This is optimal. Living daily episode, fourteen sixty nine hello society must talk our minds clean familiar narratives like Katrina, Norman, enormous of the mom chronicle dot com and I'm just a molecule person. Narrator reading blogs to you mostly sometimes books, anything I think club. Live your life in a more meaningful way before we get to it small businesses where a lot of hats and while some hats, our great others, like the filing taxes and running payroll? Had not so great. That's where gusto comes in gusto makes payroll taxes and managing a team. Actually easy for small businesses does not automatically pays. Files or federal state and local taxes, so yonder re about it. Does it make it easy to add on health benefits, and even Forel one case for your team only can get direct access to certified each our experts to sounds like a pretty good way to kick off twenty twenty four, your business right, but here's the thing deadlines for the new year creep up earlier than you think: you're gonna, wanna, guest,

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tutoring or writing. Gigs, don't come your way, can't pay the bills that that raise can catch up on your day without those extra jobs of go back to sleep Saturday. Twenty three minutes later: five, a m almost half an hour struggling to fall back to sleep in these two Carlo Beep, beat of the alarm jars me out. I forgot to reset it last night, the alarm reawakens the full force of my anxiety, my heart picks up the pace and ever to match the barrage of thoughts bouncing across and ass. He is my brain or member knows that minor surgery and over which he can't pay your half of it were about sports without Josiah birthday. I gotta pay for The word press renewal for your website that selfish cheese shut up and try to get some sleep. Seventy ministry

Peter five hundred and seventeen a dot m. I look at the clock. At the full height of my panic, every thought has an electrical charge that increases my pulse. I tried breathing through it singing to myself, suffocating myself with my pillow and hopes of passing out Keith shifts next to me. I feel him roll over to face me. You, okay, his groggy voices, half asleep on the edge of weighing up. If you know something is wrong, don't tell Keith, you dont need pity you wanna help, and that makes you weak. So should I tell him or pretend I'm sleeping I stay really still flat on my back hands down by my size, my pillow balances, precariously half on my face and half looking towards the floor. I best ever to pretend I'm sorry being an didn't hear him he's. Gonna know something is wrong. What if he thinks it's him and we get in a fight, because I won't tell him dishonesty bills, resentment and relationships, resentment, festers in growth. Until finally is unbearable and people break up. Oh God, what

a break up, though my kids will be devastated. Another relationship that I ruined who break up will probably be my fault jeez feel like I ruin everything I just stop. At this point I was still lying completely still, I think I hear keys softly snorri nice to me in the dim silence a morning, but the voices in my head or screaming at each other. I realised within it, where the ground, I am definitely not sleepy and today, My anxiety monster some days. I find myself in a panic. My thoughts are foggy heart race, being body alternating between cold, sweat and hot flashes signals from in telling me to run or fight or both It's not only mornings I can invoke. This is anytime. I feel unsafe something triggers an old story in my head- is a knee jerk, the action when my past begins to speak. My present in the midst of it I dont eliza. My anxiety often stems from an experience that reconnects me with a past trauma in those moment

I'm in full doomsday mode over little things like a friend not calling back or not finding my car keys I remember one time you can buy your car keys and you are trying to get away from your drunk boyfriend. My mind becomes canvas and I paint a frenzy nightmare across it, a terror that seems to real because of my past. All too familiar narrative, what makes it worse number one judgment I used to judge self. I to tell myself that I wasn't allowed to be anxious. You can't feel This way there isn't any reason for it. You weren't, strong and independent. This makes you look week. What can you just get over? It into notice that trying to strangle the anxiety out only transformed into a corner animal, the struggle was imminent and anxiety. I d, like a lion, I always lost number two predictions his eyes really good at predicting impending disaster. You can find your car keys,

Well, you'll find them late. Speed to work get in an accident and of chemicals in the hospital Disabled mother won't be able to take care of herself, so she will end up in a nursing home. All of your belongings will be sold at auction after your landlord of x. You, if you wake up, you'll, be homeless, jobless and unable to pay your hospital bills. I'm serious anxiety can take you places. You never wanted to go with Us oh ball, on a never ending white mountain curiosity to the rescue about a year ago. My panic attack for the rest of the point. They almost immobilize me as a share this with a good friend of mine. She mentioned afraid. Does she often uses? Isn't that curious? The small question that really became a mantra for me when I started feeling anxious. I would ask that question and sit with it for awhile. I found the more I became curious. The less my anxiety seem to push back. I became aware that the source wasn't something that happened in that moment is my historic. Or narrative speaking to my present situation. This realization help

the fuse any negative reactions to the anxiety. I learn that curiosity, the beginning of understanding our emotional reactions. It is the moment we pause the judgment and negative self talk to breathe and say: hey, what's goin on? How are you feeling do you know why list? talk about it when you ready its chance to start a dialogue with ourselves, steps to defusing anxiety, step, one create space Give the anxiety some breathing room be gently, curious, pre, slowly and tell yourself it's ok to feel this way, except the emotion and accept that you don't have to do anything with it step to identify the emotion ask yourself how you're feeling identify the emotion that is

realized ass, feeling, intense fear, step. Three consider the source push a little deeper. Ask feeling intense fear step. Three! Consider the source push a little deeper ask yourself what triggered this, and why that I wouldn't understand enough money was a trigger for me. I worried that I wouldn't have enough, because I've been in many situations in my life, where I felt abandoned by my family and significant others, just a symbol for my feelings of betrayal and abandonment instead for reality, check. Bring yourself back to reality by finding things in the present to ground you. I love the following advice from green light. Psychology look around you identify name, five things you see for things. You feel three things you here, two things you smell and one thing you taste, sometimes the answers are readily available as to why we feel the way we feel but Massey practice steps. One through three. We will begin to see patterns emerge once we are open to the com,

station. We find our growing edges and anxiety doesn't have to mobilise us anymore. He doesn't know the post, titled hello, anxiety must talk our minds clean Into familiar narratives Norman of the mom chronicled our come and don't forget gusto offers. Modern easy payroll and benefits to small businesses across the country. If you want your business to be off set up by twenty twenty you dont want await, get in touch now. Get three months free. When you run your first payroll, just gotta, gusto dot, com, slash old, that's gee, you asked he owed outcome. Social Aldi leave. Therefore, today Thank you for being here, have a great restive your day and I'll see you tomorrow, we're optimal life awaits