You're listening to the gold digger podcast episode number two hundred and eighty four. I want to read you a line from the official, Bio of Aerial Astoria. She has made us ass in good intentions and has a deep love for car, karaoke, brunch and flowers. I mean does not just instantly make you smile Doesn't that sound? Like a woman, you want to know our aim The story is spoken, word poetry, author, speaker model and address, and I deeply admire her in the way that she speaks as issues plucked the straight from Warsaw and sent them into mine. I mean during this episode. I actually get goose bumps and tears like actual tears, now? She is an amazing woman. If you just had your answer emptied it is a space of inspiration is a collection of words at all lived you up, and she is the encouraging pep talk that we all need, when the light at the end of the tunnel feel so, far away now, one post of in particular really caught my attention:

and its partially, why invited on the show with my fingers, crossed hoping she would dive into this topic with me now answer am again serve as this place of inspiration right, but you can all so serve as a battleground of comparison in fighting in our battle with ourselves to have and do whatever we see in the perfect images on our phone screen happening in other people's lives, our speaks to how we can find motivation, not a comparison on this little up and and how to simply accept the goodness coming into your world. There are so many take away from this episode. You guys aims so so honoured to have gotten to have this conversation with aria, and you guys be blown away her brutal, I see, but also at the hope that she gives all of us. So here is your permission to sit back, relax and me my friend

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Ok, so I know about your story in your journey just from watching but as someone who is listening. A knave, ever encountered. The beauty that you are walk me through What your journey has been, what you're doing today and what led you to this point yeah. So I went to college to study psychology and things

So my initial round of this whole crazy thing I get a call work in my- was to be at our their best for kids, abbot, specifically kids with special needs, so any kid that found themselves on what we call be exceptional spectrum, some anywhere between being artistic Asperger's or shall needs in any kind, and so that we may be sure I don't play their female that girl college and can I use performance as just my own personal outlet. I love storytelling, and so at a time when I first started it happened through Peter and through acting and so that slowly trickle them. You spoken word which put me on a competitive poetry. Teams are two years and leaning approach, a team on campus and college, and then that stems to speaking at chuckles, indifferent, church events in and speaking halls with different girls

other resonant advisers, and so after that parents, justice artistic spiral happen at will, and I saw one throughout items like now. I'm getting my degree in psychology. That's right! I'm gonna go! I slowly senator really fall in love with the college environment and the college age Group. I realise that was like one of the conversations outwardly talked about in my sight classes ten year gap from twenty to thirty years about what happens in that end between who already one we're out of school and that's been, are the pass you notice me here on my life. What do we do in our? We never gave you that so then my child life constitution switched and, as it may be, I actually want to stay in a college. Environment want to work with Christians, and so I did the whole cited crowds

rout, be involved in colleges, and I was gonna work at my university. I had planned on making that my home for the next Dino five or ten years mixed with college and also professional hey I'm alive. My mentor were just really pushing me outside of the university, which I didn't understand as, like you don't think I would be got here, like all other things and there like now, but this is safe, like leaving barrier that your called till a bigger than one cup saint back. Your calls, a bigger things. Your maid for bigger things like I made for this right here. If you do not like me for anything better than s our you're talking about you know, and so I decided to get closer to graduation and realizing that none of these last green plant package

Is our way of living were really what else must be doing says I had this whole poetry artist sipping keeps popping up. So let me just do this for a year right, because we love to put guidelines on our dreams, because our scary- and so I would like a year- I'm gonna do little creative in her. Yet again, I've been doing it ever since I graduated so I graduated in twenty fifteen and I like to see that I've been screwed up, because I cannot go into a ninety five. I can't go into anything that price. Call or anything that realistic or stable, because I interests I have professionalized being a meeting I bet you should be, and I thoroughly enjoy it actually at this point in time in life. So now what I got to do is performed poetry, custom homes, aunt stages all over the world through, insofar as it is also.

