Rambles. This episode of anything goes is present. By door dash use promo code, anything for twenty five percent off your order of fifteen dollars or more guises midnight it's midnight when am recording this When I tell you, I've been awake past eleven p m in like six months, I have not been awake past eleven p m in like six months: okay, I have been going to bed at approximately ten thirty p m every night for months and is a part of my journey into becoming a mom, although I don't have any children, I'm so,

but surely becoming a mom right, I'm getting into Coquet I'm getting into reading books, I'm getting into going on walks. I'm doing the whole thing during the whole mom thing I've been on, they got him in going to the farmers market like something's up with me, like I'm ter, I'm going I'm turning mommy mode like quickly freaking me out of my nineteen I'm about to be twenty in like a week, and I already feel like a mom, but I love it I love it. I wouldn't want to any other way, but I'm awake at midnight right now. And I think it's because I

drink a lot of coffee this afternoon, because I own a coffee company, Chamberlain Coffee go check it out. If you don't know what it is or even tried, it Chamberlain, coffee dot com, it is my beloved coffee company and I love for you to try it, but anyway I was doing it tastes test of some new blends that will be coming at some point and they taste tested like five different blends of coffee and

then I was a complete mess: okay, a complete mess. I was just like freaking out and now it's midnight and I'm awake, and I should have known this was going to happen. But here we are. What are we going to do? You know what I mean. I've probably had like eight shots of espresso. Today, And I also marcher, oh I had to march as holy shit. No wonder, I'm awake guys, don't What I'm doing right now, I've had so much caffeine today, like it's, probably unsafe, but anyway welcome back there. Ethan goes, I Emma Chamberlain your host I hope we having an amazing day, I'm drinking water, not a cacophony to drink, because we're done with that for the day honestly might even take the day off of caffeine tomorrow, cuz, I think I have enough caffeine in my body to last me for like at least the rest of the week anyway,

What are we talking about today? So what have you, those tweeted at me and was like Emma? You should do a. Would you rather- where, basically, you guys tweet at me on the twitter at age, podcast and you tweet at me, would you rather is, and then I answer them and get all philosophical and such. Really hard to laugh like fake, laugh at my own jokes, when nobody else is there with me like fake, laugh with me, like I'm just sitting on the floor in my closet by myself for an hour according this and selling me fake laughing at my own joke Is it just doesn't land as well as it does when I'm with other people? So now I'm just uncomfortable

and you probably are too so sorry about that, but we're going to do a fun little. Would you rather I asked you guys did send him over. You did because you guys are the best and we're just going to get into it, and I'm going to try to make my answers as philosophical as possible, so that this is at least right. The interesting feel free to treat me your answers. In share your opinions again, the twitters at age podcast. I love to interact with the all love to make this open conversation so feel free to tweet at me. What you would answer as well for kids get into it. All right, somebody said when someone says I have good and bad news. What would you rather here first every time

When it comes to me and says I have good and bad news. I always say tell me the bad news first, always because I like to get this shitty stuff out of the way some. Was that I also won't be able to enjoy the Good NEWS, because I'll be too anxious about what the bad news is. If I don't just get the bad news out of the way you see, I'm saying I need to get the bad news out of the way to even remotely enjoyed the Good NEWS, and it should simply how my brain works so always want to hear the bad news. First. Somebody said, would you rather delete your instagram account or Youtube account? That is extremely easy. I would delete easy. That's extremely ease, de I would delete my instagram before I delete my youtube. My reason for that is that Instagram is virtually pointless if you think about the concept of taking.

Instagram photo. It's pretty traumatized thing like every time I think about the action of taking in Instagram photo. I have a full ego death like it's humiliating, if you really think about it And listen, I think Instagram is fun. I think it can be creative. I think it can be a great platform I squirrel on it. I looked through it. I see what people are up to I'm guilty. I try not to but listen I'm guilty just like the rest of us and I am, and I think Instagram can be fun, but I also think it can be extremely negative and can cause. Compare yourself to everybody and get this false sense of reality. That's awful and I've talked about that enough on this podcast,

