Year listening to the gold digger podcast episode number two hundred and thirty, three This show is a pretty vulnerable and people like I want a preface this whole thing, and you say I I'm so so grateful for every ounce of success. That has come my way and then I'm going to show up today super honest about how my life has changed a lot since I left the core her world and started my own business back in two thousand twelve now at times I get asked about this and I think it's worth devoting a full episodes. You that's honest in true about my personal experience of growth, the large brand building multi million dollar company and how its changed things for me, specifically how its affected relationships so Buckler get ready. Sprinkle some grace over everything, I'm about to say Then I'm showing up to tackle something that I have been personally struggling with in hopes that it will help you to understand what success can look like. Sometimes behind the scenes

before he died on in. I want to share the review of today. It is from each r r, o J R. Its titled all day every day thing China has so many episodes, because I've quite literally listen to our podcast all day every day at work since discovering at her free tools and massive amount of knowledge at her guests have shared are just beyond anything. You could ask for when it comes to topics on being an entrepreneur or business owner, even if the topic doesn't specifically apply to my situation, I always in the podcast learning something new that does thank you so much Jennifer sharing your talents with the world of your tuning in today show I want you to know I'm going out on a limb for you, and so would you take a screenshot posted up to insecure? Take me in it. Cheer me on cause. This line is about to get real. Are you guys ready? Let's do this

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sponsored by the March of dimes, learn more at March of Dimes COM, such gold digger. Thanks to your backing for supporting gold, digger trip actions words, travellers for saving their company money There reward you for checking them out good at actions, dot com, slash, gold, digger, comply two thirty minute demo with a trip actions account executive and get twenty percent off booking fees in two thousand nineteen. I recently did a show about the difference between extroverts, an introverted in case you missed episode number to twenty five. I have to say, is a really good one in a shared a lot about my introverted personality and how I wasn't always like that foreign share about how my relationships have changed. I think it's fair to paint a picture of the Jenna from then to the agenda of now, and then we can talk through all the changes call. So growing up. I was a total social butterfly like I was a kid that

smiled at everyone. Talk to anyone made friends with any human. Who would give me the time of day and I remember, being a kindergartner in getting invited to sit with some of the third graters, because I was a like outgoing and talkative one girl. I loved people, and that followed me into high school in my college life- and I was had many different groups of friends I had worked. Friends and sports friends and school friends and church friends. One year I went to three different schools problems because I was indifferent run groups and I didn't just have one little social circle like when I think back to that. I was busy I was so busy running around and having all of these friends now looking back now, I think it's, some of the way that I was stemmed from insecurity and is something that I don't think I could have seen manner or would have ever admitted to but I love to being known. Like I love being affirmed, I knew

did you know that I was wanted and desired, and while I had a ton of friends, I didn't really have allotted depth within friendships. All of that social floating around was honestly kind of exhausting I've always had confidence sure. But I also had this desire to just be affirmed and to know now what I know and looking back, I think I was kind of searching in China you find my identity, and though I was probably just more of a social person and loved being out about with people. I think that a lot of the changes that have happened have happened due to growth Now, in being outgoing, there are some things that, like I can't deny I've, never dratted public speaking, I love being on stage. I love being in front of people. I've always loved working group,

and I was I was a leader. I was always a team player, I loved, being a part of something bigger than myself, and there are so many aspects to me that scream extrovert, but within the last few years I have definitely shifted in big ways, and I don't think that's. Size is solely to blame. Now I'll back, I interviewed my mom on the pod Gaston Episode number one hundred and eighty six, it's one of my favorite shows an one of this sad things that came up during the interview happened when I my mom how all of this, the pod gas, the success, the business, how all of it had changed me She basically call me a hermit which is kind of funny cause. I call myself a hermit, but she also expressed concern over the fact that I don't really get out of the house much and I love being alone, and I love what I do- and I am so content just being alone, and I think it's easy. If you ve,

