Modern love the pad cast supported by from the New York Times and W B you are Boston. This is a bonus episode of modern love, I'm begging trucker binding, I, the Amy Krouse Rosenthal was known for her award winning children's book, Films and her memoir encyclopedia of an ordinary life but she'll also be remembered for her modern love essay, which was published in March. She wrote it just weeks before dying from ovarian cancer. Her essay became one of the most shared pieces in the history of the column, Debra Winger reads: Amy's essay you may want to marry my husband.

I have been trying to write this for a while, but the more a fan and lack of juicy cheeseburgers. What has been now five weeks without real food have drained my energy in interfered with whatever prose prowess remains. Additionally, the intermittent might grow naps. Keep whisking me away, mid sentence or clearly not propelling my work forward as quickly as I would like but they are, admittedly a bit of trippy fun still. I have to stick with it because I'm facing a deadline, in this case a pressing one. I need to say this and say it right. While I have a year attention and be a pulse

I have been married to the most extraordinary man for twenty six years. I was planning on at least another twenty. Six together want to hear a sick joke. a husband and wife walking in the emergency room in the late evening. On September, fifth, two thousand and fifteen a few hours and tests later the doctor clarifies that the unusual pain, the wife is feeling on her rights. Isn't the no biggie appendicitis they suspected, but rather ovarian cancer? Couple heads home in the early morning of September, six, somehow through the foggy shock of it all, they make the connection that

today, the day they learned what had been festering is also the day they would have officially kicked off their empty during the youngest of their three children had just left for college, so many plans instantly went poof, no. With my husband and parents to South Africa. No reason now to apply for the Harvard Loeb fellowship no dream: tour of Asia with my mother, no writers residencies at those wonderful schools in India, Vancouver Jack No wonder the word cancer and cancel look so similar. This is when we entered what I came to think of as Plan B, not the letter b, but the verb existing only in the present As for the future, allow me to introduce you to the gentlemen of this article, Jason, Brian Rosenthal,.

he is an easy man to fall in love with I it in one day, my father's best friends since summer Camp Uncle John, who thought Jason and I were perfect for each other set us up in a blind date. It was nineteen, eighty nine we were only twenty four. I had precisely zero expectations about this going anywhere. But when he knocked on the door of my little frame house, I thought. Oh, there is something highly likeable about this person by the end of June. I knew I wanted to marry him Jason. I a year later

I have never been on tinder bumble, poor iii harmony, but I'm going to create a general profile for Jason right here, based on my experience of coexistence in the same house with him for, like nine thousand four hundred and ninety days. First, the basics he's five foot, ten, a hundred and sixty pounds with salt and pepper hair and his eyes. The following list of attributes is in no particular order because everything Phil

important to me in some way he is a sharp dresser. Our young, adult sons, Justin and miles often borrow his clothes. Those who know him or just happened to glance down at the gap between his dress, slacks and dress shoes know that he has a flair for fabulous socks. He is fit and enjoys keeping in shape. If our home could speak, it would add that Jason is uncannily handy on the addictive food man and after a long day there is no sweeter joy than seeing him walk in the door, plop a grocery bag, on the counter and woo me with olives and some yummy cheese. He is procured before he gets to work on the evenings. Meal Jason loves listening to live music. It's our favorite thing to do together.

I should also add that our nineteen year old daughter, Paris would rather go to a concert with him than anyone else. Jason paints I, His aren't work. I would call him an artist except for the law degree that keeps him in his downtown office most days from nine to five, or at least it did before I got sick if you're looking for a dreamy, let's go for it. Travel companion, Jason is your man. He also has an affinity for tiny things, taster spoons little jars. Many sculpture of a couple sitting on a bench which he presented to me as a reminder of how our family began here is the kind of man Jason is. He showed up at our first pregnancy ultrasound with flowers. This is a man who, because he is

always up early surprises me every Sunday morning by making some kind of oddball smiley face out of items near the coffee pot, a spoon, a mug, a banana.

This is a man who emerges from the Mini Mart or gas station and says, give me your poem and voila. A colourful gumball appears. My guess is you know enough about him now, so, let's swipe right wait did I mention that he is incredibly handsome anonymous looking at that face of his if he sounds like a prince and our relationship seems like a fairy tale, it's not too far off, except for all of the regular stuff that comes from two and a half decades of playing house together and the part about me getting cancer blip. I want more time with Jason. I want more time with my children. I want more time sipping martinis at the Green

mill, jazz club on Thursday nights. But that is not going to happen. I probably have only a few days left being a person on this planet, so why am I doing this? I am wrapping this up on Valentine's day and the most genuine non vase oriented gift I can hope for is that the right person reads this finds Jason and another love story begins I'll. Leave this intentional empty space ahead as a way of giving you to the fresh start. You deserve the with all my love, Amy, the

debra winger reading, Amy Kraus Rosenthal's essay, you may want to marry. My husband Amy died on March Thirteenth, just ten days after her piece was published. She was fifty one years old

I love spelling, be my boyfriend. Next to each other playing individually and not cheating. Sometimes when I open up spelling bee- and I see that you have completed a few words on your own, I feel a little betrayed in sorry. It may have happened.

I know you did it again. I have one friend who I will send screenshots from spelling bee of inappropriate words that I always get nervous that I sent it to my parents or something like that was my bad. It was the first party together, and I wish that I think I got to see it. J, a c k, P, o He just run nice I'm same is asking the digital positive for the New York Times. You can try, spelling bee and all our games at annoyed times. Dot com, Slash games, Amy, Kraus rose and thought passed away only recently, and we do hope to have an update from her family about how things are going well they're, ready, Debra, winger, read Amy's essay for us and she was

of the many people profoundly moved by Amy's words, I found two things. Amazing one was, I know, she's. talking about her husband in the way that you know she wants us all to be able to picture and feel. But what I felt so strongly was how much he loved her and it's really a sort of a lesson in writing. You know your point of view is not always the direction that year pointing someone, The other amazing thing I felt after reading it. The first time was how to be in the moment, and she refers to it. As plan B includes the past and the future of the when we're told to try to be in the moment. We think we have to stop thinking about projecting and planning, but in fact

By beating the moment, it includes everything and that's what's so alive about this piece, even though she's passed away. Thank you Deborah for reading Amy's essay, the Debra Winger Stars in the new film, the lovers it's in theaters. Now I'm making Chakrabarti we'll see you next time. The.

I love felling, my boyfriend and I often play stalling me together by together I mean sitting next to each other playing individually and not cheating. Sometimes when I open up spelling bee, I see that you have completed a few words on your own. I feel a little betrayed in ferry may have happened. I know you did it again. I have one friend who I will send screenshots from spelling bee of inappropriate words that I always get nervous that I sent it to my parents or something like that was my bad. It was the first time together and I wish that I think I got to see it. J, a c k, p o he just five years ago

I'm same as their escape. The digital puzzles editor for the New York Times. You can try spelling bee and all our games at an why times, dot com, flash games.