So I won't get into it more now, but I think Instagram can go negative way quicker than Youtube. Where is Youtube? Is nice because it's like intimate you know what I'm saying it's a long form Khan. And where you get a kind of hang out with somebody or you get to learn something or whatever legged what more educational de la more useful. It's a lot more into it, so you may, and I and I personally prefer making Youtube videos overtaking instagram photos, although I do like both for different reasons, but I'd say it than the day like making he videos better we said, would you rather lose the ability to read or lose the ability to speak? That's really tough!. I would say I would rather lose the ability to read because I feel like that would be

easier to adjust to write. I could have somebody around me at all times that could either translate things to me and read them to me or Could you and I could still listen to audio books and stuff like that, whereas My ability to speak is very, very important to me as much as you know, the ability to read is important. My billowy to speak is even more important because I love talking and I have as some might call a blabber mouth, and I talk a lot not as much anymore. I feel it is I'm getting older. I talk a lot less, which is interesting. I used to talk a lot more like you could not shut my ass ugly. I just was fucking talking at a hundred miles per hour, twenty four hours a day when I was a kid, but now that I'm older, I feel like I'm learning, that silence is not so bad

I feel less of a need to fill every awkward silence with some sort of blabber out of my mouth, but regardless my ability to speak is very important to me. I love having conversations with people and like losing that would be traumatize ing whereas losing my ability to read, I could still figure always around that you know somebody said: would you rather get to see yourself from the perspective of others or hear every bad conversation about you? Well, for me personally, there's probably been a more than average amount of negative conversations about me considering my presence on the internet, and I think that if I had to hear all of those I would vaporize into thin air and just disappear. And die, unfortunately, So I do either. I see myself from the respective of others. In fact, I've actually always been curious

About this, like what I look like to somebody who's just like walking up to me like what do I look like when I'm just walking around in the crazy part about it. Is that I'll never know, and neither will you you'll never know you look like from the point of view of somebody who's experiencing physical body in front of them, you know I'm saying like you, can only look in the mirror. You can only look in your phone camera. You can only look at a photo of yourself. You'll, never fully know what it's like to be in your own presence and I'm genuinely social. Is about what that looks like I pray every day and I manifest every day that I look much better in person as a physical human, saying that I do in the mirror or in photos and the elderly you know, for sure would be is if I could experience it, which I never will be able to. Therefore I'll never know for sure. I would really really no one here. Every negative conversations ever been set about me. In fact, I avoid hearing about that at all costs. Even if I know

somebody's hockin shit about me. I will avoid for hearing what they said or finding out what they said, because I don't want to know. I avoid information. That's going to harm me as much as possible. Somebody said, would you rather be gossip about or never talked about it all definitely gossiped about, because I think that being talked about at all means that you're not doing anything of substance or of importance necessarily and in order to accomplish something or do something admirable or do something that has in effect that's positive. You, you you'd bound to get criticism in your bound, be gossip about, like it's just inevitable. It's just a part of it. It's like

Even if you're the best person on the planet and you're doing amazing things are slogan. We somebody's gossiping about you, because you are the topic of conversation because you're doing something in packed full. You know, and even if your doing the best job in an amazing Maison thing, you're still gonna be gossip debate, occasionally. It's just part of it, so I would choose to be gossiped about instead of not gossiped about it all somebody said, would you read lose the ability to cry or cry every day for twenty minutes. Well, babe irony cry every day for toys. Minutes, so nothing would really change. I'm kidding definitely cry everyday? For twenty minutes, because I think crying is so important. I am a firm believer in crying. I go phases where I don't need to cry like last month. I may be cried once or twice this

they cried Polly, five or six times like it just varies every month. You know, but I think crying is so important and it feels good and you need decried of he's that pent up emotion, and so I would never deny myself of that- and you know there are moments when you need to cry so not being able to cry at all would be pretty tragic

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extremely vulnerable? I was very concerned about what other people, about me. I was very concerned about fitting in much more than I am now and when I was sixteen. Luckily, the internet was not even remotely what it is today like today. The internet is, been more prevalent in our day to day lives and its even more competitive and even more fake it. It's like a aid seems to get more fake every single day. You know I mean, and If I was sixteen right now, I don't know how we handle it like. I don't think I. Could handle it very well because I feel like I'm a pretty good These are my life right now in its still gets to me, but if I was sixteen and more vulnerable, who knows the effects it it would have on me? I think it's

better time to be a thirty year old right now, then it is to be a sixteen year old right now and that may not necessarily be true, but just maybe for me personally. I just don't think that my sixteen year old self would deal with the state of this world right now, very well. Whereas me, as a thirty year old, I think, would be able to handle the internet and be able to hear all the trials and tribulations of life, much better, you know, and so I'd I'd much rather be in that place and be thirty, then to be dealing with life right now is a sixteen year old life outside of me, though, I'm talking about the pandemic that we just experienced the internet explosion there were experiencing. All of that see, I think I'd rather be thirty, although