known me like a really known me intimately to see the change is the most but further majority that people like you, probably have no idea, What you know of me is what you ve seen of me on line and, if you haven't know me frivolous, I like ten years, you really wouldn't have a ruler to judge the change off of now I I feel, like a lot of things, change for me back in corporate Amerika, not just in entrepreneurship. We lived in this tiny. Village. So when I first worked with target, they place me in a district, and I got like the furthest outlying store that I had to work and so I lived in Madison was, concern, but I was commuting about fifty to sixty minutes a day each way and so about halfway. Through that year I had a two year: contract about store, drew nigh, I D moved this little village and it was only about twelve hundred irish people and

drew and I were newlyweds we're living together for the first time in our suddenly working about fifty to sixty hours week. We basically kind of transplanted ourselves to this. Place where we had no roots like we didn't know us all here in this season of just being so excited to finally live together and be together that we didn't really pursue friendships and, unlike high school or college, we didn't these building networks by means of what major you chose the dorm. You lived in our sports, who are active in ends. For me, it making friends suddenly started to feel like online dating like have you ever felt like I've a blind date. It's awkward. It takes a lot of effort and your you're, never really sure what the other person is thinking or if this is actually worth it. I remember when we moved into our little condo thinking about like who our neighbour

we're in seven. They were all like our parents, age, we hand you just laughed is really where the youngest kids on the block, but at the same time, do I, the back and I was so excited, further seizing his I just felt like drew nigh, could just invest in each other like starter lives, together and figure out what we wanted, but I do things our mind. When this star of me pulling back from relationships in a big way now I worked in the corporate world for target, I works every other weekend. I was alternating days and nights, so I didn't really get out too much and, to be honest, the end of a long day. All I wanted to do was to not be your own people, since I had spent an intact your day leading a team. I absolutely allow, may coworkers still think about my team members, so often loved being from daily, but that totally fulfilled and Capps. My quota of people for the day

We struggle divine a new community where we lived. We tried out a few churches, nothing while I write fit and it really. Was it until I joined across spit jam that we made any friends at all. Like any friends, we have no friends, now. I remember the first time a new cross. It friends invited us to the local pub to play poker in error. We're telling drew is like a random weak die and I my baby put some pants on someone invited us to do something we have to go do and I don't even play poker. So I was just excite. That's me invited us to do something. It turned out that, though was friends, became our closest friends over the years and they made a moving home, diminish soda really hard because they had become our family like we celebrated holidays and birthdays with them, They always me when my business was still just a small town, wedding, photography, business before Everything blew up, all the growth happen and they were with me through it all, and these are like some

I closest friends ever and so leaving them was so hard because to be honest, envisioned having kids and like having these friends close and just kind of doing it with them, and they really really just embrace ice in a way that we didn't expect, which was such a blessing. No, I don't. I'm super asked me like What has becoming successful costume and honestly? I love this question because it tells me that people realise that even the best things good things come cost, and it's easy to see all of the big stuff, but to forget about that human life behind the accolades and the numbers in the Instagram feed and so beforehand,

This question I want to ask you a question, because I think it's really important to address this first together is. Are you afraid of success like I was recently at a conference? I was a keynote speaker is in a room of hundreds of women and it asks a question here. Who is afraid of actually making it of big coming someone a fine, success. Legal, a lot of times. We believe that our fears is that were afraid. That will never be successful, but the truth is, we are way more afraid of becoming someone. Because we now, at the end of the day when we become someone we open ourselves up to criticism, we open ourselves up to judgment. We open ourselves up to be ridiculed unseen. We open ourselves up to become a bigger failure

not just a bigger success, and, to be honest, I wasn't shocked when almost half of the room hands went up. These women admitted this struggle of wanting success. Ultimately fearing it like new, relate to this, I think of our honest. A lot of us feel them way like what would happen if I really did make it could. Handle all the things that would come with it. Am I ready to sack nice things just to be successful. Be honest, I think the fear of becoming a success can be as strong as the fear of being a failure, and so back to the question my favorite one of em What has becoming successful costs me? Well, it's honestly costs me purse only alive and if I'm being super frank, I've been doing a ton of inner work to figure out how got to where I am today and how I can make sure that it's always worth said this.