Made. People think I'm a man who sang- and so I also not like usually, will see a lot of very positive, be conversations around swimsuit sand and encourage anywhere and things like that. As an addition, my still go into that acting world again, because I love it because it's for me- and I really appreciate me by step outside it myself and into the story of other people- that's why I love stories in the first place was my ability to take on the story and the journey of other people and do it like I lived it myself, and so now my job looks very different. I say each week looks very different. I can be doing a package I could be somewhere shooting photos. I could be in another country, shooting swimsuits because appear here. That is something I could he on a stage in front of leaders and creative professionals telling them out

are you really are and how worthy the iron and how much they have to bring to the table and just two they are even outside of what they fuse through poetry. South life is pretty well right now so interesting about what you just said, and I guess I haven't ever really thought about it. But when you're About how other really isn't really great, serve or attention brought to those transition year is like that whole blockade of thirty- you like that true. Why a huge years looked like because I can stay without a doubt between twenty and thirty was the most transformation like that was the treasure my life, so what did

we're going. Are you well? I mean I was in college. I graduated quotas. May I saw a graduate later? Is it a victory that led to a fresh memories? I did a victory lab in college because I thought now would go away and it didn t answer. I have to stay here just to take you back closets ends. I had that way out like oh, I am finishing on time. You know my whole life has delayed now because I'm not going to get a job immediately after college. On top of that, at this point in time, I suppose that has been made that supposed to mean that is not a new May next year and I thought and dress for your life or wherever it. So that was a super hard space. I had grown up so clear and definitive. Am I plans and what's coming next and and what's gonna happen in the next season

I didn't know how to do that, leaving college. So I honestly, I remember my mentor and you actually, I think you ve, interviewed her bread are there any where she would tell us that when she was in power, grab, Sheila gently like go to parks and sit under trees. Hinges when Germany Warhol my because he d, I mean you rearing you at this stage, to do that. You know kind of like a made life retirement season. You will lose its even like learning to like arrest and envy occasional, oh about, because you literally have nothing else left to do. But the thing about this is: there's no staff money just waiting for you to spend it. I know it said you have. You have tat from loan and you have college staff and then you're in this tension up, do I go home. Do I not go home? What home even mean any more for annual

again the season in this world went up. Just who am I? What is this world? How do I sit in this thing called the world and what kind of impact on my trying to make him? That's your city in that tension, either as a single person or ask him as a merry person. You know you're sitting in that tangible sitting. In two thousand, it was so strange, like people got married right after college, let my brow, you even know who you are you getting very right now, but there are some friends your tail in right now, I married you engraved. They got thereby after college, but I'm worried about who I was and so in the dsl and that's in terms of like psychology bite. Theirs is ten year gap where you're, like ok, everyone graduate school. When you go to college and then the tenure Skype like now you're married, you have kids you. I know a lot about those ten years in between

What are we doing? Those ten years between, I just think of the snake, beautiful, unfiltered chaos of a space to try at all tell learn all the things, and I don't mean learn what you learned in a textbook or London you weren't in a classroom, but let's go out and light and life actually learn things actually getting experiences. So yeah like when I left college, I worked five jobs and I just dabbled enter. All these random things for at the time, I thought were ran them, but we immerse ourselves in those things because of how they will set us up for a later to hear all those jobs I had right after college literally have become these webs for me to be able to do what I'm getting for myself now. I worked at a start up, clothings of searching company kind of assessment and a little bit not legacy which makes, and it was like a house

They worked their operations out of their house who throw maybe go to their house every day. Do this job and it was so strange and I did their social media. I would you flat lays from my best friends of the job, for the take pictures of I would hire their models and then I would full close and package then- and I didn't know how much of that information for so familiar ranging would come into my own story later in life. I did random arrows for people because other broke, and I need gas. Many and my way I quote in Poland

and away the bills, you know that that muscle and enduring or creating or foundation for yourself for later down the line- and it won't make sense in that season- I won't be super clear and that season, but you're not just working tirelessly for nothing you're, creating foundations in those seasons of pure question marks and at the time they feel frustrated and they feel disorienting but they're. So so so foundational, and I can only say that now, because I you know for five years, is almost out and looking back I, my oh yeah, see what that will be in the middle of it. I might be going on, I'm not going on. I really don't. They arose like all of that happening. I think that so fascinating and I would I appreciate about, as I think we all go through, that in different

