When people become famous, we wait for them to either disappoint us or surprise us, and in their initial radiance fades, but I am convinced and no matter what is happening now. America loves and underdog story. We love the person who is fighting for their life against all the odds. So who is that person? what we really want is a person who impress us and then surpasses our expectations, well. Let me tell you I have. I came wait to introduce you to that person accomplishments are so random that it feels like she's living a mad lib, her first, was as junior Prime Minister of Canada. She was a cheer leader for the Toronto Raptors. it's an mba team. Come on, I know sports shoes

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it's coming back there, you think so hundred percent. I would bet everything I have that comedy. A resurgence like the eighties is communist. Come in now Who are your heroes in Comedy George Carlin Number one? It might sound silly, but Lucille Ball what she did for physical comedy. I had Lucille all over my room is, I did, and I have Lucille balls make up table she used onstage to during the I love Lucy years, all the way bought it after she died in her bedroom. She still applied or make up with that table red lights. To me, I'm gonna show so cool. My hazardous wedding I gotta have decided. Should I call my daughter Lucy, because she she's, just like use very publishes cheerleader and she is hysterical just to stir and always has been she's just been Lucille ball. Most people don't

so fine that are working on that show and leg. Just and he was just is amazing exactly and you know all her friends and even the neighbours and everyone will show like tat- was such solid Kommeni writing in the physical comedy of that chocolate, Z, yeah, real good, definitely Lucille Ball and I lake you know Dick Vandyke and I like while you are in old soul. I, like the entertainers, I like the ones you did it all. You know it seems, like Hollywood, the last year's want people to be this thing, be one thing and just Europe, that you're not first. Well. That's not real people but it's not even that it's just you have to toe the line. You have to say the right thing. You have to be for the right thing yet, and our committee is I mean I saw this article. You know, captains coming out with a new. So I didn't know: ok, coming out with a new saw fan, Morrison wrote it

then Morgeson Van Morrison has been getting in trouble lately because he's writing songs that our anti lockdown, and so he went to Clapton in said, would you record this: do Tijuana record this Clapton jumped at the chance he's releasing it, I think I'm late, this month, or or early next month year, but he's getting heat. All of the people are saying how dare you are wended rock and roll wended that become an Murray. It did it. So I have a very good friend: that's His label is mad at him and he's are a rockstar on metal rockstar there mad and like Spotify in the streaming stations and radio stations are mad. That he's making a rock that says something and is anti establishment which which means anti lockdown, which means running for America. Patriot, do the right thing for your good human. As I that's mob

rock is does is what comedy is we got to say the shit, that's real and if you're not letting our bee aren't any more than you should probably go away, not me you mean to go away and that real people be real people and have a range of emotions. Weird. How do I really think has just been like? muse is one of my. What used to be one of my favorite bans when they were ok, we address love them, love the lyrics, their brilliant. They are so anti establishment, yet they get it yet they hate me. I know it killed many. I read about it in the rolling stone and I wrote I wrote bed for rolling stock on women think you have the wrong guy. It's so weird that this time is making bizarre friendships. Bizarre bedfellows you don't you too,

because there's something its freedom. One thing that runs through is freed yeah. How did we get from rage against the machine to the machine? Says right exists, like all these people are getting. Words are so brave, you're, not hot tea? I you're not you're the it's Every one side of our living eighty and someone actually multiple develop to me recently. You call your videos are hitting so hard recently because you're just telling the truth, which is I ever doing, does make silly but they're like Reality has gone so crazy that all you have to do is report the news and just say it with a straight face and everyone's like woe, that's fuck what happened and I think we let it happen, though it's our fault, it's my fault. As your fault, everyone in this room, small. We let this happen. You know I push. So many viral videos over the last years, just trying to tell the truth and only

backlash all know. Backlash in liquid does backlash mean it mean some loser sitting reading your blog was like. I don't like this, because I'm fat you, she said fat people should work out of their dead from covert because it an organ it's true: half the people are mad video protodyne already just based on a little, because I thought you attacking me because I am not just fat cause. You talked about it, yeah, I'm not just fat. Ok, I'm I'm out of breath when I roll over at night? They might yet. We were talking to us. You are talking about me signed as I'm watching I'm laughing, because true and periods in absolutely true, and anyone gets anything through to me. Right, laugh right because does call me now having a sense of humor right and if it is true and some of them going to call you do as more than they had to because I'm self aware- and it's ok to be self aware- and it's ok, job at everything in reality. So why is it lists but of taking over glamour. Stupids have taken. Only has the apple who clean

to be the most self aware absolutely blind, deaf and dumb. I mean they and dragged their children yeah gashes unearthing in Hollywood, has like wow Oliver. People that leg claiming to be health and awareness in them, a document of spirituality. I'm like your highest fuck. I went near through my, can see, what's on united, stand front of me popping pills. I have high anxiety because little blood, no you ve anxiety, cause. You live a lie like let's, get back to spiritual baseline, hear you age yourself. You hate your job, you hate the facade, you created, this is why were depressed and then instead of saying that people we put them on prescription is and then gives them get health issues and not need another prescription mad and then America's drugged up and then idiots can take over power because word blind, deaf and dumb now and we're just liars. We're does liars. That's what happened. I was I mean, I'm still an alcoholic, but I think

over it now to drink at any time. Now, but I. People used to say are, I used to say to people That my motto is, I hate people I really did I hated people here and and they sobered up and about three years into sobriety. You know it starts to work for you. You know and I realized Now I hear me! Oh, I hated me bars and. the first person. You said several things to me recently that just some like yes, here, the first person to divert say this year, Hollywood its themselves, they do eight themselves. They do I don't blame them you're doing the way that they act is now

ok, they know deep down, like a girl, knows you're starving yourself to fit into that outfit. You gave a blow job to get that role. and now you're, Bang, an old men on the side and have your only fans to maintain this fake instagram lifestyle between your roles that you get by blowing some old dude you're, not be, and this is what actually going on and then you're gonna go March in the pussy March, with the pussy hat and be like me to know stop it. I just to stop lying stop it, if your talents and enough you will make it if the gatekeepers won't. Let you through make your own gate leg. this isn't a reality, because I I came from nothing in my dad. Was a baker and lost his bakery Eno. It's a typical story. and I was just talk- by him. You can do anything, you do anything. So I did- and I found Myself-

this place and unlike This place is also my way and I think most people probably won't get to visit Billig. This places dope walk any get that, like Disneyland, feel like Yahoo. Someone built S. Yes, it's kind of my chocolate factory, but this is my Arafat issues. It is but when I was at fox and CNN One to the other. I realise there is a gatekeeper. You can only go so far and particular only the President of the United States, if you're, not o, k aid by the big circle of people. Yet that are at the very top level, you can't go anywhere yet The only reason why Donald Trump could break that is because a he knew that circle inside now and

He also knew exactly how to talk to the people who have the power to help break that circle com, but now he's out yet personal. what what what happened there. He is he's swamped too much like you said. To my shit. There like we can handle the truth. That's coming up. Guy swear. Everything comes back to truth, so the last year's. Think of all the truth. That's all bubbling up from the Epstein too, that even the meeting in the Hollywood staff to you that you know the child pedophilia all this stuff that came up there. You know the hunter bite and all these things and that side is just that to me. Left right now is like an aspect that who has a family intervention and their denying that they have a problem there, sick there all sick.