if yeah? No, I don't take that back. Be and honestly, can I be honest here being sixteen was not very fun like I didn't enjoy it. If I go back now and be sixteen again and do it differently. I would, but if I had to go back and be sixteen and like real live there experience like I dont think being sixteen was fun. I actually was the most depressed I've ever been in my life when I was sixteen So I don't want to do that again, like I feel like every year that goes by, I become more wise in more happy and I still struggle a lot actually a fuck ton. But it's like the struggles I feel like I experienced, become more and more important as they get older. It's like when I was younger. I struggle with stuff, like all this boy doesn't like me in like mine, I'm not

good grades right now or like Buffalo, and that was like so hard and so stressful. It's upsetting, but it also like wasn't teaching me anything. Where is now that I'm older, I feel like when I struggle. I like learn from my struggles. It's like filling. My struggles are a little bit more based in real life and like based in the real, world, rather than in my little high schooler bubble, to see. I'm saying I need to move on and talk about that for too long, don't be sad. Would you rather be cheated on in a relationship or be the one that cheated us? Thousands percent be cheated on a thousand percent and I feel like that would be the most common

and sir, but I don't know I'm curious. Let me know tweet aiming at age. You podcast whether you would rather be cheated on or be the one that cheated bees are genuinely curious. This has nothing to do. I'm not trying to fucking plug the podcast twitter. I couldn't give less of a fuck if you follow the podcast twitter it. That is, I don't even condone you being on twitter eating twitters the most toxic platform on the planet, but I am genuinely curious. If you have a twitter and you want to tweet at me whether you'd rather be cheated on or be the one the cheated, because for me personally so obvious right leg, I would there be cheated on, because I dont want to be the one in the wrong leg. I dont want to have to live with that Gill. Cheating on somebody is a terrible thing. You know, namely

and living with that guilt would be so overwhelming, at least for me personally and everybody so different in you know, experiences things so differently. But for me I would feel this shame and guilt for the rest, life that I would not be able to get rid of it. I mean up eventually get over it, but I always feel a little bit bad about it and I don't ever want that. Like I want to avoid at all costs. I want to avoid guilt in shame and you know hurting others as much as possible and as humans, we're not perfect we're going to cheat on people. We're gonna lie we're going to: u know, make mistakes here narrow, but like I try to avoid that at all costs, whereas If I was in a relationship with somebody and I loved them to the fullest- and I did my absolute best to be the best girlfriend I could possibly be, and they still cheated on me, then that's their fucking loss and a story. You know so and I can go to

but nine, knowing that, like I did my best and that I was a good person in the relationship, so I definitely rather be cheated on, but actually stemming from that I'd like to share a kind of little thing. They just came to my mind about cheating and you ve cheated on somebody before listen as long as you realise that what you did was wrong and as long as you promise yourself that you're not gonna, do it again, then you can absolutely look at it. As a learning experience and if all goes well, it'll help you grow and that's a beautiful thing, and in that case you know, there's nothing even be ashamed of, because guess what you fucked up and then you learn from it That's actually a positive thing, whereas if you just keep cheating on people over and over again, definitely do some self reflection, but I'm not here to help you with that. Right now K. We can talk about that. Another episode, but.

If you're like me, and your somebody who has severe trust issues, and you constantly are worried about being cheated on in your constantly worried that your partners gonna, leave you or five somebody else or cheat on you, whatever it may be levied on something that helps me go to sleep at night. It's the thought that if they word to cheat on you, if they work leave you and find somebody else. It's their loss as law. Long as you loved them fully, you treated them how you would want to be treated, you are suspected them and you were the best possible significant. You could have possibly been. Obviously that doesn't mean the your perfect, but you were the best that you could have been an you absolutely worked. Your heart is to be the best you could be in our relationship.

As long as you do all of that. No matter what they do, you can go to sleep at night, knowing that you're doing your best and if they leave you, it's not your fault, because you did the best you could and if the best you could is not good enough for them. Are it's not exactly what they want? That's there

problem. You did your best and if somebody cheats on you, when you ve been the best significant other than you could possibly be that's their loss in that's really unfortunate. Like that's genuinely bad on, then you know I mean, because you did your best, you were a good, significant other and them cheating on you. Instead of you know, dealing with a break up amicably is very embarrassing and we can hope that they'll learn from it. But until then you can go to sleep at night. Knowing that you did your best. Somebody said: would you rather give up your platform are never experienced. True love. Ok, this is crazy. This is a crazy question, but I would say I would give up my platform, because I think that feeling true love is one of the.