is where it's just this, like you know, you ve been told would it be and what to do in and here's the next step for where your hat involves done you're like wait. Where am I headed in what is an exceptional nobody's telling me what then accept? Am I like human enough to make that decision in I'm terrified, and these are decisions, and no one help me through this. It. It's like man, why dinner? Maison Dyke, given further record, drew nigh digging straight out of college bite and, like I said that, though- and I think so injured is we add friends who also did get married in and didn't make it in their marriage? interesting is like drew, and I are entirely different people then the day that we stood at the altar when we were twenty three years on, however, as we grown into who we are ass. Human beings which is entirely movement, and that day we ve also got

on into each other, and I think that you know you can clearly see how it can go the opposite direction. So I love my love you make our collar, though, because I agree like when I look back at that data. My I had no idea of the other really know about that. Amazing. Ok, wine I mean you inspire me, you inspire me is in fact she knew inspire me word. You inspire me in the way you show up, but something that I, you are incredible line in what I really want to talk about. Is the difference green motivation and comparison thinking. Now, more than ever, with the internet, we are supposed to what could be motivation every single day about white usually turns into comparison so widely through just kind of your thoughts

its unnecessary, die vain and then we'll just gonna conversed as we go. What I'm doing so, I as an area grounds for I naturally compare. Oh yes by Ngos as afore. If any of you are familiar with the any force, think that they are inherently flawed, and so that is a constant battle that we encounter every single day personally and professionally. When you at that level,. Finally, and then you also answer as to the mix, it is a whole it shall you know like AIDS, Edna Awful, and so I had to learn like I think, by beginning steps with that process was not on following, but meeting people accounts that I realise that I would just go to and not walk away, feeling like excited further bans or walk away, feeling excited about what I was doing, but I was just like ok, I could do

nowhere. Why am I like doing or why? What is she that happened at all have, and I I was gonna, be getting out of that space. You know we can't do that and silk I muted those accounts so that I am less prone to just see them on my feet and feel quote some either way about it now and then the their layer of it was again as afore. Unlike I'm you mean I'm an individual at the end of the day, a really doesn't matter that someone else is doing the exact same thing that I want to do, because at the core

how I am going to do it and how I'm going to execute it's not gonna, be how anyone else has the ability to execute the ability to do it so linen term into not this caution us, but this foolishness of understanding of like the way I sit at the table and the things I bring to the table. I'm not gonna, be the things that someone across from me sets out the people or bring to the table. But what's the whole point of a patent? trade is that there is a whole bunch of stop. Where do they go together? Sometimes, do they not gonna get him a lot of times. You know, but at the same time that's what people are bringing to the table, and I think so much of this professionalism and thus create a wife, and even this personal comparison that we have is because, where show Associated and where so fixated on what someone else's bring to the table. Therefore, what are we doing at the same time more, showing up empty right, because herself focus Marcel fixated?

what they are bringing to the table that we forget our house will see now. Are we forget it in the car whatever, however, and that it will furnish and once the fall? And so I think, For me, I realized, like I, can't keep showing up empty handed just because comparison has tried to stifle when I know I can bring to the table, and so a lot of it came out of that, especially in this weird world, like entropy met and this body positively world, where it's like curve, but I'm not quite class because I'm a little bit smaller than quote quote floss. So there's that separation and then on top of that, it's like old, but I'm a speaker and a poet and am of my instrument, doesn't look like most people who speak you know, and and so it's like finding. I might end because I'm in so many

friend and in so many different worlds, a lot of weight of comparison be so much more realised and there are still many more opportunities for those happen. I had you literally shot each and We wanted them down at the end of the day, all you can bring to the table as what you have in your hands blueprint and that's it that's all you can do and trying to worry about what other people are doing or what other people and then do that comparison. I realize like oh she's modeling for Nike, that's cool and I'm a person

you want me to your right. These conversations, I let you know what you re. Actually I want to work for ninety as spokesperson I work for so then I started you re wrong. Man Harrison! It's not that I wanted to do that. I read thing, but you figure out. Ok, when you do have that seat at that make you table or answer that said table that you are trying to be ass when you do have that seat at the table. What are you going to contribute? What are you gonna show up with, and so then I started to rewrite like girls suffer them about

what modeling eggs are doing? You don't carry you don't need a bottle like you're right, you're right and then what will I do if I'm end those rooms? What will I say if I'm in those regions and so bad kind of really help to restructure my comparison, you can making constructive comparison bright. Anything can be constructive if you turn it around. So I think I'm in the season of learning and figuring out what constructive comparison I think that is so important in. I am just laughing me. Isn't my I've done that tourism, like they didn't ask me to speak that thing economic. But what is that? No anyways aluminium funny began. I feel like as women like we're taught to measure ourselves against each other? Like I don't know about you, growth is totally wrong, but I meant to say it anyways, I more women than I check out men because in my head and like oh, she is good.