And I think they're bad people, but I think their morals are ill and their sick and I think they think were sick, but I know- I maintain that there are those who, blacklist, isn't good enough. Young you'll never work. You should be a part of society. We may see we may have to re educate you. Oh now, Hitler yeah good luck eyes. But to me it's just like like an alcoholic or a drug addict. Just like I don't have a problem, I'm having fun your life sucks. I marry and every night banging a different chick and it's like really. Because I can see in your eyes are not happy, and I know that people in Hollywood another people in LA I know, people that are very high up in all those circles. They are depressed. Human beings there families are majority shambles and they just that photo for people magazine anime back to you. Actual vagueness, because nothing's real yeah, it's not real, telling

back to real, and I don't get me wrong. There's been those conservatives, I'm sure a foolish it do you. I feel there is a base line of values that I see more on the conservative side that had just there are no values over their other, then as to El Djibouti, which I'm down with, of course dog- and you know everyone should be nice equally to people. That's three people, now, that's the foundation, that's the foundation just live, the the mission statement in the declaration of independence just be that person pretty easy to everybody is equal. They're all created equals what you do with them out, but thank God I care about your business. I don't care if you the church what church you go to, I don't care. But you do just peak. all this comes as no gladness. It's me me me me me, society goin on specifically icy on this side, where it's you to care who I sleep with you, how

to care. What I want to call myself, you have to care about these made up words and you better call me them are you're a bad person like have to care about. You have to love you as a human being. I have to care you dig in, I don't like here with their sex is argue raised. I don't I don't care, I care that your government a thriving dope, that's it! they lose it when you won't play these stupid games when it's just rooted in ego is as its control. You want to control me and make you call me they that's poor English. I won't. Let me read: God yeah real good. I just this is what I see in this is right, and if people during Peters enter Mikhail Peters and his daughters, randomized dope hours like no we're not flying stupid, and this is eager based any need to go back to your meditation class and start releasing some of that because, We're wasting our lives They know. I know you know a bit my back story, but as someone who has been in hard situations we

make our lives harder, we're making. Fights that don't go anywhere. I want you Baxter sooner or later, but I we still have a sixteen year old son. Don't ever have one ok, a cinema around set him away around twelve million back. Maybe we're on twenty two may the actual it'll work out, but I keep saying too What are you doing? What are you crazy? It stop Life is not supposed to be this art. Every body makes it so hard to preserve, has therefore just on. yeah and my feelings, and what I feel instead just feeling dude I said to my kids when they were when they were really young, but we use,

have chair and it had all the virtues on the back of each chair and whenever she, whatever virtue you needed, bears in that nature and the one that my kids hated was endurance, oh and I said they said TAT Durance. It sounds bad. I said most, of life you just have to enter yes, he's just sail just endure it yeah. They all said I was wrong until they started getting into their twenties and thirty, and then there, like. Oh, gosh it is energy. just grab onto that one you're cool yeah

it's gonna turn around. I say to people who are suicidal. I say this to people who may be being cancelled and they come to me and be like what do I do have shed its a bit claim today. I endured that is doing pretty. Well, I want to give that kind of. Yes, I had the bad Bitcoin days there remember last and was at last year that, like fellers two years ago, yet that I was having a great day and then I had a real battling long time. I'm sorry, I don't matter like you hear a guy, you dropped your blanket guided again so well. Let me ask, because you mentioned Jordan Petersen: yes, they. How is it with the Canadians? I mean you are how to freedom? I mean not as a country yet but is in. Visuals you, Keyser their several Canadians that are come: a dongle don't you know what we grew up, making fun of ourselves. We don't

it's a different sense of humour that we grow up with and we know people can say whatever they want. Wanna racism in Canada. It is not the same as America stop trying to put our diet soda in the in the soda category. It's not the same we derive Canada is not the same as America, no absolutely not because it means we don't like I've. Had it american friends be like I experienced these hate crimes. I experienced this in that, Canadians are not bread to act like that there might be off. Color jokes have definitely are two long years of my life, but I remember blondes, so don't feel, and I've never seen and I speak with there are people of every color who are my friends in Canada. They haven't really experienced like hard core races. Unlike you can't have this job because of this color, you know like I do not see anybody who is thirty. Has that there's a big population in America that has had the yeah you talk about the sixty people are like so bad now really

Reed. Martin Luther king yeah, I've read up from slavery like the highest paid athletes. Entrepreneurs etc. naturally as only large black people on those lists, yeah you're doing. Ok and the thing is, I don't subjects you I'll get back to the canadian thing. The earnings of excuses are done for a blue collar family. I could think I could swim, that's it and you pick you pick one you're gonna do and then you go for it there You know Eminem came from african trailer park, and he went through. You know he experienced racism by the way opera wind free phone? I mean we have you not win win, win Biden gave his except in speech. And a comma gave hers before him. I'm watching she's, like person like me be the viability. Ireland and I was- and I was, like I haven T

a marxist yeah. That is remarkable and realising when I guess she, our color it doesn't matter it does. It doesn't matter who try to pretend it matters as if they but you didn't achieve anything as were the first woman, the first, whatever I might call now it like you, have to be good. You have to good at your job. Our respect that that's cool but and it doesn't matter what people find me to all female comedy shows I'm just like those coming back, Really really does not mean that show, for we all do that, like no habits put me in a funny show and I'll do that. It's good dub, but it's the girls, the girl power thing unlike no, this is the opposite of girl power. This is creating our own little bubble of shit and they don't have to be good. You just have to have boobs, that's not a talent. We were born like that. Some people bought them la I just went off on a tangent,