Morning drew and I woke up together and we were just lying in bed together talking in a sad honestly, do you realize how lucky we are? Do you realize that I would not trade places if any person I know we say there we thought about some of the most successful people. We knew- and I said I wouldn't trade pieces of any of them like they don't have balance. Are there on the road, all the timer, their hustling day and night, like We have this ability to spend, weakens our home and our swiping Anson. We have the accessibility to reach people with me, Four messages like I would not change anything, I'm so so thing for once I don't want this episode get twisted and I don't want you to think. Oh, my gosh, woe is China she has all this success in years? He is complaining because that's not what this shows about, but I do want to paint a picture, because I think it is so important that you really

is that those measures that you're looking up with that girl with a half a million followers that that person he's doing million dollar launches the that person is a person. In that way, whenever there is success, looks like it's likely cost them something now forming a highly extroverted person who love to be out in seen and known to someone who struggles to want to leave the house. This is the truth. I become a purse and who has a really hard time, trusting people, because so much as ass of myself daily. I am now woman who has very few friends by choice, and I would wager, their stay and then go out truth be told. I have turn very inward and have built up a lot of walls to protect me to protect my heart and to protect my business over the years. One of my mastermind girl said to me the other day new have the best boundaries.

Out of anyone. I've ever met I smiled because I used to have no boundaries like I was the highly accessible one. I was the yes Oh, I was a girl that never said no, because I was a people pleaser at my core, but in time learned that if I'm pleasing everyone else, I'm likely not pleasing myself and all of those yes says we're adding up the equal knows in my life, for the things that really matters most to me for well, yes, I was saying to being on the road for ever. Yes, I was saying the shooting weddings for every. Yes, I was saying to committing to be interviewed for something it was in no for something that I probably cared about more boundary. Like I have got them sit. I got them big time like I do not give out my phone number or address and I dont postings in real time to protect my location and I schedule. Might

I'm so that at the end of the day of the week, I'm not totally drains, and I ve learned. That have had this certain amount of energy every single day and it's up to me to choose where I'm going to allow it to be spent. Do I We want to change a world. Yes, I do, and if that is absolutely true for me, have to create boundaries that protect the carrying out of that mission in that mission alone, for me, it looks like really making sure that white and who I'm letting in my life help support my bigger goals. So lights. Diving suits the relationships and how they changed and guess what it's not all bad. Like I promise you that is so. Let's during our relationship with drew because a lot of people realise that when drew married me, I was a girl who had this core girl, who had this corporate dream like. I saw this future her, where

I would work this corporate job with its corporate eyes this and I would keep climbing that corporate ladder and I, I always knew I wanted to work like I'd. All them early on, like I want to have. Its name and I want my husband to stay home and I wanna get ELM and kick off my high heels and have dinner ready in. Like I want work, but I want to do it all. I want to have it on, but you guys don't realize that, drew married that girl and the girl. Sitting here? Recording this is so absolutely different and yet I think, is so incredible about the growth that we both experience. Not just myself is that we really come closer together like closer than I ever thought. I know when people talk about marriage like You kind of Roy your eyes cause you're like is it really is good, as they say it is, but when I think about it

there were out, I don't think, a retreat anything like we get to work from home together, we He had to wake up and go to the gym and walk the dogs and eat lunch and we get to travel the world's gather. We get a rest together and we to celebrate together, we get to work through the hard stuff together, and I just think that what is so amazing about marriage, an opportunity that marriage presence is that we are absolutely different. People than we were when we stood at the altar seven years ago, but we have one hundred percent grown into ourselves, while also growing into each other, and I don't think that that's common. I dont think that and all the time I've seen so many couples that I know and love girl, a part that as I've

gotten more confident as I've gotten more secure and is I've gotten more exciting it about the roles I mean drew sees that an who? Would he be to shut that down the girl that he married was uncertain. I lacked confidence, I wanted to be affirmed in and it's so cool to be able to grow with the heat. Unlike that we ve known each other for twelve years and a lot of life has happened, the other day I was travelling. I had an airy shoe present Pittsburgh and I you tube myself which unreal. Why did that found. This video that I had made drew on our first wedding anniversary end just so cute. I just sitting in front of a camera like telling him homage. I loved him and I send in the videos like oh my gosh, you need to watch as this is hilarious in