Eyebrows early years, learning deriving from the heights for men, like always measuring up like oh, my ways is more than her than an AIDS like this in the thing that were taught from, very young ages, almost see the differences is a major and then It just like spirals into this adulthood. Words like. Will she got this? job and I dinner. She got this interview, I did it and then it's like wait do even more those things. I love that you write that I'd, be they all the time at the end of the day, you're you're being self pouty about these things at your leg, Listen for hours as result do even knew even back Do you even a lot. Wait you're, so busy covering over. I guarantee you back

Ninety five, I would even say ninety point: nine percent of the time we don't actually one fat. I write your thing right, so bennets of restructuring of right. Ok, what do you actually, you know like? Why is it so triggering to you wires relating to where you want to be a memory? You expect to grow Ask yourself those constructive clash, piano walk me through cutting your process. It is, I feel, like even in the last few months, have grown a turn in this way, but for a long time it's almost stumbling block that, like you, just can't get over walk me through. Prices when you find yourself, Roy known rabbit or even like seeking out negativity just so that you, like these links are names at like trying to find bad comments and to make what am I doing

I do like redirect re navigate to have new practices that you do, especially with a right that contacts. I think by in fall into the negative again like a true, even more go to like the ready. You know the let S melancholy is just feeling gainfully like I can sit in that sense. I've learned had a hard you to add light and help to those situations, but further most by this kind of like an ok with setting that negatively to deploy worse to hurt you. I might, if I'm starting, to lose, say that there is light at the end of this, and I need to get. You know that I need to get out even with the negative comments like I'd really only had like I'd like a few here and there they mostly come in and the form of the ends which is like extremely down ass. You know, in terms of conversations in questions of people, ask me by

in that sense I just like how'd, you like one, don't immediately go into the response Mo Breakthroughs, that's just a reaction embosomed our reaction, so things are locked. To end up in the way that we think we're going to happen. I ask you now, and so first take a moment to respond and not to respond to you what's happening, but to respond here.

How kind terminally right, so I I've been going internally and having that responds with thy. Ok. How does it make you feel yeah sure where pissed off you know, and they had been that internal response, but for you react right, I think a lot of times we associate responds being my all right now. In this moment she responded to me. I was finally back, but I make I think a lot of the check is really needs to happen. Infernally, first, an internal response before an external reaction and figuring out what that tension looks. I am men asking like why. Why are you trying to find the negative thing way, like, I think from me, as I always think that things are just too good

true, you know I have a home about about decide not being able to accept what I call glorious opportunities, our glorious moments that happen in my life that have my name written specifically on them. I have a really hard time, the leading battles and firmly that those are destined for me. So what do I do and said I associate at the negative things, of course than that, of course, has negative. Things have my name on them. But what can you do that same association with the positive things with a glorious thing see now answered because I'm so prone to leading into the negative things really having to let condition myself that one life doesn't always work within the context of a negative. It's called a balance rightly can have a positive about the Maghreb and vice versa, but how much you allow the negative to shut? You again comes from your own internal response.

And then your astern or react. Can you read that poem TAT I actually have been raised, but I do wonder what you believe no one year ago. Does it grants the merger with a feeling of holding my hand with both the expectation and the grief, and I will pull them away empty, I'm making a catastrophe and every moment that instead of shooting stars, atomic bombs will come crashing and their play so afraid that the solar eclipse only ever means darkness and realise that the light the light always comes first, I once attended a retreat where they asked us. If the glass was half empty or half full

said both, but it doesn't matter because it's not my glass to begin with see. Sometimes I'm a really bad habit of believing that all good things that happened to me are not actually for me that they dodged the person. They were met four and wound up in my lap. I happenstance she said so. What does that mean? You need to learn to accept. I said I guess as I need to learn that I am deserving of glorious opportunities, I am deserving of glorious opportunity. She said now say it with your hands out, like your receiving I undeserving of glorious opportunities. I stood there, but my hands out and tears fallen down. My face see I'm strangely aware of the fact that I am both human and blocked the mediocrity of.