but Canadians needs we need to act right because our freedoms are being taken away from us and we're whining too much, we are so lucky and so hashtag blessed origin. Turning into? Why you little babies, who pretend we have issues, because we have nothing else to do, because everything is perfect. Those relationships were like. Usually some woman, I'll, be honest. Creed, problems because things are to chill and that to me right! Now things are good. We have, I think immigration issues a couple. Environmental things by other net were goods, America There are things theirs. Oh time in human history. If you were to ask anyone. seriously think this through. Yet where would you want to live and work time, would you and to live in writing. That here right now, Glenn Back studio cry about little cold in here by law, but

but there is no other answer. You want to be born in the west in Russia and Canada. You'd want to be born at this time, yeah and yet nothing's good enough. You little birches you selfish little brass. That's how I feel you, people have an experienced real pain plain about these little things. You didn't call me the right title that I mean up yesterday, shot up like I have had real pain when changes don't worry about it. I went to Mexico with my wife. About two years ago, and I was down there work as I'm involved in a couple of slave rescue operations. and so we had just rescued, three women, from slate like actual chain around the neck slavery

this woman, is she ever seen that picture of that black slaves from like the eighteen fifties? Any scarcely like this will all scars on his back, and she was like that oh, my god, they would burn her with irons, they would whipper. I mean who is bad and you'd used see the marks on her neck words. The chain- was and so she had been released. We had given her. European everything else, and she just gone over to the vatican- to speed up some amazing woman and I'm with and I said We were doing a campaign for anti slavery, and I said I you to pull up these paper. I should say your name and say: I'm so and so and I was a slave, but only I can my story and it's a blank page

And she says right enchant she looked me. She said I won't do that and I said why because I was never a slave yeah I got on the plane, I flew home, it was the weak and they first started tearing down the statues in a bunch of white people talking about how they just it was just oppressing them, and I thought oh, my gosh, I'm going take all of you and take you across the border and show you what really depression is and what real euros or lie. Yet yet one hundred percent that that woman is awesome. She's awesome, you decide if you're oppressed, you decide I'm going to AMOS. I dont care like you can decide to get better. You can decide to leave and abusive relationship. You can decide to work, you can decide to get up. You can decide that you're not oppressed. These are decisions and you're gonna have a shitty life. If you wake up every day, thinking everything is wrong and everyone did it to you. So accountability, take ownership,

there's not a chain around your neck. You can get up and people put genes on their own next and then yell, but our own people. Reserve. We want responsibility now I so much easier to blame everybody else for everything, but no reward. You have to decide what life you want, because I'm christian and Maybe we come back who knows but let us It is done. What is done is better life complaining and Reno firing off your mouth. People were actually doing the things you wish. You could do that in doing it, thus I design you're wasting your life, we don't t, know, can we talk about religion here for second, because another one of your just racist anti religious worry Anthea said. terrible things about Mormons Mormons or now you get it, and it was watching you and I thought

how refreshing, but will. I bet you very misunderstood from Christians, because I take on my own faith and I'm willing to take on other people's faiths as well as this one. point, which you made guys We have so much in common what the hell? Are we arguing about I don't care what you believe you shouldn't here what I believe I mean Pendule at yells at me, because you ve never tried to save my soul and I'm like cause. I know you. Out of me. I am, but I know you, you already read the Bible. You ve done earlier to you're, not so put but why are we boxing ourselves to these, corners where all the things that we need. We already have. We have. We have mom This is this is modern. Slavery is

thinking that you never have enough, which is a lie. That was your not good enough and you never have enough, and this is a lie that was sold to us. by Hollywood by you know different companies that make products by everyone who wants you to shrink, not just as a human, but your spirit. If you are a week, if you you're, not good enough. If you're on drugs, your easy to control- and it's a lie and if the one I can make people know in my life other than go team and, like you can chew off too and through anything, is that actually can't hear yourself to end through any there at any time, you're good at any birthdays. He was the brutalizing guy who created modern advertising. It was used when I arrived at. The idea is to propaganda. Usury him cause the eat. What you just said about all the We will try to sell us, yet he he talks about. We have to create the need, because Americans would

Lee by what they needed yes, and not necessarily what they wanted, but what they needed She needed to create the need of want yet and now, That's the only way somebody can sell you something yet mean, even God, you're not interested and tell your at your very bottom it going grade. Why don't you What has got a funny? Imagine godlike sittin in the car, as I am an injured Levin here, the whole time and Andrea play out here. Ok, so eat you Have you always been a God person? I will like the private coffee schools, all life from able to an end studied world religion in call as like my secondary topic, I took comedy performance in writing and then world religions, because I just I just

as you know, and thanks and that's when I notice, like hey, that's pretty or seem story with couple rebukes leg, it's like. If we gave a bunch of wrappers the same be made is put, a couple differ verses on it. You can actually just put it together, mega ones. Long, but again, very releases aims it that's what I saw. So I went. Why are we fighting there's a couple things in different religions ran like hey, that's probably not nice. You know I dont think God wants to hurt anybody and I dont believe that so it up God wants women to feel this way. If they have done this, I don't think you know We call this. The shame. Killings are what why I came over the honour killing, honour killings on my that's probably a witty saves. Definitely naturally, not I'm like yeah. That was someone who got the island by a woman put the remix in a book and that's how I feel about it. But the rest of the religions, I'm just like give us makes sense and got away from it for years, and then

sure came back to when I was disabled. And I found it and I didn't like go- and this is a weird story- method go you're, not thinking of I think it was new year's eve. Two years ago I ruins it Skirts party go into the car do another big things and I went to church, but must free on New year's Eve, and I just have this feeling and as I I need prepare myself. I don't need to be thankful for what's happened and how to prepare myself what's to come because I it's coming and Gonna keep building in building and building, and I just need to be around something real right. Now not just like me. No surveys like enough yeah, nothing's, real. Now, actually, nothing Israel, so my hair is essential when you get when you When you made the video on religion, yes, I was so happy to see you took on you,

own, and it always goes into people immediately- put up shields. We're doing well what known Odessa? What about? What about those few automobiles, we could just car shields down, and be able to go. A lot of Christians have sought ya. Wanna Christians of sucked blotter Muslims have such a lot of atheists sucked. Yet you know people saw sock, sometimes and yeah in it's usually from a misunderstanding of whatever it is. They claim, followed by eager to back up. No, I was right. We were right, blinds of aid and its it's it's it's. What I think we're suffering from now, would you call liberalism or this progress this? I don't even know what it is anymore, this Marxism,

