to leave him alone, jobs are Johnny, can't you're not allowed to smoke in the theater of solar I mean to bring it up next time you blow smoke up a celebrities ass. Before I talk to I sort of assumed the Johnny Dark was going to be a lot like that character that he be bitter long and miscellaneous career about for achieving real stardom, like maybe it had driven him crazy, and now he was sitting at home compulsively making these videos ready creating his own lonely, private Hollywood. But he said it's not like that.

He told me over and over again in different ways that he wasn't bitter. No, no, I was grateful. I was I was thrilled to be. We gave it in fact. It I'm told me he was glad to have had the chance to entertain some The people he said he was happy or maybe he's eighty years old, living and allay house full of little statues spending time of this. And children every day wandering around the park, cooking them dinner, making peaches wasn't. There was one moment

and when he finally admitted that it has been frustrating sometimes. I feel I feel I should love hate relationship which openness in the fact that I've been close to so many big things. Ah, but at the same time you didn't come true, didn't come through its really tough show me sit up and put its fun initially, and then it gets up and it gets tougher. I wouldn't want my branches in children's. I really would like. I was born to it, but if you're not If you can do anything else in the world, do that don't get job so you're sick. So you saying you didn't, have a choice but to do this, why just cause you loved the two matters in my heart, just like my wife and I met my wife. I had no choice. I don't want to get married, but that's what love is love doesn't give you a choice. I dont think. And the children

I was fascinated by guys it was so smart, like recital and people. I get it back. Who did the show and the business together? I always had trouble with the business now, even now everything I do seven over a thousand songs. I say on you too will be paid for that work. Will I be paid for out of it now? Why do I do it, because I have no choice toward entertainer. Sounds be kind of casual. You do a little of this little of that. Do it well enough everyone's happy, but Johnny Dark is not a casual guy and is definitely not a casual singer. Thanks to these videos. His life is nonstop rehearsals, nonstop singing. I made it sort of discipline thing for me. I have to know exactly every law

every single day. So every morning I get up and it's just like I'm taking a gig. You know I get the shower a goal of its own and listen to the song on tape. When I'm shaving, then I get a better dont forget I'd listing tonight. So for a twenty four hours, and often on with the kids, when I'm with the kids to park, I sing a song allowed in certain areas where I don't bother anyone on, but now I refer to all the time and I ve got it down. So yesterday me singing lollipops Moses didn't exist. Does it is nice that things should spies things? Those

is an lollipops, unrelated and thinking about the song on thinking about doing it right. I'm thinking about how I was terrible, I'm thinking about how that was good, I'm just thinking about the art Sometimes I'll do a song for five times and post it on Youtube and then I'll I'll. Listen to it! Now, though, I don't hear it don't don't hear the music and are now deleted, then I'll do it again. I don't I believe that then I do again. If I hear it opposed it, I mean is theirs hence in which these songs or more for you than for any one else.

there is much to me. Is there anyone else here? There's much for me because I want to keep this work is good, as you could pass. We were I made my brain was pointing to my right, suppose the videos on Facebook and it gets more engagement there, not a massive amount of thirty or forty likes per video. We will show up in the comments section. Missing about the old songs they loved growing up, but Johnny still direct people to his Youtube page. He says that's his personal archive the thing he's building he wants to leave it behind for his grandchildren. I like to picture them decades from now sitting around the laptop listening to Grandpa, singing me and my shadow or the very thought of you but there's one last reason: Johnny makes videos every day he still

showbiz ambitions he's currently pitching sitcom. In fact the friend of his but on Youtube. He doesn't have to pitch, and I think that might be the main reason he's been doing it for so long, like maybe there, many people there watching, but at the same time, there's no one there to stop him. I think the fact that I could sing. And not have an honest and not depend upon anybody. I dont have to rehearse than anybody. I dont have to ask anybody permission. I can green light myself every day. You know how hard it is to do after waiting for somebody or cable green light, your let's go with Johnny Ghak. Ok, let's go down. As of all the things that have gone in terms as things there are tons of other things I haven't done, he always I wish I had upon our king closer

That would singing is so I keep myself esteem. I don't have to sit well, you you walk away from a man. You walked away from it. Why didn't walk away from a man? I may not be getting big bucks for, but I didn't walk away from it. Man I'm entertaining every day. I can walk away from amended business. My tone you're the one the siege. Smiling in the videos eager to please, but underneath it. This whole project is kind of agro defiant he's going to decide when it's over and it's not over. Yet it's like. I don't need any of you sure I want an audience, but I don't need one I'm here to entertain and I'm gonna be here, you're entertained or not. What my business

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its coconut milk White House, the most ordinary stuff in the world and somehow get me something that is than anything. I could have imagined, like you always do with everything you do. Our life is so different from anything. I thought what ever happened to me. Here's what I need to know that I was a kid at night. Sometimes after dinner a moment I was in the kitchen and target I don't remember about why, but I remember the feeling of it was just really listening to each other in hearing each other. In that way, the doesn't always happen if our coasts, in my memory. The room is dimly, let somebody how to come to the door, the kitchen, but from highlight pine and Z S there talking quietly and not join in the just stand there, apart from us,

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