Humanity often shadows the still hint of sparkle. In my does that, yes, even though I am human, angry spilled, I'm swimming with purpose that there is nothing happened since about the things that happened to me that my life is swimming with intention, even when I think it is not. You see, I wanna be aware, more shooting stars, and this time the funds these days to watch glorious opportunities, bounce off my palms like drops find the marvelous, even if they disappear, because for no matter how long at some point in time they were mine and they were quite I'll heard here because I have to say thank you to skills ever being an ongoing supporter of the gold digger podcast for too much of unlimited course. Access for free had his skill, shared dot com, slash gold, digger too, I know I believe, in lifelong learning and investing in yourself to grow in your life in your business. If you want to get closer to us,

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three very LULU women. They do a no go retreats, and so I had done the first time as a performer and then they asked me to come back a second time to perform and also to attend, be back. In the same week, I was also going on my first international tractable model these events and Portugal. So I spent three days and malibu at this. He over a tree, and then I last Thursday morning to go, spend the rest of the next five days in Portugal for swimsuits, which was not so bad week alone. At the time I was also living with a family and therefore kids, because I can afford to lose

anywhere else into do anything else, I'm in this tension of vital case, I'm doing things like working with blue lemon, but I also still live in this house with four kids and inadequate, because I can't afford to do anything else. I was like this tension of I'm doing things, but also, who are you you're not really doing these things and to their retreat and theirs is full on cottage. Just for me, you walk in. There is living room. There's a beautiful queen size bed with sheets setter, softened. Be there's a backroom without that's out, but I dont use because I heard it, but it's burning and there's a good a bottle of wine that says party of one me, I'm a party of one, and so I immediately just search box when I walk into the space. This is all like all of this good news. For me,

at this moment, a movie women like the actual team of women, the people who run me when I probably one of the most kind hospitable people I have ever worked, and so, when you get there, there's clothes spread out for you there's a journal, their snacks, their shoes, there's books, there's all these videos. You it's hake in the fullness of that area that so I immediately start falling and then, after that trip to Portugal, amazing, amazing, amazing and then a few months later I meet my movement and so is like thing after thing out your thing, and I was just so flooded by what I call these glorious opportunities, and I just thought that that was a it was for my professionalism. I thought it was just the philosopher. You know who I was as a career in what I was doing as a brain, but it was so much about my heart too, and so I paint my boyfriend for later.

First couple months, overstating because you're, not real, years until the end a home where I talk about watching glorious opportunities, bounce off my palms, a great jobs. Our first date we saddle

Benchmark Griffith Observatory eyes, is pitiful space, real stars and moons, and he read this book to me. It's called drop like stars by Rob, bowed and he ends the book talking bout raindrops and I hope you find like the pitiful moments in life like raindrops, and I hope that they found software palms, and so I type that yogi experience outweigh the limits and that both my boyfriend. Let me on one of our first date, because it was like this Peter full cohesive mess of like this whole thing is a glorious opportunity and why not than associate our whole lives, but being this glorious opportunity that we have the privilege to live entering says and to free, painful things in this world and only ways we know how to do, and so that almost a grecian

the whole lot for me and then sense that I've had like conversation, publishers. I did issue with Kim Kardashian spring. It was. It was pretty nice like all these crazy things round. My instead of going to the place of I don't deserve. This is not for me restructuring that again reclaiming and seeing this opportunity has my own in on it and on their laughter, their store, complementary and really reshaping echoes once you go into this were in your insecure about being. There are your unsure about whether or not you have a seat at the table and you're saying I can't I can't I can't let you can't because first, while you're, Bayer and second of all, that does have your name on that opportunity because you're there, but I really had to make war that muscle and myself. How do you recommend, like I M, just receiving as an aim this thinking of not just myself but like every. We all need this