yeah. It is it's a new religion, its toxic and it there's up side to it ever there's, no one whose fully indoctrinated in it. who is living a happy life. I dont see it and I want the best for them it's gonna start with them? We now first up- is realizing you problem right until they realize they have a problem and admit there not happy. I can't help it. yeah, but I can, you know, keep putting its own videos and all these things into the ether and hopefully it'll spin into their minds at like yeah, I don't need forty outfits this month, so the different effort every day on Instagram, maybe that shit that I'm watching on Instagram isn't happy, that's always taking photos all day every day, she's not outside Europe. Now she's, not maybe this instagram couple, thus prank each other, that's actually pretty disrespectful and their relationships falling apart. It's it's come, and I know that people see it bit by bit because in

gonna kill themselves which it we're seeing the uptake and suicide is insane. This year is insane they're going to be so heavily medicated bed there, living in up anyway? or they're, gonna change, because they're happy so pretty during my family is the number one priority and I got news for you in my house my pretty much a butcher knife. If I have to you're not coming near my family, However, there are those people are like. I don't wanna, kill people or I don't want to get hurt myself. Ok, those people including me and my wife, should look into taser taser is A really good legal, non lethal self too hence it is a pity device small lightweight enough to carry with you, you're glove compartment or your purse.

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I've got a new outfit and that a new, so you You tell me about car crash, first as getting out of a taxi and as half way out and we got rear, ended and my head, the inside of the door frame three times because Spain was twisted. My own cigars, you getting out we're out, You might find guided into the nerves down my back so like injured myself internally. My aside joint, which is correct. HEP. They went and is completely at aligning. Crazy TMJ, a bad had injury and the TMJ Gus all of the injuries I had at the moment, didn't seem that bad, because there is no blood. There was nobody spilling. But they are all degenerative and they all got progressively worse as timeline through that

TMJ got so bad that you had actually spit your pieces of your own teeth out in the morning. Yes, Pretty is not beautiful, that's really an so for a girl who is like brought up. most women is like an ob cute, be pretty amateur, be hot! Make people like you, whatever to suddenly be waking up. Not able to take myself to the, though the washroom I can't go by myself and I'm spitting out. My teeth is like oh, I'm getting a sign. This is I was very like that. Almost a decade, and years of your life gone the seven seven years is like the strongest of it, and then I saw When my video started going viral and twenty fifteen, I was still in bed and are still in disability. Now I got self off disability couple months before, but I still in bed most days and I still couldn't walk most days, and I could do a little bit and I'd be in bed for two weeks and like. I still have these moments when I'm like out in the world, and, unlike

the World Bank I forget, I forget what life is like sometimes is so weird, because your naturally a bubbly person yeah and that had to be massively depressing. Oh, my god, Was the dark part of this like suicidal. It was when the doctors. I saw the looks on their faces like a good to Heaven Serapis. I do other things it's when Their faces changed and there are like this. You're gonna get better. So you gotta come up with a different plan for your life, because you're gonna be on disability, for life which is really hard in Canada to get approved, for it takes a long time to even get on disability, let alone have em stamp. It is forever and they really everything's degenerative. It's gonna get worse. Now, just like ok does it does. Is it

My credit is completely gone and killed. I have no money, I'm in crazy debt from paying for all these medical treatments up front that you know it doesn't cover and just I'm not going to be of any value to anybody. Oh my god, I'm just gonna depress everybody. Let em around. I suggest you have a boyfriend or a love of your life at the time I did, who will one when it happened as telling my current boyfriend the other day about the story, because I d, blame him for leaving me and he laughed one day never came back. do you saving didn't say anything? He told me like a when he was gone just going on a trip Annie, like you, know he tax to like it. I can't do this. This is too hard whatever, but I don't blame him. It is awful to look at. It was awful to live with me. I was shaking like I'd, Parkinson's and, like you didn't sign up for that. So it was awful and then I ended up having another boyfriend in the middle of it. He was just- sweetest, human being like When you think of like a human puppy,

and ass this, but it is always happy or tails. Always wagon, ok, forget what happened was lose you go well, you dumped him kinds. I know she wasn t for me, but I got Iver KIDS book that I wrote in its put his name as the title of it, because I owe him so much. I think I'd like God make people like this year- stats also yeah yeah, so Those are so what happened? so you walking round, as a grocer are gonna, go back to God, but when I did have like I call my darkest nay arose like ok. Here's Many commit suicide, with police, painful to my family and Like grand plan, I made a plan it took let's make a plan, but I like how do I make this plan as like? What do I have a value whom are going to give it to

I wanted. You know one of my friends to get on my comedy writing books and just light just make something with us in our day. Take it. I can have a just make it please and then, it's so we're. I tell people as well as I am I heard this Denzil Washington Voice in the back of my head view. Stupid. It's not gonna. Give up, isn't Armageddon like remember the titans shit. No, it's time to give up its time to get up. I took the little bit of money I had, and I would like nothing and I went to indigo issues like our our bookstore, and I bought Louise Hey Book, you can heal your life. I buy another self help, but I've never even been that section. I never walked in US action, something I'd like. Let it take me wherever I was gonna go like I'm supposed to be here and following along whenever I bought no candle cells. I gotta make me feel nice and I went home and I started listening to the books and,

got him on tape, reading them and then I to plan and I was like no negativity none on cutting it all out the way like I love watching CS, I am watching you know the walking dead and, unlike I feel, aggravated and upset After this I'm watching people suffering this problem, not good, even charmed, you know, like other views on these, I'm not gonna know I cut out all the negativity all of it. Opt watching aiding that was negative, asserted o dealing on sermons men positive staff and, like Joel Augustine, became a bureau Anti Jake's and whom I those things you all the time. Why can't I think of her name? I had injuries, I'm gonna like I'm gonna like isn't I've. I guess because she's, like she's, my fave and I listened every frickin day, deterred

the female pastor you are until we it up. You are totally not the stereotypical Christian. I now I think that's Ray seemed all Joyce Meyer, very second yeah and then I started like even Just positivity motivation, Oprah! Listen to like it here. Guess. I'm just learn to do all these things and I just made my plan and unlike listen, you're, going to get better peer. It you're good. hard days times are not here to stay there here to pass? I stuck sticky notes. All over my entire house, I looked like a psycho people thought I was nuts and it says you look better. Every day you you're gaining way again. Annex I got so skinny because I couldn't eat Your career is going well. You have a hundred thousand dollars in the bank. Your debt free here, you're walking your pain free. I put them in the fridge like us