I knew with absolute certainty that, like I loved him more today than I did then- and I didn't think that was possible- and so one of us things I think has just been awesome about my relationship withdrew as like. We really do just love doing things together. We don't need to be with other people. We don't need to be out in about like my dream. Night is like ordering sue she take out in watching homeland on the couch with him. Snuggling with our dogs, and I can't even imagine us can be like when we throw the baby into the mix, but I do think that, as this life is good in this business has grown. We ve grown to gather into this is like a huge win and I think now will you are like so fortunate were so thankful that this business supports his life, that supports rest and being present, and so does a really big win let's dive into my relationship with my family. Now I dont think I

and his change of my family, like they have been with me since the very beginning, like the days when I like your mom and dad, I'm gonna quit my corporate job, because I gotta three hundred dollar craigslist camera cool. Ok, god! It's that an early actually happened like that you know I have become more introverted overtime and I've pro word ties my relationships, and that is one of the biggest reasons why we moved home was to be closer to family. My family is super clothes like that family that annoyingly group texts almost daily and while people might have been scammed, We call about my decision to become an entrepreneur. Looking at you, mom and dad my family has had this like front row, see two watches: business really grow and even my dad doesn't really understand exactly what I do for a living bless him. They have been so oh supportive, like every step of the way, and I think it's really cool because they ve gotten to see the different seasons of honour.

When you ship shipped Fermi, like the different seasons of hostile hall in this, since a burn out and the seasons of growth Anita. They ve really been investing gone to, see and know not just what's online but like what's actually happening in our lives and both my mom. It may sister of worked in my business. They ve gotten to see that big picture like the goal, the impact that, happening the dreams of mine, and I think all this is actually made me so much closer to my family, because I realise that they we'll be with me- no matter what and at the end of the day I would choose them over. Anyone else- and you might know is that I don't post or its Hague Alot of photos of my family by asking audience has grown and as it continues to grow so quickly, I learned really quickly That is my responsibility to protect the people that I love and why I opted in for this life, others did it and so my

the transitioned in a really big way. It is ninety five percent me and, of course, drew's there and I try not to rope others. Then especially my family, because I don't want. Maybe in the man psych, when we go out to dinner and my family, or nor with my family, like I am not I found I am not Instagram story ANG, I am not taking pictures. I just want to be present with them, and so I mean I want to protect the people. I love the most nuts coming from a place of like I dont want to share them with you, like. My moments is to have been on the pod guys like all of that, it's also like I made this choice. Like my parents dynamic, This choice of no one else made this choice, but me, and so I have to like, protect the people that I love the most I mean you re some on track down. My parents address online before they moved and send a gift for me to their home, like my parents have gotten chow,

down in an airport by somebody who is a fan of mine in things like that, just like kind makes me take a step back and I want to protect them. Because they had no say in this like they're still I do not have this written in it, and so I chose this and chose this way, and so protecting them is like honestly, probably meant. One thing- and I remember when we viral one of the first things I thought about, because my mom shared the post that was up on Yahoo, which was like the first mean outlet to pick it up was all the sudden he's nasty comments are rolling in and all I could think of was like my mom's friends, reading those comments and likes seeing those things that are being said about me and my husband that weren't true and he like broke. My heart- and I just remember like and be like, is dad. Ok is everyone ok like I'm so sorry this happened. I didn't know this is going to happen and it was all good like it was. A very positive thing

in the long run that at the time it was like? Oh, my gosh here, we are, unlike National news story is, and I just worried about, like my parents and their symbol, wife, unlike impacting that, like it's a wait, it's a total weight and its responsibility, so what's a good relationships of my past friends. So this one is like a fifty fifty toss up when I left God the people who knew me before everything it can to really go one of two ways: people either claim that they were my best friends and maybe we only had ever spoken once or twice before or like my true relationships have only gotten deeper again, still really close to three of my college roommates. Those girls have been with me since two thousand We have walked a lot of life together. Like those are, their friendship said, I wouldn't trade for the world, like we ve, wash through day