How do you recommend that, like we is women start to wine like accepted goodness and like see it as life happen for us not to eyes. And in the adverse side the negativity like. How do we liked I go? I know it's not a reflection of who we are like, I feel like were delicate. Balancing an entry, to leg, keep all the

in the air and at the same time, we're like. Who am I and all of this? What is this all mean for me? I think we put so much like those questions have so much way right there and the first thing there's just walk through the door re like the doors open and doors open, because their men for you to walk through them. So before those questions start to call the way and put pressure on Europe building this step through the doors, take it off and sat through the door first and then, and so much of those answers will come after our experience through the door right. We realise our here, because you want me to deal X, Y, Lindsey or I'm here, because I can bring this to the table or I'm here because of such and such and such rights and those questions starting get answered by the east.

Weariness alone, but we sometimes get so stifled and so fearful now he led the way, keep us from stopping to the door in the first place and so that what is it say yes and figure out. The rest later came a like yes and figured out live so yeah just walk for the door, because those questions are gonna, be there. Those fears are gonna, be there. Those doubts are gonna, be there making come you if you like them to, or you can relinquish emperor second, so that you can release away to walk through the door and let those questions being answered through you living up the experience, the slowly Justin the report of my best friends about actual thy others, audition and she's. I can't I can't I'm alone here, there's always dangerous here, ass use, I gotta. Why do that's like items like you're already doing it? So what are you asking me

We do know like you're already doing it and also, at the end of the day, don't worry about their. What they're here to do? You worry about what you're here to do right, because if we get so caught up again and other people are doing no mean mess while we're super speaking in a moment and then you're in that space, to bring what you have to bring to the table, and you can't even deliver that, because you're so caught up and whatever else is doing right, and so I think that mentally something than continuing to work. It's a muscle, you know you have every opportunity, arises new fears and new doubts and that same Muslim needs to be applied to this situation, and this really working reworking and working, and we working at big, it's gonna come out because that's what life is full of

All of that, and all of the above I agree, is that you can do crunches one day and then you're gonna have absence. I mean if you leave me, where's ready will even on the Monday. Probably the weights acknowledges that good as it ever really good, but it is still things we have to work and reactor muscle and continue to stretch and its work. He now, at its words, continuous work, but it's a good work. Necessary. Sorry were wondering I'm curious about your story. Aureole is, I always think, like you know, if you are just starting out on you, see somebody like if I look at you like wholly garlic, she's

model is doing all these things, and I imagine like what my life would be like. If I'm doing what you are doing, I feel like a lot of times. We only imagine the good in everyone else's lively, forget stage and every level of the game new level, new problems, new level like new comparisons, new level like they're still junk in every level. An annoying allotted like glamorized we're just looking at my nor what wives and folder online like away. How's your experience, Ben, because right now you're doing things you probably never even dream and probably also in dream about like the hardships. Are they tell me all the time because we were like I want to be with you. I want to know why you feel what you feel and now you got there and am I honestly archive he's gonna be like a minute and various chemicals are used by

You know it. I didn't like I didn't intentionally like when I was building and when I was house like this is not what I thought I was building towards. I didn't know wows building towards. I just knew I was building towards something, and I felt crazy because I couldn't take wait what that something was. But I knew I was working for something I was moving towards something, and I need the first three years of doing this, I'm just now, and this upwards hidden you well, I just moved it. In February, to an apartment with one other girl who I lived with actually right after I graduated college answer than the sweetest space I didn't. But I would like for a really long time, because I didn't think I could afford it. I'm literally this time last year, one of the hardest summers ever I want

as randomly doing just audience extra stuff like for six hours, six eight hours to make fifty bucks only to lead that space and called from the only job. I had ass a teaching artists and say that, because their non profit and they didn't get paid by the state that our patriots are gonna, be the weighted another week, which means I have to call my appearance and ass. Correct again, I have run out of gas numerous times because I couldn't. I didn't, have enough money to put my gasping, and so I had to push my own vehicle to places so that I can watch it stations and get gas like- and I am very formerly talked about this on my story. Until people who had been with me for the past couple years has seen me graduate. Has seen a cry on my answer. I'm sorry has seen me right out of gas and had a common man again. I have seen it all because I wanted to be very transparent,