open the fridge about that. I closed the fridge and I taught myself how to cheer again and I gave a talk on this before just was like an impromptu, I rose like I had to go. Ok com, actress any mark as a kid acts, you're, not a dancer anymore because you can't dance you're, not the committee only Mark, as you can't go, do that you kissed him. I couldn't stand up. I've made the joke as I understand it, because I was the one thing I actually still am haven't cheerleader you can't take that away from me, let's That's who I am, and it's not the tumbling, it's not the the palms is not any of that. It's like that is my spirit. I became a cheerleader because I already was that person and it was just fine. I got to do with other people now lake. So when I remembered that's me I have to do is start cheering and eventually the roads. Immature with me- and I just did

and I got nerve, lock injections, which I would not wish on anybody, it's very painful, but I would go in there and the staff as they go team, and I would I guess it's very painful procedures in these special clinics that go to everyone in theirs in rough shape and the Doktor said to me: he's like you're. The only person in here that's gonna, get better in that room you say you're, the only one who believes you are and he's like die changes, everything everything you're right. I will then and entering the ones. To this change change I think, it's a long story, but I remember I started doing the same thing you did and and first it felt ridiculous because, unlike but I'm not you're still argue we ate them. You know the multi voices in your head and you just have to get rid of that old tape, and it feels weird at first to say: I'm successful only. I am happy. I am this when you're not yet, but

I don't even know what it is, but there is it's a tipping point, when that is the tape? Much more than the negative. Your life changes it it. As- and I remember the moment that I made a promise to god- and I said You let me come back, I MR bring as many people with me as I can, and then my stuff started, going just started going, and I remember writing a hundred thousand on my mere in my bathroom. I want a hundred thousand dollars and a hundred thousand dollars and then hit them almost on the same day like war boat engines number, and couple years ago when I was a hosting an event. I heard that little whisper, a heavy like our a time for you that bring people Well yeah, so I told my story onstage, even though I was scared and no one you at the time and you that had happened, and then and still do it. You just fell off the face of the earth yeah? I thought face the earthen

I'd agent telling me to hide it no one's ever going to want to hire you I doing like nothing. I want to date a disabled girl like almost a merry of the disabled girl, like you're done and then to do a lot of work and like get that shit off me and realise that its ship people put on me. Even that's a cancel culture. Does they play shame and shit on you all you gotta do is go. That's not my shit takers, large back, I'm good, I'm also I'm intelligent. I have good ideas and then scary back them. Nega letters she's, so amazing to me that after this package on ticket next door to Revolves every cited, my wife, my life, just looked is but a month coaches like what the hell are. We gonna do with that. I just bought Conklin, Roosevelt's wheelchair.

And she said you are not bring that into the house, and we have no place for anymore this stuff, like I know it's gonna, be in the museum, museum, horrider discharge, admission, Org order, but I gets an important peace because he He declared. That no one would- look up to a man in a wheelchair. What I, is his strongest point. the recent, really cool the only reason I like hefty arc as he was such a big government guy, yet is he would not take no for an answer. Yeah! You know personally, he couldn't why he couldn't stand and yet he sure made it look like he could walk because he'd swing is hip, so hard his leg would come out and he would he would stand at the podium when he had no strength and his legs,

dad we're user is important. What you just said stand? at the podium. Even if there's no strengthen your legs dangling, everyone needs to do thou as gang serve moment. Bowers, don't doubt, leg bars, climb back and bars, yeah I like down or at that damn good I get. Why have we ll that's what he did yeah, because what we are the funny thing is like we will got to someone like that or have people say that we look up to your story Nicole, and am I give it you can do to it's not just behind its all of you. I have met. I say this to it's like a mind meld here. You could have been Vancouver of it into Hamilton? I weren't remember, ok! Well I getting not have an cash. What we were just talking about and I lost my though we are terrorist standing at the podium mine melt

can't think of any last design. I lost it. That's ok! You don't like Hamilton, I didn't like I wasn't impressed at all my friend has a choreographer fellas. Beside me he's like a very well known, choreographer. I was brought to create a direct unmusical so there go to Hamilton, as you say this is it wrapping. This is talking. fast, syncopation for old way People to think this is wrapping and cool I got my assaulted lot to take us back to me, it's lame and we're gonna beat it kindly request and you are if you're, watching this my eyes. I saw the surprising life of, with Copperfield or whatever its when movies first started coming out again, and I am a d hard Avid movie goer cool like the only movie theater and tore Lech Walesa, and it was

police really good, but the entire cast was over the top diverse so all of the Englishman who had power would be black or indian or whatever. Thought to myself How does this house is history, even understood and prevention even understood a generation from now because now I've seen the movie star error, the black and they didn't care and didn't map. I mean it. in saying it's insane concerned cannot eat you The next generation won't have any clue no because they never seen it now. They want it's really weird the testing. Sorry now EL. I also probably New York too. there's no rules for white people do anymore for a white girl with blood.

And blue eyes there, just nothing. I I got costumes often cuz. I work with brands and I help them. You don't get influencers and whatever and they'll, send me castings and I'll be like what we want: or latino or a diversity, and unlike don't you want the best person, you don't want best person. You just want the color of their skin oh yeah, you know because of black eyes, like, what's that mean Why not to me? What does what does that mean because of black lives matter? You can't hire a white present, even if the best for the job that stupid you sensitive. I don't think I wanna work with you yeah. My daughter has an agent and she said: I was on the phone, the agent she said, sweetheart I'm not gonna be a lot of cautious to commit as a lesbian or something now for domain of secondary issues. Trans dan- We can say that if they dont give her the role that discrimination is gonna play the game back in us just its its remarkable, how the entire world, so

their against one thing, but they are doing the thing that thing: yeah I think the only thing we can do in the swirl of crazy is make jokes about it pointed and then create our own stuff that I'm very fix it. You know So! Are you worried it all about? I mean Facebook has platform. You know I'm a month in Manila when you did what was of the fat? Why? Oh, what it was a Youtube de platform to me right away? You dear fact you looking at I wasn't worried at all as like, because of blue much everytime I get cancelled. My shift was open to make more money. Whoops like it doesn't scare me. I think they don't it's true, I'm not scared of it and like the companies, I work with the brand's. I work at the fans, I have they don't care. you're. Just give me a bigger audience every time. Thanks losers and you know