being an marriages, miscarriages babies in so much more to gather and even though we don't live by each other like these are my ride or die friends, and I I them almost daily, like it's pretty incredible when I look at like we ve been friends for so long, but I wouldn't trade those women for the world- and I have friends like that in little pockets from different treats I've been out our air different industries, I mean, or my gymnastics friends from growing up like theirs, only a little pockets of friends like that. That have been with me and known me forever and know that I haven't changed and all that, but I also get this kick out of people from my high school or who knew me when I was younger claiming things about me, because it happens a law and they think it's hilarious, like area gently ran into an old college teammates who is uncertainty with news for years older than me, and his wife was a big mine. Any act like we were like best friends when really he was

senior, and I was a measly freshmen and you probably don't even know my name and I was on the team, and you know it: just fine because I don't like I just don't. I don't get it like when people want to know about MIA people in my master and were saying they would get so many yams from people that they didn't know. That would just say what is generally really like in real life, you guys this is what I like the way that issue does exactly how I am, and I just think it so weird funny that people even care or wonder that, like I've, enviable tracked down my hair, dresser and ass, what is generally like after I get my hair cut, or I have people that stock my friends and asked them. If I'm same person that I M o mine of Alcide people, start my friends and asked for my address, which freaks neo but had become very careful with how I share anyone else in my feed, like that,

it is something that I've just become really careful about, because I know that that happens. My team, often except. We need to have like a Seeger password for peace, Will that actually know me personally, because the type of brain that builds and help personal. It is then how much I share and how vulnerable I am. People often feel like they know me when they don't know me beyond their screen or their ear, and so it's nearly impossible to decipher. If someone is truly my best friend, if there are devoted follower or a total. Stranger like economy, super hard for might seem to vigour. How to respond to every email and request an inquiry in a way that is personal but still protective. I know of time aims were close friends of mine, get a generic oughta, responder or an email template, and I also know in total strangers convince my team they really know me well and that I need to see their email, and so maybe two thousand nine

He will be a year that I implement see group password, but it's definitely added a new layer of our communication because of this your volume of emails, Indians we get every day, and let me tell you guys, like I do my best till I respond to comments in so look at the ends and and to really connect with you, because I care like I can here about you and I care about how my story mixes with yours or teaches you. Things are how you have one thing that has in common with me but also is really hard because of the brain that I've got where we share really vulnerable things that you know. If I run into someone, let's say in Hawaii on a beach, and they start telling me about their miscarriages like it is really hard for me to meet. Stranger, in a place like that, one

I genuinely wants you, but I'm not in the right head space for it, and so I think that, as a really really strong empath like I am one of the most empathetic people ever like a actually struggle. That it puts us like, we all need to show up in a way that fulfils what people think of me, No, that's not my responsibility because they know that I'm just being. True to myself, but at the same point? I want people to experience me in a way that they imagine they would in so it's hot, because having such a personal brand, brings on such personal conversations like reading my dm does. Easy, because people are just sharing their like most vulnerable secrets with me If I had all the hours in the day, I still couldn't get through those messages in the way that I want to, and so it breaks my heart because it's like see you- and I hear you and I want to keep creating for you, but if I

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to connect with other successful women on a totally new level like this podcast re here. It gives me this opportunity to interview some of the most powerful successful impact for women on planet earth. And for that I am so thankful like I recognise that, without I own journey, I wouldn't have likely been given the opportunity to connect with these women, like the gas that we ve had on this show, but have also created some of the deep Israel fish of people that I met on the internet, some of which I still haven't even met in real life, because, crazy. When I look at the people that I talk to on an average day, a lot of them are friends from the internet that live hundreds of miles away and one of the hard things about what Do is that no one in our town or even the nearest city, fully understands my business like what I do the scope of my work and they can become so isolating being