that's what I where I am quoting quote now is one I didn't know I will be here, but I am so glad that I get the opportunity to live it, but at the same time there was really freaking heart. I mean not even a year ago, really really freaking hard, literally all within a year. Those things just kind of pivoted and switch and elevated, but I make it very clear. My ass ran like when things are not okay and while I am not in a space rhyme able to be positive or to share inspiration, because my copies empty and I felt a pleaded, I feel uninspired, and so I think within the interim world I didn't want to. I think this is probably again. The anything for me was a gathers hope

there's positivity, there's rainbows, there's unicorns about money, but also bears crap and there's heart moment and their grief and there's loss and in their whining of those conversations and a little nine grid, I wanted to be honest and those moments in so, but there I mean a little kids. You know, I think my pupil was just this past January, and that was just a financial pivot, and then it was like you migration in Arabic in this way a and we were figuring out what that laws and then that shipping an hour and a whole mellow. Caesar life is good, but it still hot

You know, I think, being honest and all those moments, because guy looks glamorous for a second but a stately embarrass. You know like I get back in my car and I drive home with no sound or no music on in my car, because an over stimulated, you know like those are. The things are not seen only watch him beyond, say documentary and my shorts and my team top with no Rogers living my best lightened and a partner that has no air circulation. You know flying over the things that don't get scene and those of the everyday life moments that we obviously don't owe anyone to show, and I think that the words that, like not every moment, I have to show our tell people- and I think my boyfriend has taught me a lot about what it needs to have those sweet moments that are completely unplugged an loud and deserve to be here. I love that I feel like you and I are

in a similar space of discovery, and I feel like especially as the people who show up very transparently and and don't hide the master the garbage erode ever. It is there's also like this time. Words. Almost a you need to put like a little curtain. Nuffin say like this is just for me like. I don't have to explain this. I don T Know- and I value your I was walking this fine line of like how much is too much is this. Why am I sharing this? What is like, what is my brain computing and adjust? It's a beautiful time to be alive, that we get to make those decisions and that discernment based basin, ever season were ended, navigating yeah my love at no time how can everyone gets inspired by you girl, because I can legs like you are partly like a fashion icon, partly inspirational met. Tour partly like someone you just challenge is the way that I'm thinking in showing up we're. Can anyone get this. Goodness me I saw

things? Are you a story about my instagram? That's my website as Facebook and twitter. You also find me on Itunes and Spotify that home, but I did for you. Glorious is not anywhere yeah, but I do have some videos on my ip team. Have you want to check that out? But you can try all things, I'm sorry! If you sound cloud, I might be there to you for that. Underground people. There that's even find my voice and a lot of good enough each year inglorious on the gold digger pod gas. I literally message of my team and was like I just started bawling on our dangerous sharing. That way, as I know, it is gonna like get to that part of every sudden- probably play a daily just as our language, but thank you for showing them so thankful things very amazing did you guys have a moment like I did when two's reading that power

and- and I committed myself like, I need to listen to his weekly, if not daily, think a lot of times in life like when things are actually going good when things are happening for us and we're just so. Grateful were almost afraid to even expressed sat gratitude or allow ourselves to feel joy for fear that it will be taken away in a way that she put those words together in a meaning that it had for not just me or not just here, but for all of US man, it's sought me in my tracks are evil is so inspiring and I left to ease episode, thinking gosh I need to sapped with a gracious hand and heart, the goodness in my life and and not question if I'm worthy of it are or if it was coming to me by mistake, but to really honour the fact that I am worthy of good things. And so are you no matter what season you're in this season is not in vain? The season is not happening to you.

Is happening for you and I feel like, if we're all being brutally honest with ourselves and with others. If we look back, we can see that hindsight is always twenty twenty, but I hope that today's show helps to remind you that the good things in your life they are happenstance. They are for you and the things that are hard in the hurdles that you are jumping over today, as you listen to this show they are making you stronger and preparing you for what is to come. I am so grateful for area for coming on this show and thank you, gold digger, for listing to another episode of the podcast as ours. We would like to hear from you and we would love to support our amazing gas to pour out their hearts into this shows if you want to happen over to Instagram at gold, digger pod gas and give a really big. Thank you to area for sharing our hard on today. Show it mean the world

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