Important experiences in a human beings, life and you can feel true love in many different forms, with a new, no significant other with a friend with your family, like whatever you can feel in many different areas right and you can feel it more than once it. You know it's one of the things that will come and go through your life, you know

some of it stays forever? Some true love last forever and that's usually with family and stuff like that. Maybe not, though you know, but regardless, like I think, throughout your life you're, going to experience, true love on different levels and indifferent different forms, and I think it's one of the most important in most valuable things that we and we and humans get to have. An experience is feeling love and true love, especially and as much as I fucking a door. You know

my connection with all of you guys and as much as that is, in a sense, true love in itself in its own special way. I need to have real love in my personal life and I need to have a decent amount of it actually, in order to survive and be a happy person leg, I need to have loving relationships in my family. I need to have you no loving relationships with significant others. If I decide to be in a relationship in that moment, I need to have true love and friendships. I need that to survive, or else I would be empty and as much as my platform means to me, like you know, experience

love is like a lot more of a necessity. You know somebody said I think this is obvious, but a lot of you will think it's not. So would you rather, if people didn't show up to your wedding or to your funeral, I would rather people not shopped my wedding, because. If people didn't show up to my funeral, I thou mean that I didn't have a positive impact on people's lives and that would be a real shame. Whereas a wedding is an excuse for other people to party, so people can show up here

Adding in not even really love and care about you. They just want the free dinner and the free drinks and the dance floor. Ok, they might not even care about you, whereas showing up to a funeral takes courage and it takes strength because it hurts in it in going to funeral, hurts bad, and so in order did want to go to something like a funeral. The person's funeral who your attending had to have impact You in a big way, therefore, I would really hope the people would show up to my funeral. I don't even know if I want to have like a big wedding. I I think about this sometimes like if I do end up getting married, which I don't see, why wouldn't I am going to get married? Actually, I've decided I mean who knows, but I I really think I want to get married. I know that

like kind of taboo to say that these days I say this in the park as Everyday Marines Album like TAT getting married taboo, but like a lot of people aren't to get married, any more, which is teach their own and that no judgment whatsoever? I'd go crazy. Do you think, but I do want to get married? I do, and I think that I will and I'd, but I dont think I want to have a big, crazy wedding, because chances are. By the time I'm like thirty and I'm getting married. Who knows how many friends I'm have left like I'm already running low? You know what I mean and by the time I'm thirty, like I'm, probably going to be even more boring. God knows how many friends I'm to have in chances are if my the person I marry is like me, they're not going to have them, friends either, and then there are, the wedding will be small.

So that it won't really matter that nobody showed up to my wedding. So anyway, somebody said: would you rather be the funniest person ever or the smartest person ever for me? Definitely, the funniest and the reason why I say that is because being smart is a fucking nightmare. Are you kidding me like I'm, not the smartest person on the block? Okay, I'm not, but I know some people. This is not at all an insult like I'm, not I'm trying I'm going to try to say this in the nicest way possible, but I don't know how it's going to go. So let's see I I know some people that are maybe like not not like that they're, not as smart as me, but

There may be just not as thoughtful like they just kind of go through life in a much less thoughtful way like they kind of just go with the flow alot more. They may be weren't very good at school and they didn't really care, and they don't really think maybe so deeply about Things are very like entails, surely about things are philosophically about things and not just the way that they are in their happy like that right and in they don't it's not like I'm dissing, at all, because they would admit the same thing like they just go with the flow and like they just maybe are less smart right. Not necessarily than me. I don't know nothin like less smarter than me, but you go them saying here like they're, a lot less, maybe thoughtful.

And I noticed something about these people and it said they have a lot more fun than me now. If I do my math correctly here,. That means that, like the smarter, you are, I think, the more struggles that you face in a sense, because you think about things so deep, Lee and so like, technically that when you're really smart, that it's a torture burn your mind, no, I'm not saying that. I'm like smart at that level, I'm not cause. I dont think that I'm I'm I'm fucking, not that I mean listen I'll, give myself credit, I'm not like the dumbest person ever, but I'm definitely not a genius like fuck. I don't know you know, I don't know about crazy, complicated math stuff, like

a lot of things to go over. My head, like I, am by no means a genius, but I'm definitely like maybe like I'm dumps. Definitely I'm thoughtful. I would say to a certain extent you know and like me being just a little bit thoughtful and just a little bit smart is already painful enough. If I was more thoughtful and more smart, I would be fucking miserable, as would anybody like, I think, being really smart is actually a fucking nightmare. I do and so I would rather be the funniest person because being funny is just fun like laughter is like the best shit ever

and so being able to make other people laugh or being able to make yourself. Laugh is like the greatest joy in life and who cares about being super intelligent or super smart. If you have fun and you can laugh about shit and you can be funny in whatever than that's a great life and listen being smart can also be great, but I think that being funny, I'd rather be the most funny. Ok, side, note, you know when you forget something up She sore and you get home and you're like I forgot to get all avoid all.