Youtube is so interesting to me because they had wanted me to be a youtube riding, go to them and go on about Yahoo Toolbar. They came to me. One of users so we want you to do this and that gamma common economic. We already have a female comic. So, Why did you make up linked like I'm, not a cup artist, I'm a comedian and they like, However, we have this brown girl and she could check all the boxes limit. Lily saying and I just like you have it she's missing the main box funny for real, like I don't care how many list down and Isms she has a fellow. She is brown in a woman and she's gay and now she's, bisexual and she's from this family, and she can speak Hindi and what she, funny she there's. No, lines at the end Saturday night alive. it doesn't matter, and

our experience with the euro was, I was literally sitting on a panel. They had me damn. You speak on behalf of the many times on. Panels were big business conferences and I'd speak about. last one was women in Youtube and how its helping us in a break that wall and not have to go through the gatekeepers and Either we want women to express themselves and be they are as long as you don't say what the truth, Nicole. It s I'm like two days later, they're like Nicole. You can't do that and taking you down. So the men can say what they want, but I get because does Ricky raises made via jokes, and these black and Bill Maher too opposed so similar to dear fat people. My video that People on the internet made a remix of it. lay showing like oh there there's my line. This headline does my line this his line. And nothing avenue their deep for him. You know, it's not because he's a man, that's lira. Yeah yeah

Is at the time, though, no one thought that I wasn't illiberal really yeah. When did you just let it I'll hang out rape for this election through a magnet couple days before people, craze yeah, it was great. But I was like I was expecting firestorm and it was round of applause, because Why did it and I was like- No, I'm against racism. So you telling black people who they have to vote for that racism. So I've been against that I've spent on my list and am I this is what I believe in this first try and make history go the right way. because down is just such a glorious, wrecking ball reality in choice. Shust. I think I think he's I said to a friend the election. I said the american people are going to weep. So,

day at what they have just done yet and the second thing is: some day. I hope they realize. He was the most fun yeah and the funniest president. We ve ever had yes he is america- has a shawl over the phone yeah he to me. He exemplifies using that makes America fun like there's a bit. There's that ego in a fun way mixed in with the forgotten our America Pupa appear. If that's what you guys, look like the rest, the world right, so I thought I thought it was a good time. I just I loved him and the one you realize. Oh he's he's yeah. I change you can enjoy yeah. You can really enjoy it. It's funny watch him trigger people and they take the big every time at how how how do you do

the bait the tenth time, thirty s time. We're gonna, make whole groups of people just to take his bait all day and like Inga, DOM you dont know you're. No, that's guys you're done Megan mad. You talked about Saturday Night LIVE A. I want him for our go ahead. I Couple friends on that show who are very talented, comics, They are not allowed to be talented comics on that show their views, that they make on their instagram solves, are better their funny, their edgy either there just We think that we like from ass an AL. I go back to Eric Clapton. When did the rock and roll attitude, meaning hum and Murray. When did these read this comedians yeah?

that's: the genre tends to mean anything guys are in with the man and you're just taken. Your scripts from the man knew not a comic opera more and is not brave its passionately. Noun letting Bruce would just beat this not out of I'd love to the lake PETE David said. I thought it was great cheered forum for years, like, like, I know, is back storing all that kind of stuff and when he took a swing dank franchise like those do she, but are you guys fixed at whatever, but then thing with the small businesses I'm just like now, you need to shut the fuck up like stop it. You had a smile on your face, while you're punching down for people who can't feed

families design are registered EU psychopath. Not u him! I don't know you. I've been called vehicles that world, however, is this, like you guys are jerks. Now you just jerks and your jokes aren't funding and he's sketch. Can you tell me one sketch that actually gone viral? Not just I'm paying for pr? add by buying a sketch from last five years other. The old cast coming back to play, characters during the elections there. still relying on the old cast, because they but the new ones do their jobs and its socks Think comedy died in Obama, when they would not find. anything funny about have the funds, an oppressive we're, not one thing funny- Einstein, Barack Obama,

let me let me give you two other words I the view I said the other day that they remind me of all the evil villains from Disney Movie, starting on one panel, like all the ones you hate, the young, pretty right, princesses remain get our own whatever, like Frickin Ursula's over there. You see it now, don't you know our Ursula Why are they on tv they're just decades and they're, not that smart and their ideas are good in there just met all the time I go. I have your period somewhere else. This is their like that all the time you know how I was on the view once she was on leave ably nasty on and off the air and who knew He was a comedian, I guess, and the cat skills years ago. I don't

I cannot imagine her funny now she's, so mean and nasty angry vainly hunger, every law and I gotta say you know. Maybe there's some cross over here. Women who said at home and wash that show Just as we know what we eat like the food that we eat, you eat garbage you're, going to gain weight, you're going to feel so you're not going to be no your best in your bikini in the summer, You listen to and what you watch is going to be your life. So if you watching their nasty drama every day. That's what you're feeding yourself it's gonna be. My great eastern line. That says that which gaze upon, you become I'm Colonel Sanders Let us, as Europeans in that area, that I totally clear in all sectors either

actually the glasses are there. For me. I was just in the vast earlier with this charter. Is a uranium have to wear my sweater and his shadow little chile and they were very nice to me on the view and the funny? Let's go ahead at good? Oh no! I wanted it. Ok, I was lied to go on the show. This said that I was going on to talk about women in comedy and have as a double standard. What's acceptable, and then out. I've told you all this before, but I was in my dressing have analysed by myself and embryo policies as whatever, as I all stop and undue view, quick and I'm in the dressing room, and I see my monitor, of a photo of me and the worst thought they could get. Like fat, shame arrayed across it, and I was like where the fuck is the volume and I go and find a converter, and I turned the volume and I can hear their pre role for what they're gonna say about me, and it was just,

finally, there is the better road, try and drag me across the calls, and they were doing because they made fun of nurses the day before and nurses hated them, and I had to get those women back somehow. So we need an enemy, and yeah. I was like okay well about to do to me. I'm to put on my skeleton dress because fuck them. So I address my suitcase that has skeleton on it and on my missile pass them off or if nice can make me laugh when they go crazy, I'm going to go com because all they want is for me to explode so that I can be a very great degree. I learn that earlier, the loud or someone else gets just our quiet. It drives them some re and the visual juxtaposition is Furthermore, I know the audience yeah and I got some big last from their audience and they censored it as if I were swearing which I didn't

and because I didn't want that, may not be enough to know that. I am a comic and I was out what these show that long before that half the audience walked, dogs are jokes were crap and there are so dirty interests. Talking about a policy like nobody wants to visualize that the act Half audience walked out honour and shouldn't get cancelled for it near she is sitting up there. Comics dont cancel other comics. You dont, like I'm Nelson Mandela, Mackay. If I'm not mistaken. For my if I'm not mistaken, didn't she stand up for a comic before they introduce to you. She was. I think so. Yeah and she said comedy should have no bounds and then he comes to you, I did what are you doing, we have a lot to me. Sheila comic anymore, so the main comic for a long time and which was in a comic book them. Ok,

really funny I mean the movies are fine but like yeah there is this. Is it was really disappointing to meet some people that I looked up to you over the last few years to realise their just? the just in the machine and that actually have any views or opinions or anything there just do and then there's during the day. S like these are just minstrel show with different people, yeah When I was on the view I was invited on because Would you do? Well, I I may have said some things about Barbara Walter Minos, sleeping upside down like a vampire and justice swoop out led out. No, that's not true. Here we don't knows yeah right but I was on a I was the train going to Washington DC from New York of living came in at the time and is train as like I had come on, come on. What are we going to leave and it was being held in? It was the help for like ten minutes or so and