an industry that can feel like an island and not like a Hawaii island. Like an alone, desolate island Enzo found that sometimes the best friendships that I can forge are with people we'll get it like. Since I work from home my entire, he remote, I dont, get a lot of face to face with people in the industry and the things I text messages, boys tax and even signing into one another's deems, has been a huge blessing to me just feel like I'm in contact with other women who are chasing their big dreams who tackle their obstacles based the critics manage teens like that, has been a huge bonus and whenever four knock social media, unlike guys like this giving us direct access to people. We would have never been able to reach before and when you can actually forge real relationships that come out of support that come out of giving that come out of a place of. What can I do for you

not what you can do for me, man. I want to thank Mark Zuckerberg and Facebook in Instagram bricks. Creating a space where I can connect with other women who, I feel understand me. It's been a huge bonus now on the adverse creating new relationships has been so hard for me was sitting in the make up chair at my airy shoe tugging sue the amazing makeup artist that I love. I love seeing her and she was just kind of talking like how all of this has just pan, DOW and what it looks like in said. You know, I've just been really struggling. We have really been star. Going, I think we moved in April. I found founded, I pregnant the day after we moved and then I got really sick for a few months like I was so sick, so our first few months of living in this home, we didn't really get out much. We didn't really

see anyone we didn't enjoy this city. Him like I was stuck in bed, and so I feel like we kind of kicked off this new chapter of our journey. In this way of like we're, just gonna be home body is, and we again haven't created any real ties. And I think a lot of that has to do with me and where I'm just out in my life, when I was first pregnant, I was so anxious about losing this baby and I think that I had to really protect myself and hearts and what I was allowing into my life and my heart my mind so that I could just stay and head space that was positive, but it telling that make a viruses like. I wish everyone could just scroll through my GM just for a few minutes to see what I get sent daily. I think I get about five hundred DMZ Dame and I get so many amazing messages like message.

Is that, like light me up and like me, me so excited to show up on my messages of like people saying age, in your life like how insane in. Seeing is that, like those messages, give me goosebumps every single time but fine also want to share some of the requests I get just so that you can see how potentially exhausting it is because between all those, beautiful inspirational wines come alive, among other things and being a highly empathetic, Then, who has this true heart for like helping in serving the world? It makes a really hard, so I pulled up at my feet all these showed up in the first ten to twenty messages, just to give any idea of what shows up in my world, if I let it Jenna, how do you it's something followers without paying. This is a long shot, but I'd love to send you X Y see no strings attached spoiler. Now

out of ten things. There are strings attached. Ok, I don't respond to those high jenna, creating an app I have a favorite ass. Could you share my page of my story? Much loved you if you do, would love to be on your pod, costume Jenna, I'm press with your sign. Your story, please follow my page. You need a change in your life. Let me know if you like to learn more about X Y, see, and if you want samples, we We have one life, so let's make the most of it Jenna. I noticed your skin is super spotty. I sell skin here that is proven to clear that up and fix it. Love to sell it to you and you can share it with your followers. I want to be cut of dog or for what kind of cameras should I buy? Where should I start? I want to build a successful business and I need your help. Ok, so that's just like a handful of what comes in every day, And it so hard, because I love reading those positive messages, but when I see so many messages like this, a kind of just paralyzes mean because one

I genuinely want to help these people, but to if people could take five minutes to Google, they would learn more about me. They would see the hundreds of episodes created the hundreds of freebies. I have the different master clauses in courses that a teach all of the blog posts that I've created over the last seven years. If people could just take a second to Google or to search order to actually do their diligence it would change a when I can contain the law in so of course, there are those really sweet, encouraging messages, sprinkled then, but I want you to see that just to my top messages in DMZ amount of requests and hidden agendas that I have to get through to see the true and sweet, sincere messages in this also paints a hack out of me. Because of that, ass amount of content that I share for free and not that I know it's a majority. These people just took a little time to go through my blog Mabarak has my feed. They would get the