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You have gas because your friends are used to it, or at least in my experience all my my friends are used to it. The cons are that I would get frustrated probably after a week, because I would miss my alone time and I would miss my privacy and I would miss my thoughtful daily moments that I have by myself in my home, because if I lived with all my friends, it would be like crowded Unum sang. Actually, I don't have a lot of friends, but in the scenario living with a few friends would get crowded quickly. I feel it. I have no time to think now is

the pros and cons of living with your significant other prose when you're dating somebody. I feel like it's a lot more natural to just kind of like co exist in a way where it's like you, don't necessarily need to be talking: twenty four seven, where they filled with friends. You do more like there's more like daily conversation in softwares, like with your significant other events. It's easier to like he's into like a routine where you guys kind of do your own separate thing and I feel like it's a lot more natural and I don't know why that is. But that's just my experience, so I feel, like you'd, still feel, like you had some space while living two other pro is that you know you don't have to miss them as much as anything when you're dating somebody. You really like them.

I miss them all day and all night and whatever, when you're not with them, and you would have to deal with that. If you lived with them and in fact you probably get a little bit sick of them, which could be kind of nice cuz, it was you wouldn't miss them anymore and if you needed space to just go in the other room. Where is when you miss your significant other and he don't live together, you would have to drive to their place in order to see them or fly. If you distance. Ok, it's out you now, whatever cons, I think I would have to drive

to a local coffee shop to take a poop every morning, because the thought of pooping in the same home as a guy that I'm dating is like traumatizing me, which is stupid, because I'm literally twenty years old, I'm not a baby anymore Emma. Why are you so afraid to poop around guys that you're dating good question? I don't know, maybe it's because I have stomach issues and I feel like my bowel movements little bit more wow volcanic and erruptive a hand. I don't want anybody to know about it. Maybe that's why I'm in maybe my some problems have gotten worse within the past few years, and so now is even more scarier for me to think about pooping near at hand, significant others, you zoom saying ah so that's a con for sure another car

would be? You know that you wouldn't experience. The whole distance makes the Lovegrove fonder thing. It's nice when you don't live with your significant other, because then every time you see them, you feel like we euphoric because Europe Oh, my god. I missed you so much even those within twenty four hours, but I missed you so much, whereas live together. You don't have that anymore and I became a bummer. Another comment is that you might argue. More than you would otherwise, but I think that in conclusion, I'd rather like live with my significant other, because I think that it's just more realistic for my lifestyle and my independence like I need my independence and I think that you can establish independence while living with your significant other much better than you can feel it with your friends. That may not necessarily be true

that's just my input. Also. It would be nice for me to have somebody around when I'm crying and need a hug and I think, that's much more enjoyable from a significant other than a friend considering I dont like hugging, my friends which might be weird, but I really dont hugged my friends a lot, and sometimes it actually makes me feel weird almost. I can't explain it, but I do have my friends I do, but it's just like it's just different. Ah, literally, like my ice, water is so cold in it tastes. So good like it's. Like my water, just like is hitting different for me, ran out laggards took a big gulp event in it. Just like. Is hitting different today like some days, you could not get me to drink water, like I just almost gag when I drink water and then

some days I drink water, like oh, my god, this is like so nice, Anyway, I'm having one of his nights it just like tasting better than normal, but whatever some reserve would you rather pressure rewind by non your life or press a pause button on your life? Definitely press a pause button. I would love to presuppose button right now in sleep for two weeks, I don't know what's going on with me, but like I've, been really exhausted recently. It's definitely because of our

Geez. I get allergies to pollen like you know when it's like spring time and all the pollen in flowers start blooming in such I get our jeez and it makes me really tired, really fatigued, and it makes my like knows stuffed up what you could probably here. If you listen closely- and it makes my ears all clogged up in my eyes- get Povey my face gets puffy in is not pleasant, so I would like to sleep for two weeks because I feel like I'm tired right now for my allergies and I would love to pause for a SEC Also, I feel like I have a lot going on and it's always in moments like this, where I very much wish I could just press the pause button so definitely pause my life. I don't want to rewind and go back and relive shit. Trust me like I living it once was enough. Like I