I'm with a bunch of people, and I said: to the other gets they sit over there and me Lee Conductress unknown or no. does her reserved, and I said this isn't a reserve what you talking about ten minutes late, fine play Barber Walter's. Whoopi Goldberg run under the train, sit into those seats and the train takes off So I get on the air, and I said these four yeah first wall, you don't save seats. Well, the smile and it got to them and they were so pissed, so they had me on and for some other reason? Man? That's all I wanted to talk about Atlantic Catalonia pissed off people that worked for am track that the guy produced. Yes, I got a call from ABC television at this time they denied all of it. All of it and I'm like

who does this site jaws This bizarre they doesn't care. Now The rules are whatever benefits, I'm at any given moment at any. Given time. I remember sitting there were the Raven Simone beside me, her being like people know what's in food, and in my mind, unlike the cool stay calm, because I was about to go you dumb, bitch turn it over. You live in a mere idea ingredients or on the back. It shows you how much fat there is carbohydrates, everything you know your daily intake should be twenty five hundred dollars. A retrial is what this is simple shit like just stay calm to keep it shall because she won't even accept that shows what the answer she wants to speak with air. so. Where do we go from here? I want ask first, as a nation or as a culture game. What headed our way. Ok, I think the opposite.

Of war is in peace, its creation and I Take credit for that. That's from the veto, I'm from red, but that's the truth. So, You can't just keep fighting in their arena. Go build your drawn arenas, I'm sitting in your studio. You know think. That's where we have to go is just suffocate the air ETA, these stupid, People were running for the Washington Post for these other news browser, not journalists, anymore, their student bloggers. I always, I always say this click who wrote the article before you read it? If you are back them don't read their shared. It's not that Washington Post wrote it. It's like this loser wrote it needed to be content all dacres again made on their legs. So it's hashtag who wrote this and I guarantee most lumber dork that you wouldn't even respect if they walked in the room right now. So I think that's important only put in your mind.

Stuff from people that you actually respect or at least think they're smart. But I have to thank ok. Maybe we have different opinions, but you're a smart presents a commented that go away when did my best, friends are the ones who I have. clear fund, and told differences with We love each other I've makes it interesting, it dies or people that are always the same. Are so boring yeah, I'm not into that at all. I think it went away with, add revenue moving from Prince to online and then needing click bake constantly. So care about truth. They don't care about facts that on care about anything in the care of its salacious headline that will get clicks, that'll get them add revenue because they can make money on print so that to happen. This can change that costs. Money doesn't talk at screams trim, so we have to make more content in them. That's

seriously. What it is to me, I'm so happy with all the comments that are making videos shadow to the pandemic. Thanks for that, all the comments that you might not have seen their on in clubs there on tours that you would never go to cause, you don't know them yet there are forced to make videos now and unlike Gaza, that old and an it so now more people coming out coming out and the more we have to content them is what happens? That's it. I think we need to do and do. I think you know maybe civil war and all these other things are coming yeah and my hopeful that the right things gonna happen. Yes, I good, always wins. This is the way it goes. Satan knows Healing Asher like you, never win body. So I'm not that worried and all that to me all the snakes are showing themselves even of people who have supported the like: hey what the heck wait a minute, Chrissy Chicken, John Legend, why the fuck did you ever professional photographer to go to the hospital for your miscarriage? Why was

a person with you, when you knew you were having a miscarriage, not a delivery, that's creepy you're really to exploit that much of your life to get in a magazine again, the next day, that's twisted think enough. People saw that that was twisted. think all these people are just revealing themselves bit by bit. We just kind of got. You know, that's not an masher you're, not part of it. You're be events and remove yourself in its pre. It's it's. It's cool. When you realize the people who really change the world. didn't do anything special they just stood where they knew it was true and they were like. I'm not goin out with you guys, yeah I stand here because I know this is true. Yet that's all they did just Stanhope ago guys you're you're nuts.

It started work. I think that is also a good message for everybody, and especially young people like sounded older, who literally go try being Colonel Sanders, I wouldn't know what it's like? Maybe one guy: that's a good guy, Leggum Ivorian friendly. We a chicken and banners legacy of economic growth and that we are already giant, I just think young people, especially as leg and be careful God, your worshipping, you know tick tock, or is that its? Let s just porn she's in a bikini and she's talking and your seeing the parts? Gigolo? That's what you're following us just porn you're watching porn stars you're on only fans you're literally on porn sites. This is winning your brain, so. How are you because I have natures. Yes, how do you navigate that because you I don't?

Just poison is relations points of the and but it's part of the culture and cultural. It's going to be a part of our culture. Yet how do you have you separate that, especially when you're you know when you're in teenager you early twenties, and you don't really know you don't believe All that's. That's always been this way, yeah didn't effect. Anybody else is not going to affect me. I know the difference. Apparently, boy, oh well, I'll say for myself growing up like work at night clubs or bars or whatever, and between like the chilling staff and other things I was doing, and all the girls were tryin hook up with the managers or the owners? That's who had power to give you more shift, so they had money and then a cool car and whatever inherently new. am I doing that I will the only real here that doesn't do that.

and maybe I won't get as many shifts, but I just have a feeling is the right thing to do to your parents I think so I think my parents instilled by me playing spy words and dancing, and I was given love from actual achievements. Verses in our special oh thanks, I don't I don't get that it was, do do good things, and then you get rewarded so to me that that seem like a cheat code like I'm, going to sleep with someone and get something, and they can't take that away cuz I didn't actually earn it and because didn't do that? and I did that right across the board. Like I slept at anybody at a rule to get whatever I did, the opposite actually got fired a lock. I wouldn't do it if I what about the money I dropped, because I wouldn't do that. It's a lot, but I didn't a couple years ago I got a call from one of these club owners. Hey Nicole,