answers that they are looking for, but it also breaks my heart I really do want to help. I want to restore and I want to point people in the right direction, but if I spent all of my time doing that it would take away from the time that it takes so make these resources that I create that can reach you in the masses so the biggest changes I've had to make is to really centre myself on one mission: get good free education to the masses. And then I have to measure everything up to that goal, to spending. Hours, my giving closer that no I'll be honest, but I've had to create this huge system just to protect my heart from all of the demands, because its exhausting it really is The let's talk, friendships beyond newsfeeds, because those can we really hard to. I think one of the biggest sharks was when we I know spontaneously decided to move home, it Is it really in our five year plan

even our annual plan, and so when we decided in January that we were going to move in April. I do not only prepared to say goodbye to those friends that I'd made for the last six years of being in small town was gone. Then, but to also understand that we were about to start fresh again. And while we are moving back to the area of my hometown, I really having kept in touch with many people. I had zero like bill. In friends awaiting my arrival in that, coupled with the fact that we went viral the week before we We were on the local news here I was new, pregnant and about to get terrible morning. Sickness, like I was in for this rule awakening when it came to making friends. It sometimes makes you. Feel like you're out a deficit when you meet someone who already knows who you are and they feel like, they know you, but you don't feel like you know anything about them. It's also hard to know who genuinely wants to be a true friend you or who just want access to you for some.

Reason or another now often stopped with wanting to make sure that I'm living up to what these people believe me at the expense of just feeling free to be my weird and goofy south, like I work that people have an idea of me in that my time with them is wondering what they expect from me and then trying to be that, and so, at the end of the day, it's way more draining than just staying home and like being withdrew- and I know this is all weird and complex, and you might be judging you for all the things that I'm saying, but at the end of the day, I think an important, Why should that usually follows a conversation like this is what I do it all over again if I knew that it would end like this, and the answer is always. Yes. I believe that my platform and my business has touched hundreds of thousands, if not millions, lives, and that because of who I am and one have chosen, I have been able to inspire in edge, eight, so many others and have paved the way for those that I'm trying to reach.

Sure there are some major downfall, sure it's not always easy sure. Some days I was no one knew. Why wasn't? I could just blend into the background that at the same point When I meet someone when I sit face to face with someone, and they tell me that I've changed their life, it is worth it Just looking into one person's eyes, knowing that I played a tiny part in their big picture, it still takes my breath away, and so what? If it's hard for me to trust people, it's hard for me to make new friends like I'm pretty content with this simple little lies. That is just me and my husband at my baby, my family and a few friendships. I've been with me for over a deck, and I honestly like it that way like I wouldn't change it, but I do We want you to know what this all can mean and its. Decision only you can make your wondering like. Would this be worth? It's me I know it is so easy to look at all the things that we have in our life. We have

careful home, we ever Hawaii Condo, we have freedom we have found, an answer is like we have so much. To be thankful for, and I know it looks beautiful in China on Instagram, but I do want you to know what comes with it. I have changed a lot on this journey, but I think those changes have helped me to change a world like. I think that they protect in my heart in hard season They ve quit me to run a giant business. They allow me to change lives. It is absolutely been worth it without a doubt. That opening up in a more vulnerable way has just given you a little peak into behind the scenes, why I am a person with big boundaries and an even bigger heart and love to hear from you guys like Do you have a question you want to share something that may be surprised you about today. Show do you want to connect like hop on over to gold digger pad guests on Instagram. I want to know what you think, because this show is an interesting one right its volume

I'm being honest is wearing out, and I am so. Added to embark on this new stage of life and just to see what it brings and I want to be open to relationships, and I want to trust people better and so much of what's going on is in work, but I have to let you into those behind the scenes Thank you so much for supporting this show for tuning in, for supporting a mission of changing the world you hitting plays a day. Getting me one step closer to what I dream of most it. This show could help someone else. Would you share it scarcely to send the link, send attacks and DM? whatever that looks like, but I sincerely hope that it helped inspire you and encourage you wherever you are out today, till next time, gold diggers keep on doing your biggest calls and remember. I wouldn't change a thing for the world. Thanks for listening to the gold, Digger podcast die

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