I'm excited about the future more than I am about wishing. I could really the pass. I dont have any desire to relive the past Somerset. Would you rather never use instead, em again are never use. Tik Tok again, definitely never use tik, Tok again Instagram. I proof it's interesting because I Jesus see I've like fuckin scratchy throat from allergies. What's goin on. Let me just take a sip of my refreshingly. Coldwater Delicious. The interesting thing is I like posting on Instagram better than I like posting on, take talk, but I like scrolling through Tik Tok, better than I like posting on Tik Tok, but at the end of the day, I think that scrolling through social media for me as bad in general. So

others have instagram posts on Instagram have fun with that, and then just only scrolling and scrambles influx growing on take tacos were shaped goes wrong. Because I can just sit on there for so long and it's so addictive and next thing. I know I'm anxious and I've seen far too much information in a far too short time, and I just feel like shit and I'm stressed out, tiktoks algorithm genuinely frightens me like just me. Talking about Tik Tok makes me want to go, go look on it! It's bizarre! How addicted I am to take talk. I can't believe it like it's so random like when did this

open to all of us, we're all addicted to it, like even my mom watches, tiktoks she's, like fifty, you know we're all guilty, we're all addicted. It's bad I'd. Definitely rather get rid of Tik Tok, Instagram plus toxic. For me still toxic, don't get me wrong, it's toxic, but lesson Tik Tok somebody said: would you rather get up at five in the morning without coffee or stay up until three, a dot m without coffee, I would say I would rather get about five am without coffee, because I feel it in the morning a much more motivated till I get up and like get going.

Then I am to stay awake late at night. If that makes sense like once eleven o clock heads like I'm normally like in bed and unlike dawn and that's very grandma me- that's very grandma. That's very mom of maim, very middle aged woman of me, but it's true like I feel, like I'm becoming more of a morning person than a night person nowadays now then older, which is crazy because y'all my sleep schedule used to be so bad. I would literally wake up at noon and then go to bed at like three or four in the morning. Soon, as five in the morning sometimes pull an all nighter. If I was like editing a Youtube video or something- and that was my schedule and it was terrible and now I'm more at like a go to bed at one thousand and thirty eleven and then wake up at like anytime between six,

in eight and then that's it and wake me up at five is not actually that bad. As long as you go to bed early enough. So I would say: wake up at five, a dot m with no coffee, and that's that and I'd probably have to take a nap in the middle of the day. But that's fine. So he said. Would you rather have peanut butter stuck to the top of your mouth or toothpaste stuff on your lips? Definitely peanut butter stuck to the top of my mouth. In fact, it would be my pleasure. In fact I wish there was peanut butter stuck to the top of my mouth right now. Peanut butter is literally one of my favorite foods like I might go downstairs after this and eat a spoonful of peanut butter. Like I literally love it recently. I've been buying both creamy and chunky, peanut butter and having both of my pantry at all times,

Because I like to use creamy peanut butter when I cook like let's say if I'm making a peanut sauce or a stir fry or a sandwich, or something like that, I will use creamy peanut butter. But if I'm eating peanut butter with a spoon, I like chunky, peanut butter, I've discovered, and so now I keep. Both kinds in my pantry at all times. What's funny is that I always was a creamy peanut butter person and then one time I bought crunchy on accident, and then it was in my pantry for so long and I was like okay. I should probably get rid of this. I just reply, It meant I wanted to go bad or whatever, even though peanut butter takes years to go bad, but I think it's just my excuse to open another jar when I already had one open whatever, and I discovered that eating crunchy peanut butter with a spoon is one of the more enjoyable experiences. I experience

today bases I love it, and so I would love that peanut butter stuck to the top of my mouth. It's my pleasure and toothpaste stuck on your lips, not only looks embarrassing, but also is really unpleasant to remove. Where is peanut butter being stuck to the top of your mouth is actually a joy and a pleasure to remove you just lick the top of your mouth. Until it's gone, it's a fucking dream come true. Are you guys ready to spice up your

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And not being able to change any of my decisions, even though I like know what's going to happen, and this is because I feel like going to the past in reliving- it has less negative effects right, because you already know what happened in your past. You can remember it going back in, living it could be fun, could be painful, you're, probably going to learn something from it living. You know, living a past experience again, you're, probably going to learn something from it. Right.

Even though you've already lived it being able to do it again, would probably teach you something interesting, even if you can't change anything where is going to the future for a second experiencing that and then coming back to the present would be traumatizing because you'd live in the present moment with this feeling of doom, because you know what's going to happen later, you know what I mean so, instead of like living in the present moment, you're going to live in the present moment, but constantly knowing what's going to happen down the line, and it would take the exciting spontaneity out of life, and that is not good to me. So that's my answer. Somebody said: would you rather live happily ever after with no downs at all, like Justin movies, everything is great or be human and enjoy the life of its ups and downs.