I'm actually is totally changed. Life runs like a part of this big event. I told him, I think you'd be the best host for it that during Toronto Film Festival night, I would- and I do that and that turns into meeting these, people and then they forced me to do that. Talk about my accident and They asked me to be in their film dreamer, dad we shot in January that one three enemies a couple days ago. It's that decision, because he doesn't like any those other women that are used to hook up with, but he was yeah, don't call solid and she does things, and this is happened right across my life so because I've planted these seeds of integrity everywhere, I'm seeing them pop up all over, and for younger people. it will seem like it's. The right thing to do right now to be talking- and you know, being your bikini do- is take dog dances. Guarantee the women who are getting famous for that now again, how really hard time in five years is. What's gonna happen

Even I had a hard time when I lost my body and my looks after the car accident. Just look at the trajectory of Brittany Spears all these women who came before doing this, it doesn't look good the Disney stars on a drug problems. Alcohol problems. By just morphia all these issues. It's like you can avoid it. You can avoid it and you too Like what my talents and if you're watching something is like what persons talent other than jiggling again and then giant and do that and your friends are gonna, be doing some different. But if you want a different life, we can have to make different decisions. I'm here to tell you: it pays off, it really pays off. You taken the long road yellow and we are a fast food society even faster. Now I mean we're pissed. If we plain: and were flying four hundred miles an hour yet Vienna

touching the edge of the sky and were not able to download our movie on our phone instantly. Yeah we're really pissed off our life. Softwares decks yeah yeah! We are the words I got myself ogling Nicole, come on. Let's give I get upset about something like that. I'm like I didn't have life on a flight is like Now I can't Nicole, come on come on. You can walk bitch you're on this first class play on your way to do something. Awesome, you're good here, it provides an opportunity to do something else: readable right, yeah but You don't you want to tie the sin to. you getting well and suicide. Yes I been suicidal in my life when I was young and wish. I could say I knew I was down the floor and I knew you're gonna get up. kill myself or I'm

get up and what did you say get up and is the time to give a sound and get up here yet I knew that moment. Yeah and it was so powerful and I wish I could say in the next morning I felt better training for a long time. I didn't feel better talk about Lee, talk about the sacrifice in the planting of seeds and somebody who's like I've, been doing the right thing. I mean it takes a long time. yup planting the right? That's what faith is you if you have faith, it there's no expiry date. It's. I have faith the end and I had bad days. There were I always said, like you know, I'll do something for one day I may have been both for two weeks and then I'd be in so much physical pain. I be shaking ivy, throwing up I'd, be whenever it is awful. Weblike

but I had that good day. I know I'm annoying to people sometimes because I'll always come in with a positive. Until I got the last one, a bitch sometimes and I'm like well, you can pick them still give you the solution. Cuz, that's what we should focus on and You should know you're going to have bad days. and then we're going to have a good one, and then you can have some more bad ones and then two good ones and you're going to give yourself something to look up to and set yourself goals. Little girls you're broke Let's get fifty bucks. How can you make? fifty bucks a now. How do we make seventy and then little increments going up and going up. That's why I was laughing and I made a bunch of money on Bitcoin and last week. I did really well in stocks and I'm like I taught myself how to do. Three weeks ago I was completely broken and crazy debt five years ago, does about long ago and as a guy made over a million on silly videos in you know

you can flip at around there's so many examples, and not just me, but you can do ever before in human history. Has it been there has been so many opportunities for anyone I bet you are the same. I have met so many million. time millionaires who are broke because they have everything they need yet. they just either won't do it or they just don't believe it yes Ah, Israel add they dump they deserve it. Does subconscious lake think that there's this fear of winning that someone People have it's not what if it goes wrong, it's like living. We deal deeply like what if it goes right, because the lot of people who are sick yet feel that way because it becomes who they are yet and they

I think that there is anything but that it sat is an identity that they know yet and water there isn't anything there or What? If I start to do this and then I lose that identity YAP people just don't want to risk that in it So right, Jack LISA got a risk for the biscuit link. How's that working out for you. You know what I mean to leave the doctor. Phil quote, and it's just true. It's like you're in this relationship and it's sitting it's whatever and you're, going to keep doing the same thing as well. How's that working out for you, ill and are not doing the steps you get yourself better, you're, the crappy job you're, not you kidding, can have a better one or whatever. Happy or not. No, ok, phase. It read it's it's! Actually that easy and I think we need to know boundaries for ourselves and be like. I will not accept any

than this? This is what I want for my life from our relationships from my faith. Whatever don't accept anything else, you'd have to work for it. Somebody will emerge, go for it millionaires billion is everywhere you're. So right Have you ever bunch of cheerleaders ever just wanted to beat the start out of you cause you just too happy all it. Now they keep up your people. Yeah cause. I mean like I like. What's her name, Genoa is a christian Genoa, Thea Oh yeah, yeah like her she's she's a scream. I think she would punch you in that I think very Poppins might punch you in the face, no more, happens is my hunger for sure yeah leg. I marry Poppins people all the time like I fly into their lives and make up and clean things up and unlike ok, bye and they float away yeah unless she saw me as competition Chris

their times that are their times when you are just. or have you erase those times now that of, being down. Angry Ben, it's doing lens. Virtually me, though, I have three times over time, but then I decide to have a good day. I will be in a moment, and I'm just so much better at catching myself now, like shity things will happen to you. Things happen all the time business deals that don't go the way you want to do relationships that You know what having a stupid fight with my boyfriend, that it's like why we don't need to fight over this like we're the team. Is that the rest of the problem? Let's fix this like It happens all the time. It's just I decide to have a good day, not ending the day. I wake up happy every day Gonna have a good day the end. Last question before we in it. Yes, where you in five years

I am busy, no thanks. I like loudly tat, an entertainment empire. I have videos, not videos, I've films? I have books. I have tv, scripts. I have proof and I have things that to me out- is to make the whole world cheer the end. You know I'm gonna be married? I will have at least one kid by then and I'd your husband. Like he's awesome he is my mind, and I mean that He has his own thoughts and opinions. He's talented he's kind. He's faith based he's been through his own shit, so I don't seem like some alien. When I talk about mine, you know that between right and wrong: good values and a team player like rebuilding the team. You marry a man, a man, I'm an alpha male yeah good. Well, I can't

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