You know. Sometimes. I wish that I could just live life like a movie, in only mean all ups. No downs life is perfect, but that would be a cop out. You know I mean like that would be cheating that would not be living life to the fullest living like to the fullest. Is like experiencing all ranges of emotion in all ranges of challenge, in all ranges of excitement in success and failure. All of that is so important to have a rich life, and if you deny yourself from experiencing extreme lows then you didn't, I I you cannot deny yourself from experiencing extreme highs and I just think that, like floating through life, like a movie as tempting, as that may seem, would take a lot of the substance in the value out of

being a human, and so I would rather live life as a human and experienced the pain, although I'm not why do you guys? I've been having a stressful week and I've felt like shit because of my allergies, and I just had no energy to like do anything and I've just not really been feeling my best, And it's moments like that, where I'm like. I wish. I just lived in a movie where everything was just perfect. You know what I mean, but at the same time it's like it's moments like where I'm in right now, where I just feel kind of like shit physically, like my body just, doesn't feel good cuz of my allergies and I'm stressed out, could save a lot of work to do in such a way that its moments like this, when I We appreciate a vacation one end of going on a vacation, hopefully at some point in the future you know, or I enjoy a weekend off, you know it's like I'm gonna enjoy that shit so much more and that's beautiful.

Somebody said, would you rather far really loud that it almost breaks glass but there's no smell. Or far without a sound, but it's the worst smell ever. While I actually far without a sound, but it's the worst smell ever Actually, in my day to day life like I, You haven't some issues that sometimes make my gas jist unbelievable. That it's come for me, like somebody, would look at me like oh she's, just a little

Nineteen year old girl, she probably doesn't have crazy bad farts. Well, that's where you be wrong. I Filippi boys expect like a really wrong. She far too come from like some sort of like fifty year old Business man who, just like you, know each roast beef but like no like it comes from May two. Apparently the thing about farting in its smelling bad, but nobody knowing it from you, is that you can really easily like get out you know you can get out of it. What I always do, we also want to say what I always do we because animal really, I know is like listening to this than like I'm going be fuckin expose, K, final value. When I found it smells really bad, not one minute, I pretend smell it at all, lay some music, oh my God factor.

Now that now Billig now and now I damn really like I'm I'm smell in something like now. I literally beats me like. I literally cancels anything right now, you actually from in fact the heiress mousing, Delicious Reynaud, actually smallpox summaries, making like cinnamon bonds or something I feel you smell so good out too and then people are like think they're, imagining things it's like it's kind of gas lighting or honestly somebody said: would you rather be extremely hot or extremely cold. I would say, I'd rather be extremely cold because I really hate the sensation of sweat and he'd. Like I really hate it like. I've always hated it. I've always preferred being cold of her being hot, and that's why I keep my ac at like Sir

DE five degrees in my home, because I like being cold for some reason, it's very weird and I'm always cold in my home, like I always I'm, I'm constantly feeling cold and home on a day to day basis like because I make it that way. I make the ac sixty five degrees. I choose this lifestyle, ok and I choose I voluntarily, which makes it pretty obvious to me that I prefer to be called over hot

So I don't know why I'm like that, but, alas, like I, can not fall asleep unless it's freezing cold in my bedroom, like I don't know what it is, something that would you, rather he burgers for day or only drink tea for a day, I would rather drink p, because I can't imagine, then, that bad, actually I drink p before I got, dared to drink p once so. I actually have drink p and I care about. I think, I'm gonna blacked out, because I was so like not happy that I was doing it that I kind of black down the moment, and now I like dollar, member of it even out of flavour, but I have consumed p before as a dare I promise you is Adele this was not voluntary at all. I like got dared to do it.

Reduce like I am, and I have to do it now like while can be a pussy now ass, I drink a sip of pests and out even think it was mine. Actually, which is pretty disgusting but p, is sterile. I think so. Didn't kill me, but I'd run. During p, I've never been somebody you ate my buggers, I never will. I am not judging people who their buggers? But I'm proud to say that I have never been a burger either and I really do not understand the. I really do not understand the whole bugger eating hype. I dont get it. I never have somebody said: would you rather have been in a sorority? If you went to college or being Content House God both of those like my living, how, if you don't know what a sorority is in you, don't know what a content houses is them to briefly explain it.

A sorority is like a group of girls in a college that it's basically like being a part of a club innocence where you guys, you lay charitable acts of things. You guys all due of throw events together at your college. I dont really Have you noticed already is, but that's my basic understanding of it and then and it's it's all in college right and it's like a club basically for girls, okay and then a content house is basically where a bunch of people who make internet content live in a house together and create content together on a we basis, which sounds like my fucking worst nightmare. Sororities are the exact opposite of something that I think I would belong in because

I just there's nothing wrong with Socrates, like I think, they're really great. I know a lot of people who are in college and who, and sororities like meet a lot of friends that way, unlike you know, get to do charity work and it can be a really positive thing but, like I just don't think that that would have worked for me, because I'm just not somebody that, like when your inner sorority you're kind of force to be around a lot of other girls, and like I just very selective about who my friends are, and I just filling a thousand authority would be forced to have like a hundred friend

all of them being my sorority, and I just really don't see that working out very well for me because I just feel like it would feel fake and I would hate it and I don't like forced friendship. So I just don't like that, but being a content house would be an absolute social, climbing nightmare where everybody's collabing, with each other unlike competitive with each other. To answer the question, I think I would be in a sortie yeah. I really like you really just couldn't catch me in in a continent, and you just really couldn't like you. I just couldn't it would be awful. Somebody said: would you rather know how old you are when

you're going to die or how you're going to die. I would say: I'd rather know how I'm going to die, because I don't want to know when I'm going to die, because then I'm just going to constantly be like counting down to that age and, like I don't want to do that. I don't want to know the future like that, like I like the fact that the future is not promised, I don't know, what's going to happen tomorrow, I like that, I don't know that it's actually comforting for me, knowing how I'm gonna die, gives me less information. You know I'm saying and.

You know, even if it says like oh you're, gonna drown, I'm that may make me avoid water, but at least I won't know when it's gonna happen. You know I'm saying so like definitely that so we said, would you rather give up podcasting or youtube now? This is really hard and actually thought long and hard about this. I would say I would give up podcasting now, here's. Why? Because I have a loophole and it's that I could just make longer Youtube videos, whereas.

You know I couldn't just do podcast, you know what I'm saying like I like to show myself doing stuff I like to talk to you guys face to face as well as they like talking you guys over a microphone but, like I feel like I could do podcasting on Youtube or as they couldn't do you. Bon podcasting, so I feel like I would do. I would just really lean into Youtube and start making like our long Youtube videos, if I didn't have this part asked honestly. I probably would have done that by now. If I didn't have a pod cas, so I would definitely give a pod causing, but I'd still kind of do it on Youtube, which means I would be treating a little bit on the game, but in some ways they would you rather be poor with good people around. You are rich and lonely. I love this question because I think it so injured

sing? How different people answer it and my answer would be poor with good people around you, because I know from experience that as much money or fame or whatever that I experience in my life If I will still be miserable, I dont have good people and that's just the God, damn truth of it. It's just the fuckin truth of the matter and having money helps with certain areas of your life, but it doesn't help with genuine connections That's what makes life really truly worth living, so I would definitely rather be poor with good people, and on that note guys, I need to go to bed. I am Lerius, I'm delirious, but I had a lot of fun this with some some fun midnight discussion is a fun midnight

Action- and I hope because enjoyed it and if you did leave anything, goes, a review on Apple pod casts a little five stars and I love reading the reviews eat. I write about the podcast because it makes me feel very connected to you guys and I love hearing your thoughts, and makes me feel really good. Every time I read the reviews, it makes me cry. I say this every week, but I'm not kidding like I. It reminds me why I do what I do and it like why I make these episodes like because I know that it. I know that I like making them- and I know that it's fun for me, but it's like it may it even more clear why'd. I love doing this. When you know I get to see how you guys are connecting with me and is oh.

Marge, relax our crying. It's too late in the evening from units are crying. My emotions shut off at eleven p M, then I became known. Ah, but anyway, leave a little review if you'd like subscribe on Spotify Apple Podcast, wherever you was near, podcast, followed the twitter at eighty podcast to participate in the episodes, and that's all I got you guys today. I love you all. Thank you for listening have an amazing weak. I manifesting a beautiful happy, positive weak for all of you, and also I just started reading a new book, I'm one thousand nine hundred and eighty four by George Orwell and I'll. Let you guys know how that goes, but that's my book recommendation of the day I haven't finished it. So I don't know if I even really like it yet

I'm reading it and I'm enjoying it so far, and that's your book recommendation. Okay, now, I'm really leaving I need to go to bed. You can hear my voice, I'm fucking, exhausted, love you guys Ali by,